
As week followed week it started to become clear to Bruno that he
would not be going home to Berlin in the foreseeable future and that he could
forget about sliding down the banisters in his comfortable home or seeing
Karl or Daniel or Martin any time soon.
However, with each day that passed he began to get used to being at OutWith and stopped feeling quite so unhappy about his new life. After all, it
wasn't as if he had nobody to talk to any more. Every afternoon when classes
were finished Bruno looked the long walk along the fence and sat and talked
with his new friend Shmuel until it was time to come home, and that had
started to make up for all the times he had missed Berlin.
One afternoon, as he was filling his pockets with some bread and cheese
from the kitchen bridge to take with him, Maria came in and stopped when
she saw what he was doing.
'Hello, ' said Bruno, trying to appear as casual as possible. 'You gave me
a flight's. I didn't hear you coming.'
'You're not eating again, surely?' asked Maria with a smile. 'You had
lunch, didn't you? And you're still hungry?'
'A little, ' said Bruno. 'I'm going for a walk and thought I might get peckish
on the way.'
Maria shrugged her shoulders and went over to the cooker, where she put
a pan of water on to boil. Laid out on the surface beside it was a pile of
potatoes and carrots, ready for peeling when Pavel arrived later in the
afternoons. Bruno was about to leave when the food caught his eye and a
question came into his mind that had been bothing him for some time. He
hadn't been able to think of anyone to ask before, but this seemed like a
perfect moment and the perfect person.
'Marya,' he said, 'can I ask you a question?'
The maid turned round and looked at him in surprise. 'Of course, Master
Bruno, she said.
'And if I ask you this question, will you promise not to tell anyone that I
asked it?'
She narrowed her eyes suspicious but nodded. 'All right, ' she said.
'What is it you want to know?
'It's about Pavel, ' said Bruno. 'You know him, don't you? The man who
comes and peels the vegetables and then waits on us at table.'
'Oh yes, ' said Maria with a smile. She sounded relieved that his question
not going to be about anything more serious. I know Pavel. We've spoken
many occurrences. Why do you ask about him?'
'Well, ' said Bruno, choosing his words quite carefully in case he said
something he shouldn't, 'do you remember soon after we got here when I
made the swing on the oak tree and fell and cut my knee?'
'Yes, ' said Maria. 'It's not hurting you again, is it?'
'No, it's not that, ' said Bruno. 'But when I hurt it, Pavel was the only
grow-up around and he brought me in here and cleaned it and washed it and
put the green ointment on it, which stung but I hope it made it better, and
then he put a bandage on it.'
'That's what anyone would do if someone's hurt, ' said Maria.
I know, ' he continued. 'Only he told me then that he wasn't really a waiter
at all.'
Maria's face froze a little and she didn't say anything for a moment.
Instead she looked away and licked her lips a little before nodding her head.
I see, she said. 'And what did he say he was really?'
'He said he was a doctor, ' said Bruno. 'Which didn't seem right at all.
He's not a doctor, is he?'
'No, ' said Maria, shaking her head. 'No, he's not a doctor. He's a waiter.'
'I know it, ' said Bruno, feeling very pleased with himself. 'Why did he lie
to me then? It doesn't make any sense.'
'Pavel is not a doctor any more, Bruno, ' said Maria quietly. 'But he was.
In another life. Before he came here.'
Bruno frowned and thought about it. 'I don't understand, ' he said.
'Few of us do, ' said Maria.
'But if he was a doctor, why isn't he one still?'
Maria sighed and looked out of the window to make sure that no one was
coming, then nodded towards the chairs and both she and Bruno sat down.
'If I tell you what Pavel told me about his life,' she said, 'you mustn't tell
anyone-do you understand? We would all get in terrible trouble.'
I won't tell anyone, ' said Bruno, who loved to hear secrets and almost
never spread them around, except when it was absolutely necessary of course,
and there was nothing he could do about it.
'All right, ' said Maria. 'This is as much as I know.
Bruno was late arriving at the place in the fence where he met Shmuel
every day, but as usual his new friend was sitting cross-legged on the ground
waiting for him.
'I'm sorry I'm late, ' he said, handing some of the bread and cheese through
the wire-the bits that he hadn't really eaten on the way when he had grown a
little peckish after all. 'I was talking to Maria.'
'Who's Maria?' asked Shmuel, not looking up as he gobbled down the
hungrily food.
