Substitute Father for My Son

Faruch's secret

Today is exactly where I started to get to work. And during that time also mas farukh did not ask for his rights as a husband.

I've often asked if she doesn't want her rights, but she always answers that she feels sorry for me because I'm a young pregnant woman who is very vulnerable, and he doesn't want anything bad to happen to me.

I also understand his concerns, but still I feel guilty about him, because however the bathin's living becomes mandatory for humans, especially men who in fact have sexual passion more than women.

As usual, we also pray at dawn. After the prayer I was in the kitchen making a menu for our breakfast.

"When we have breakfast, I'm ready for breakfast on the table." I went into the room because I saw my husband sitting on the edge of our bed.

"E uh yeah lia, just a second, I want to wear a jacket first." Say it while shaking.

"What is mas?" Ask me when I see a piece of paper in his hand and he immediately keeps it in his jacket pocket.

"Let me explain yes, now we have breakfast first yuk." Bring along.

I took a plate for her and filled it with our breakfast.

"Mas, is there something I'm hiding from you?" I asked immediately, because I was really curious and until I forgot that mas farukh had not touched the food.

Farukh looked at me.

"Okay, I think I have to be honest with you." He said holding my hand.

Then he pulled out a piece of paper that I had seen earlier.

"This is what you're trying to read first." He gave the paper to me.

I read it too.

" This is what does it mean, mas?" I don't understand the contents of the paper.

"Before I wanted to apologize to you, because I hid all this from you lia." Say again.

" Yes but that's what's the contents of the mas? I really don't understand the contents of the letter." Ask me more and more curious.

Then the furukh mas exhaled very heavy breathing was heard by me.

" This is my medical record." Say again.

"You sick, man? What's that sick of you? Is it not dangerous mas pain? Let's go check into the hospital again." I'm anxious.

" You calm down, yes, it's not good for your fetus's health if you're worried about it." Said win me.

"Alright mas will answer, yes it is true lia, mas is indeed in a state of pain. This mas pain has been diagnosed by doctors when I was a child." Hanging words.

"Yes but what pain? Don't worry me, I don't want to lose you." I said while glazed.

"Have you been told mas bambang that mas had a high fever as a child" he asked again.

"Yes mas, indeed before we met mas bambang once said that there is a shortage due to high fever as a child."

"But I did not ask further what your shortcomings were, because at that time, it was, all I have in mind is that I will accept all the advantages and disadvantages of my partner in the future because he has been willing to sacrifice a lot for me and my future child."

"What's the pain?" Ask me again.

"Actually the disease of mas began not from the high fever, but.." Again he hung his words.

I can't wait to hear the explanation of mas farukh but I also don't want to cut his words.

I could see that the trauma was so deep for mas farukh that his voice shook as he told it.

I clasped the tighter my husband's hand, so that his tightness was slightly reduced.

"Mas was abused when he was 4 years old. Not only once did the man do it. Even many times."

" Until one day mas has a high fever due to infection in the sewer. Even mas was unconscious for 3 days due to body temperature is too high and often experienced seizures."

"When doctors gave lab results to both parents, it was seen that mas experienced sexual abuse and would have fatal consequences if they were adults later."

"At that time my parents immediately searched for the man and imprisoned him."

"But as a result of that, you have to do therapy and take medication to get the trauma gone."

"And you know what the impact of the trauma is, which is premature ejaculation." He said while looking at me deeply.

"What do you mean, mas? Honestly, I'm just a country girl and I'm just graduating high school. I don't understand that, Mas." Saying again.

"Early ejaculation is the condition a man issues ****** too soon during sexual intercourse. This condition results in non-fulfillment of ****** or satisfaction to the spouse or to the man himself." Said explained.

"I cannot touch you until I tell you my true problem."

"I don't want you to be disappointed because of my lack." Said lowered.

" Geez, why don't you tell me from yesterday mas, why do you keep your own problems this mas."

"Do you know that I doubted myself that I didn't deserve you because you never touched me."

"I've always wanted to ask you, do you regret marrying me, do you disgust me after we get married."

"But it's all I can do for you, because I'm afraid of the truth."

"The fact that all the questions are true." My words cry.

Seeing me cry, Farukh hugged me.

" No lia, until whenever mas will never regret marrying you, mas will never disgust you. Precisely now I feel that half my soul has been on you lia." He hugged me tighter.

"I'm sorry mas lia, but yesterday was not ready to tell this disgrace to you. I don't know where to start." Say again.

"So how the results of the mas therapy, can it be cured mas?" My toot.

"Mas does not know the effect of the therapy to what extent, because you do not have a wife, so how can you try it." He smiled meaningfully.

Seeing his smile I became clumsy, because honestly I also deg deg an when mas farukh invited me to try it later tonight.

"Yes, it's better if we have breakfast first, then we're just as late to work." My words divert.

"Ok deh then, later you go mas anterin yes, all of you want to see the location where you work." Her speech.

" Okay, who's afraid. Eh but aren't you afraid of being late?" Ask me.

"No, for the sake of my beloved wife, anything will be done." Said gnawing.

"Iiihih gombal." My words sneer.

We continued the delayed breakfast.