Still Love You's

The sadness of Felicia

we just met two days ago.I just started to get used to myself in a new environment.

I want to remember your name for a moment.

Ale...

"Ale?" my broom with a sweet smile to see you standing before me.

"good afternoon doctor"

"yes? what's up?"

"we're here for routine check-ups"

and I'm starting to like you. Your flat face without a smile always makes me tickle to carve it.

"let's go in" I put a stethoscope around my pink neck that I ordered specially.

start to check out ten people and last you.

"any other complaints?"

"sir Ale has trouble sleeping doctor's book" one of the men who lined up neatly complained about your bad habits that made me smile.

"has a boyfriend yet?" I chimed in and still checked your heart rate, which is getting faster.

"not yet doc, many are scared before they can be his girlfriend chairman!" another sahut followed by your sharp glances as if reprimanding with a signal.

"then you want to be my girlfriend?" I still stopped listening to your heart getting less and less excited.

"..." Your gaze now looks at me . and I who was never afraid just look back at you.

"joking"

actually, the sentence I said really2. represents all the feelings that are raging.

"i like men who have uniforms"

this time you just fell silent stuck in place with me who is still loyal to hear your irregular heart rhythm.

plus your ten members who were not told to leave the room.

"do you know the meaning of what you said just now?" stand up and button up and stand looking at me .

I put both hands into the pocket of the suit while taking a deep breath .

"i know, I'm sorry"

"have you ever dated a man in uniform before?" approaching me yet I remained standing at the look-up spot looking towards you who was taller than me.

my smile has gone from my heart.

"yet"

one hand hugged my waist tightly and then looked into my eyes.I don't know what you were looking for there.

but it's enough for me to lose one man, I don't want another to disappear.

"then do you want to be my only one?"

without being ordered ten people came out and did not want to disturb us.

honestly Ale. I want to love you. It's just that your uniform scares me.

the uniform made papa disappear.

then will you also disappear?.

smiling and gently caressing your face makes me smile amusedly.

"we're talking about finished my work" I took off your arms which actually tightened.

"Ale?"

"never play with your words Doctor ma'am, because as soldiers we never play with our words"

I threw away my face and tried to reflect back.I was indeed in love with you.

can I fall in love?

people say the fruit does not fall far from the tree.

maybe this is what Mama meant?.

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"this is the canteen?" I whispered to Tiur the specialist in Batak tribe who has mendok Java.

"iya. tuh see really cute members of his TNI. is there such a thing? that one was his captain" Tiur pointed with a spoon towards Ale who was busy chewing his food

feeling noticed Ale stopped his activities and glanced at us. More precisely that gaze was on me.

my tongue is muffled, my heart is beating rapidly, my heart is cheering.

and then the dangdut song started ringing in my ears.

"he saw us Kar"

"hmmm"

the pounding of the table and the figure in front of me who had just placed his tray made our attention distracted.

"what obstacles?" the Chinese man stared at us in turn

"that cute guy"

"gue is done" I stood up and went to read the book in my room.

staring at the bracelet that was once perfectly circled by papa but unfortunately I could never let go.

ringing mobile.smart me disperse concentration.

"hello ma" I said lazily.

"mama's been talking to Satria's family. You two are getting married"

"mama's been talking to her husband?"

"she must agree that you accept her love"

"Sekar feels rich Siti Nurbaya deh ma"

"remember Sekar, mama does not approve anyone let alone members of the military or police.mama does not.want you to be like mama"

I kept biting my lips.

"are you happy with papa?"

and the voice across there just turned silent.

"keep your health there Sekar. Mama wants to go first"

it was late in the afternoon and I decided to return to the camp for the doctors and nurses.

and then you passed.

"Ale" I said unintentionally with a smile.

"doctor"

"call Sekar"

"Shark" your voice called my name perfectly.

"i want to go back to camp" I explained. because your gaze asked.

jesus Ale.

"can you talk for a second?" you nodded in answer to my question.

"Le do you believe in equal love at first sight?"

"..." You turned and listened to me.

"i believe. because that's how I feel about you, but about your question this afternoon, I can answer"

"why?"

"i doubt your salary is enough for my in-charge"

a minute later I laughed looking at your expression .

"joking"

"do you like to joke?"

"sorry"

"then answer?"

"i have to make sure this feels for a little while or forever.if you are willing to wait I will be very grateful"

and then you nodded, making a sense of relief spread in my heart.

thank you Ale . because you're willing to be patient.

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"gue knows Sekar! why are you being referred to the border!" The welcoming aura excitedly made Ale quickly farewell.

"why?"

"Satria! he's a grudge against you for rejecting him"

"oh what? she thinks I'm scared?"

"that's not the only problem, he's planning to follow you here"

"why what?"

"or, maybe you want to love her Ama her time"

"dream him!" I growled in my heart.

love comes by itself, not made.

just like how love stopped by and made me start loving you Le.

but I'm still scared.

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