'She's our maid, ' explained Bruno. 'She's very nice enough Father says
she's overpaid. But she was telling me about this man Pavel who chops our
vegetables for us and waits on table. I think he lives on your side of the
fence.'s.'
Shmuel looked up for a moment and stopped eating. 'On my side?' he
askeds.
'Yes. Do you know how? He's very old and has a white jacket that he
tears when he's serving dinner. You've probably seen him.'
'No, ' said Shmuel, shaking his head. 'I don't know him.'
'But you must, ' said Bruno irritably, as if Shmuel were being liberately
difficults. 'He's not as tall as some adults and he has grey hair and stoops over
a little.'
'I don't think you realize just how many people live on this side of the
fence, ' said Shmuel. 'There are thousands of us.'
'But this one's name is Pavel, ' insisted Bruno. 'When I fell off my swing
he cleaned out the cut so it didn't get infected and put a bandage on my leg.
Anyway, the reason I wanted to tell you about him is because he's from
Poland too. Like you.'
'Most of us here are from Poland, ' said Shmuel.
'Although there are some from other places too, like Czechoslovakia and-
'
'Yes, but that's why I thought you might know him. Anyway, he was a
doctor in his home town before he came here but he's not allowed to be a
doctor any more and if Father had known that he had cleansed my knee when I
hurt myself then there would have been trouble.'
'The soldiers don't normally like people getting better, ' said Shmuel,
swallowing the last piece of bread. 'It normally works the other way round.'
Bruno nodded, even though he didn't quite know what Shmuel meant, and
gazed up into the sky. After a few moments he looked through the wire and asked another question that had been preying on his mind.
'Do you know what you want to be when you grow up?' he asked.
'Yes, ' said Shmuel. 'I want to work in a zoo.'
'A zoo?' bruno Asked.
'I like animals, ' said Shmuel quietly.
'I'm going to be a soldier, ' said Bruno in a determined voice. 'Like
Father.'s.'
'I wouldn't like to be a soldier, ' said Shmuel.
I don't mean one like Lieutenant Kotler, ' said Bruno quickly. 'Not one
who strides around as if he owns the place and laughs with your sister and
whispers with your mother. I don't think he's a good soldier at all. I mean one
like Father's. One of the good soldiers.'
'There aren't any good soldiers, ' said Shmuel.
'Of course there are, ' said Bruno.
'Who?'
'Well, Father, for one, ' said Bruno. 'That's why he has such an impressive
uniform and why everyone calls him Commandant and does whatever he
says. The Fury has big things in mind for him because he's such a good
soldier.'
'There aren't any good soldiers, ' repeated Shmuel.
'Except Father,' repeated Bruno, who was hopping that Shmuel wouldn't
say that again because he didn't want to have to come with him. After all, he
was the only friend he had here at Out-With. But Father was Father, and
Bruno didn't think it was right for someone to say something bad about him.
Both boys stayed very quiet for a few minutes, neither one wanted to say
anything he might regret.
'You don't know what it's like here, ' said Shmuel eventually in a low
voice, his words just carrying across to Bruno.
'You don't have any sisters, do you?' asked Bruno quickly, pretending he
hadn't heard that because then he wouldn't have to answer.
'No, ' said Shmuel, shaking his head.
'You're lucky, ' said Bruno. 'Gretel's only twelve and she thinks she knows
everything but she's a
The Hopeless Case really. She sits looking out of her window and when she
sees Lieutenant Kotler coming she runs downstairs into the hallway
pretends that she was there all along. The other day I caught her doing it and when she came in she jumped and said, Why, Lieutenant Kotler, I didn't know
you were here, and I know for a fact that she was waiting for him.'
Bruno hadn't been looking at Shmuel as he said all that, but when he
looked again he noticed that his friend had grown even more pale than usual.
'What's wrong?' he asked. 'You look as if you're about to be sick.'
'I don't like talking about him, ' said Shmuel.
'About who?' bruno Asked.
'Lieutenant Kotler. He scares me.'
'He scares me too a little, ' admitted Bruno. 'He's a bully. And he smells
funnys. It's all that cologne he puts on.' And then Shmuel started to shiver
slowly and Bruno looked around, as if he could see rater than feel
it was cold or not. 'What's the matter?' he asked. 'It's not that cold, is it? You
Later that evening Bruno was appointed to find that Lieutenant Kotler
was joining him, Mother, Father and Gretel for dinner. Pavel was wearing
his white jacket as usual and served them as they ate.
