Stupid Woman

Pain Yes Very Pain This Heart

I don't know what's on Mas Dodi's mind, to the point of hurting my heart.

I don't know what I did to him.

I called him repeatedly through Gaway but was always ignored by me.

"Mba, how are you?", a short message from out of nowhere reached my salary.

" Who is this?", I replied

"I'm Desti mba!",

Instantly my heart felt broken mixed,

dare to really say hello to me so, there is no feeling in his mind because it has destroyed my household.

" I just want to say, thank you mba, make her hand that was left to Mas Dodi!".

"Basic woman******!!", I swear to heart.

Tomorrow Mas Dodi comes back to see me and Fatih.

" Deck!!",

I just kept quiet, I'm sick of it now even more sick of my husband.

"Actually, this is because of adek too",

" Hah, it is clear that he was wrong just now to blame me!", I muttered inwardly.

"Mas, dear equally adek,Mas want us to get along again deck!, let Mas solve the problem Mas same Desti first huh?!",

" Gold, it's wrong because of the same land coffee time friends, Mas Anter Desti came home but not until his house, in the middle of the road home Desti accident, he had bleeding in the brain".

"Why not die!", O God may I sin to pray badly, but my heartache is too sore.

" Don't you surely pray Desti dies or whatever it is".

It was as if Mas Dodi already knew my way of thinking.

"Mas, just want responsibility for what happened to Desti, because everything is wrong Mas, Dek!",

" Mas also know Mas has hurt a lot of people here, including Desti's husband!",

"What is their blind love, for it has afflicted many, those whom they have loved",

" Desti, yesterday his head hurt, he just wanted to be delivered by Mas to the hospital",

"Instead of the itchy woman, the destroyer of people's households?", I swore in my heart.

" Mas , now realize, because this should never happen, because Mas needed a storymate, and accidentally met Desti, who both had problems in his household",

"What did Mas say, problem, what problem do you mean Mas?!!", I shouted.

" The one who cheated, secretly stabbed me in the back, now Mas blames me!!",

"I always obey all the commands of Mas, I obey Mas, because I was not born from a respected person, because I am not from a rich family,or is it because I've left my job with a position that's already good for you!"my emotions are getting out of control.

Mas Dodi just listened without refuting in the slightest, He just lowered his head deeply.

Sobbing so much that I, who I thought obeying all my household priests was my duty, turned out I was wrong, yes I was wrong for loving the wrong person.

" You can't be so, Grandpa!",

"Have you forgotten, you married Mas, you are no longer a virgin".

Though from the beginning before marriage, I told you all, I was honest to be honest.

because, I don't want any lies between me and Mas Dodi before marriage.

But it was Mas Dodi justdu who convinced me that he was different from my ex-boyfriend, who ruined my future.

And this day has been answered, there will be no husband who will not bring up your ugliness later, when there are problems.

I've resigned yes, maybe it's all my fault, wrong for having a dark past, wrong for having the wrong life partner.

" I..I resigned Mas, even though we no longer have a soul mate!".

"Sir, Dek, Mas will keep our marriage".

O Allah what is in his heart Mas Dodi.

" Tomorrow we go home to the village, Mas also wants to think, and reflect on Mas's mistakes!", said Mas Dodi.

I just nodded in silence.

The next day I started packing the things I was carrying, then we left the village by bus, the right bus with the purpose.

In the morning at 07:00 we arrived.

Either because of shame or what, but obviously the people of one village already know the Mas Dodi affair that viral, because Desti who mempoating everything on my social media is plowed by him.

Mas Dodi walked towards the house by turning through the back road, so that no one saw maybe he thought.

instead, he met his own friend, who immediately greeted him.

I smiled a little, because Mas Dodi's mission to avoid it failed.

It had been three days at home, but we always slept apart, I let it be, it might take some time to calm our minds.

When Mas Dodi fell asleep I opened the runway, and how again I was lied to by Mas Dodi.

He kept a photo of the woman on his phone, even in his wallet.

I shed my tears again and again without my asking.

"You're why, 'Dek!", asked Mas Dodi who looked like a fool.

I don't answer just to show you what I saw.

" Dek, help you do not open up Mas Gaway first yes, then you will get more hurt, let Mas solve Mas's problem first.

I immediately ran to my room, but before I got to the door, I was drowning.

When I realized I was already in the room with Fatih, I remembered what happened, and again tears fell on my cheeks.

I want to feel like I'm a fool with all this, but I can't.

"Why am I always hurt by the people I love" I complained.

Every day Mas Dodi convinced me with all his sweet words again, sweet words that made a gaping wound in my heart.

After a month in my hometown, Mas Dodi asked me for permission to return to Jakarta, to solve the problem.

Yes all the problems, of course with the destroyer woman.

Arriving in Jakarta, Mas Dodi told me that he had arrived there.