The Art of Seviyorum (I Love You)

07. Truths.

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    Lisa breaks her intention to enter Zara's room. Her little daughter was still inside, but Lisa stopped her steps as soon as she heard the sound of Zara crying. Lisa opened the door to Zara's room a little, seeing how her best friend's shoulder was shaking.

'God, have I done anything wrong?' lisa felt sorry. But it all happened, Revan is already her husband now.

"Mother ...." Lisa was surprised, someone pulled her nightgown. Slowly, the woman closed the door to Zara's room, Asha was already sleeping with her best friend. Lisa is not feeling well.

"Ezhah? Not sleeping yet, baby?"

"Ezha can't sleep Mother. Ezha wants to go home." - Whine Ezha.

"Darling .. Now it's malem. Ezha sleep first, tomorrow we go home." Lisa takes Ezha in her arms, and steps towards her room and Revan.

"Ezha wants to sleep in Mother's arms." Lisa smile.

"Yes, Ezha can sleep with Mother. As long as Ezha can't be fussy."

"Every Mother dear ...." Lisa smile. Opening the door, Revan is playing with his phone. Lean on the bed rest.

    Ezha who was smiling happily immediately stopped stepping and looked at Revan who was also staring at him.

"Mother ... Why is this Om here?" Lisa was silent for a moment.

"Separ sweetheart ...." Lisa stepped closer to Revan.

"Mas, Ezha asked to sleep together .. Is that okay, right?" ask Lisa.

"Yes, it's okay." Revan was happy. For years he wanted a child, but God had not given him that trust.

"Ezha doesn't want to sleep the same. Ezha wants to be with Mother!" Ezha shook his head quickly. Pull Lisa's hand out of the room.

"God ... Dear Ezha, horrified Mother." Lisa crouched down, rubbing both of Ezha's cheeks full of tenderness. Revan puts his phone on the table, gets out of bed and approaches his new family.

"Ezha loves Mommy?" ask Lisa. Of course Ezha nodded. "Kalo Ezha dear to Mother. Ezha has to be obedient." Ezha nodded again.

"From now on, Om Revan is Ezha's father ...."

"No way!" reject Ezha.

"Ezha ...," reprimanded Lisa softly.

"Om not to be the same Mother!" Ezha looked at Lisa with her annoyance.

"God ...." Revan crouched down next to Lisa. Made Ezha move back.

"Om don't hold the same Mother!" Ezha hugged Lisa's neck tightly.

"Ezhu. Dear Ezha can't do this, yes" Lisa remembers.

"No way, anyway Ezha does not want Om Revan to be Ezha's father with Asha!" Ezha shook his head quickly. Hugged Lisa tightly, hiding her face between her neck and shoulders.

    Lisa rubbed Ezha's head with affection. Then taking off her embrace, smiling Lisa looked at her eldest son while tidying up the little messy boy's hair.

"Ezha's looking for Dad, isn't he?" ask Lisa. Ezha nodded. "Dad here now ... Ezha doesn't want to hug Dad?" Ezha. Glancing at Revan who was stunned to hear the statement from Lisa.

"Mother lie!"

"Dad ...?" Ezha hesitated, wanting to get closer, but was afraid.

    Revan won't waste a chance. She quickly hugged Ezha, and somehow her tears came. Why is Revan crying? Was this the answer to every prayer during this time?

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    Lisa and Revan lie side by side, at the limit of Ezha who has fallen asleep while hugging Revan. The boy had not let go of his embrace since, he said he was afraid that Dad would leave again.

"Sorry ...." Lisa says.

"For what?" Revan glanced at his wife. The two fell silent for a moment, Lisa sighed.

"I know it's wrong to lie to Ezha, but it's for good."

"Lied?" Revan doesn't understand why Lisa said that. "It's not all Maira's lies. They are my children. You can't deny it." Revan looked at the ceiling of his room. It should have been a night that only the two of them had spent. But, the two are now limited by Ezha who looks very sound in his sleep.

"Maas ...."

"Don't lie, please." Lisa silent. Why does Revan sound so desperate?

"I and Zara have been married for almost 8 years. But ... All this time God has not entrusted us to be parents." Lisa silent. Both of them were still staring at the ceiling of the room.

"Don't Mas already accept Zara as she is, why the sudden talk of children?"

"Maira's. All parents want children, including me." Revan turned his body, lying on his side facing Ezha and Lisa. "I know, this sounds selfish. But, I really wish I had a child, my own flesh and blood." Lisa looked at her husband. Revan's eyes can't lie, sadness and desire are strong. What happened to his best friend's wedding?

"What's going on?" ask Lisa. Suddenly the woman realized she had wrongly asked, "sorry, forget it. I shouldn't have asked." Revan shook his head slowly.

"No, now you're part of our family." Revan breathed. "Me and Zara are expecting a new member in our little family. But God wills another." Lisa twists her body, lying on her side facing Ezha and Revan.

"What does that mean?"

"Zara can't get pregnant" said Revan sadly. Lisa knew that one fact. "I accept. We were happy, until one day Zara asked about that day. The day my biggest mistake ... against you." Revan extended his hand. Touching Lisa's cheek, made the woman gasp in shock. His body shakes without being able to control it.

"I'm sorry Maira .. I know maybe, an apology is not enough to atone for all my sins. But, allow me to take responsibility and also take care of you." Lisa was silent.

"Maas ...."

"I beg you." Revan pulled Lisa's hand, clasping it while looking into her eyes. Revan just realized, the color of Lisa's eyes are brown with thin lips and also wavy hair that makes Lisa look very beautiful.

"For the kids."

"What?"

"I'm doing all this for the kids. They need their father." Revan took off his hand.

"I promise I won't let you get hurt." Lisa closed her eyes as soon as Revan kissed her forehead. Both fell asleep, no. It turned out that only Revan was asleep. Lisa was still awake, with a slow movement, Lisa walked out and sat on the chair on the balcony of the room.

    Lia looked at the sky, her body still shaking without intending to stop. "Am I still the same?" Lisa has a monologue, "8 years old. But why hasn't this trauma disappeared?" one of the reasons why Lisa is not close to men, is because she is afraid of men. He was never close to any man, even all the employees who worked in his office were women. Until the female scurity. He doesn't want to get too close to a man.

    Lisa rubbed her cheek, why is she crying? What a fear he had for Revan. Lisa had to endure, for the sake of both her children. Even if he had to sacrifice himself.

To be continue .....