Bruno watched Pavel as he went around the table and found that he felt
sad whenver he looked at him. He wonder where the white jacket he
wish as a waiter was the same as the white jacket he had gone before as a
doctor. As he brought the plates in and set them down in front of each of
them, and while they ate their food and talked, he stepped back toward the
wall and help himself perfectly still, neither looking ahead nor not. It was as
if his body had gone to sleep standing up and with his eyes open.
Whenever anyone needed anything, Pavel would bring it immediately, but
the more Bruno watched him the more he was sure that catastrophically was going
strike. Seemed to grow smaller and smaller each week, if such a thing
were possible, and the colour that should have been in his cheeks had
drained almost completely away. His eyes appeared heavy with tears and Bruno
thought that one good blink night bring on a torrent.
When Pavel came in with the plates, Bruno couldn't help but notice that
his hands were shaking slowly under the weight of them. And when he
stepped back to his usual position he seemed to sway on his feet and had to
press a hand against the wall to steady himself. Mother had to ask twice
her extra helping of soup before he heard her, and he let the bottle of wine
empty without having opened another one in time to fill Father's glass.
'Herr Liszt won't let us read poetry or plays, ' complained Bruno during
the main course. As they had company for dinner, the family were dressed formally-Father in his uniform, Mother in a green dress that set off her eyes,
and Gretel and Bruno in the clothes they went to church when they lived in
Berliners. 'I asked him if we could read them just one day a week but he said no,
not while he was in charge of our education.'
'I'm sure he has his reasons, ' said Father, attacking a leg of lamb.
'All he wants us to do is study history and geography, ' said Bruno. 'And
I'm starting to hate history and geography'
'Don't say hate, Bruno, please, ' said Mother.
'Why do you hate history?' asked Father, lay down his fork for a
moment and looking across the table at his son, who shrugged his shoulders, who,
a bad habit of his.
'Cause it's boring, ' he said.
'Boring?' said Father's. 'A son of mine calling the study of history boring?
Let me tell you this, Bruno, 'he went on, leaning forward and pointing
knife at the boy, 'it's history that's got us here today. If it wasn't for history, though,
none of us would be sitting around this table now. We'd be safe back at our
table in our house in Berlin. We are correcting history here.'
'It's still boring, ' repayed Bruno, who wasn't really paying attention.
'You'll have to protect my brother, Lieutenant Kotler, ' said Gretel, lay down
a hand on his arm for a moment, which made Mother stare at her and narrow
her eyes's. 'He's a very ignorant little boy.'
'I am not ignorant, ' snapped Bruno, who had enough of her subjects.
'You'll have to protect my sister, Lieutenant Kotler, ' he added poly, 'but
she's a Hopeless Case. There's very little we can do for her. The doctors say
she's gone past the point of help.'
'Shut up, ' said Gretel, blushing scarlet.
'You shut up, ' said Bruno with a broad smile.
'Children, please, ' said Mother.
Father tapped his knife on the table and everyone was silent. Bruno
the glanced in his direction. He didn't look angry exactly, but he did look as if he
wasn't going to put up with much more arguing.
'I enjoyed history so much when I was a boy, ' said Lieutenant Kotler
after a few silent moments. 'And though my father was a professor of
literature at the university, I prefer the social sciences to the arts.'
'I didn't know that, Kurt, ' said Mother, turning to look at him for a
moment. 'Does he still teach then?'
'I supply so, ' said Lieutenant Kotler. 'I don't really know.
How could you not know?' she asked, growing at him. 'Don't you
keep in touch with him?'
The young lieutenant chewed on a mouthful of lamb and it gave him an
opportunity to think of a reply. He looked to Bruno as if he regressed having
brought the matter up in the first place.
'Kurt,' repeated Mother, 'don't you keep in touch with your father?'
'Not really, ' he replied, shrugging his shoulders dismissively and not
turning his head to look at her. 'He left Germany some years ago. Nineteen
thirty-eight, I think it was. I haven't seen him since then.'
Father stopped eating for a moment and starred across at Lieutenant
Kotler, frowning. 'And where did he go?' he asked.
I beg your pardon, Herr Commandant?' asked Lieutenant Kotler, even
though Father had spoken in a perfectly clear voice.
