That Handsome Ketos, my Beloved

Why Am I So Like This?

"Ryan, why are you thinking about it? He's not important" Ryan said in a soft voice.

"But why don't I like watching him chat with Ronald?" ryan asked himself.

Tell Dinda that you're in love with her.

Ryan recalled the words that Dr. Lucy had said.

"No. That's not possible. He's not important. He doesn't think of me as anyone. So, of course, I don't have to think of him as anyone either" Ryan said, shaking his head. He picked up his pen again and was about to record the material again but his mind thought of Dinda continuously.

Ryan, for now you are not aware. But you don't know that you like it either, do you? You're just trying to avoid this.

"Not knowingly? L like? Dodge? Who is evading? Me? I wasn't. No. gabe. Not likely. I can't possibly like it." Ryan said as he tried to get rid of his thoughts that were only going to Dinda.

Wh why? Afraid of being rejected by her?

"Huh, where there is. L'm.. Who's afraid? I don't even like it. Yeah, correct. I really don't like it." said Ryan reassuring himself as he took a deep breath and threw it away violently.

Haha. Ryan, look at you. You are this handsome and smart. How can a woman refuse your love?

"really. Dinda also won't be able to resist me." said Ryan as he wore a thin smile that was barely visible.

"Well! Whaaat! What did you just say, Ryan!" ryan snapped to himself. He also ruffled his hair because he himself felt confused about him. Falling in love is like that, our former selves are no longer those of us who are in love.

"Doctor Lucy's been around!" grouchy Ryan. He's gonna call Dr. Lucy. However, his intention was uninterrupted when he saw a phone call coming first.

Ci Cilla's

[Hello, Ryan. How are you?] priscilla asked while showing her sweet smile on the video call.

[Hello, ci. Ryan's good. That cici?] ryan smiled as well.

[Cici good. Ryan, congratulations on your victory. I'm sorry the sneer couldn't come to see you play basketball live.] Priscilla said scowling.

[It's okay, Ci Cilla. Ryan understands. Was she happy there?] ryan asked with a smile.

[Yes, Ryan. Cici is fine.] answered Priscilla.

[Thank God, ] said Ryan.

[Ryan, you little girl have good news and bad news. Which one do you want to hear first?] ask Priscilla.

[The bad news is that the cici will not be able to accompany you for long when the cici is allowed to go home later.] Priscilla said.

[Then? What's the good news?] ryan asked impatiently.

[The good news is that papa's letting the sneakers come home next week!] priscilla replied with great enthusiasm. He can't wait to meet his only sister.

[So, the cici will be here next week? How long do you plan to stay in Indonesia?] ryan asked with a smile. He misses his great-grandson who has not returned to Indonesia for a year.

[Yes. Maybe only 3 days. You miss the cici?] ask Priscilla.

[Not at all.] replied Ryan indifferently.

[Don't lie! Doesn't the cici always remind you not to lie? Cici knows you miss cici.] said Priscilla.

[Alright. Ja. I miss Ci Cilla. Why?] ryan asked, putting on his arrogant face.

[That's my sister's new. Okay, Ryan. Cici had to finish some of the remaining files. Get some sleep, it's 22:40.] Priscilla said.

[Yes, ci. Ryan is not a child anymore. Cici also went to bed after finishing everything.] Ryan said.

[You're still a little kid in the sneaky eye, Ryan. Alright. See you tomorrow, bye.] Priscilla ended her video call.

"alright. I'm going to take notes and practice right up here" Ryan said, pointing to his laptop screen, which was clearly a lot of formulas and physics exercises.

After finishing everything, Ryan went to his bed. He put his arm under his head. He sleeps like this every day. But today he could not sleep.

"Si*l, why does he have to be again?" grouchy Ryan. He was upset with his own thoughts because he kept thinking about Dinda.

"Ah this is really driving me crazy" Ryan said.

"Hey brain, work together" Ryan said, holding his head as if he were commanding it to his brain.

"Stop thinking about the girl" said Ryan in the same position as before. Holding his head, then taking a breath and throwing it away. He took the glass full of water in his room and drank it in half.

"OKAY. Let's go to sleep again!" ryan told himself to go to sleep again. But still it didn't work. He got up to sit on the headboard of his bed.

"Well.. Why can't I sleep because of him? Why am I being like this?" ryan asked as he ruffled his hair. That night, he couldn't sleep at all.

Seriate.....