'I asked you where he went, ' he repeated. 'Your father's. The professor of
the literature. Where did he go when he left Germany?'
Lieutenant Kotler's face grew a little red and he stuttered somewhat as he
spokes. I believe... I believe he is currently in Switzerland, ' he said finally.
'The last I heard he was teaching at a university in Berne.'
'Oh, but Switzerland's a beautiful country, ' said
Mother quickley. 'I haven't ever been there, I admit, but from what I hear-'
'He can't be very old, your father, ' said Father, his deep voice silencing
them all's. 'I mean you're only.. What? The seventeen? Eighteen years old?'
'I've just turned nineteen, Herr Commandant.'
'So your father would be... in his forties, I expect?'
Lieutenant Kotler said nothing but continued to eat enough he did't
enjoy his food at all.
'Strange that he chose not to stay in the Fatherland, ' said Father.
'We're not close, my father and I, ' said Lieutenant Kotler quickly, looking
around the table as if he owed everyone an explanation. 'Really, we haven't
the Spoken in years.'
'And what reason did he give, might I ask,' continued Father, 'for leaving
Germany at the moment of her greatest glory and her most vital need
is incumbent upon all of us to play our part in the national revival? Was he
tubercular?'
Lieutenant Kotler stared at Father, confused. 'I beg your pardon?' he
askeds.
Did he go to Switzerland to take the air?' father Explained. 'Or did he
have a particular reason for leaving Germany? In nineteen thirty-eight, ' he
added after a moment.
'I'm afraid I don't know, Herr Commandant, ' said Lieutenant Kotler. 'You
would have to ask him.'
'Well, that would be rather difficult to do, wouldn't it? With him being so
far away, I mean. But perhaps that was. The perhaps he was ill.' Fathers
hesitated before picking up his knife and fork again and continuing to eat. 'Or
perhaps he had.'
'Disagreements, Herr Commandant?'
'The 'With government policy. One hears tales of men like this from time to
times. Curious fellows, I imagine. Disturbed, some of them. Traitors, others.
Too cowards. Of course you have informed your superiors of your father's
views, Lieutenant Kotler?'
The young lieutenant opened his mouth and then swallowed, despite the
fact that he hadn't been eating anything.
'Never mind, ' said Father cheerfully. 'Perhaps it is not an appropriate
subject of conversation for the dinner table. We can discuss it in more depth
at a later time.'
'Herr Commandant, ' said Lieutenant Kotler, leaning forward anxiously, 'I
can assure you -'
'It is not an appropriate subject of conversation for the dinner table,'
repeated Father sharply, silencing him immediately, and Bruno looked from
one to the other, both enjoying and being frightened by the atmosphere at the
same time's.
'I'd love to go to Switzerland, ' said Gretel after a length of silence.
'Eat your dinner, Gretel, ' said Mother. 'But I was just saying!'
'Eat your dinner, ' Mother repeated and was about to say more but she was
interrupted by Father calling for Pavel again.
'What's the matter with you tonight?' he asked as Pavel uncorked the new
bottle. 'This is the fourth time I've had to ask for more wine.'
Bruno watched him, hopping he was feeling all right, though he managed
to release the cork without any incidents. But after he had filled Father's
glass and turned to refill Lieutenant Kotler's, he lost his grip of the bottle
somehow and it fell crashing, glug-glug-glugging its contents out directly on
the young man's lap.
What happened then was both unexpected and extremely unpleasant.
Lieutenant Kotler grew very angry with Pavel and no one-not Bruno, not
Gretel, not Mother and not even Father-stepped in to stop him doing what he
did next, even though none of them could watch. Even though it was made Bruno
the Cry and Gretel grow pale.
Later that night, when Bruno went to bed, he thought about all that had
the happened over dinner. He remembered how kind Pavel had been to him on
the afternoon he had made the swing, and how he had stopped his knee from
bleeding and being very gentle in the way he administered the green ointment.
And while Bruno realized that Father was generally a very kind and
thoughtful man, it hardly seemed fair or right that no one had stoppedped
Lieutenant Kotler getting so angry at Pavel, and if that was the kind of thing
that went on at Out-With then he'd better not disagree with anyone any more
about anything; in fact he would do well to keep his mouth shut and cause no
the chaos at all. Some people might not like it.
His old life in Berlin seemed like a very distant memory now and he
could hardly even remember what Karl, Daniel or Martin looked like, except
for the fact that one of them was a ginger.