
...LAYANGAN...
Love is, what ?
I wonder what true love means.
I used to be happy to love and be loved, but one day she left me for no reason, and just disappeared.
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For a year and a half I stayed in a loveless marriage, I never even expected love from that man.
And I still survived when I accepted the fact that she loved another woman, and brought her into our lives.
I'm still holding on and keeping myself from getting entangled with her charms, and I'm pretty sure my own heart will never be able to fall in love again.
But I was wrong, I was stuck with my own feelings.
I loved her more than I imagined.
And I had to accept the harsh reality of my life, she expressed love from her mouth, it turned out that easily, she said divorce.
Is a woman who is not perfect like me, not worthy of love ?
Does love belong to the perfect woman ?
It was not my fault, nor was it my wish that I could not give him a child.
So, who should I blame ?
While she stood her back to her husband, it was not the beauty of the marriage she had imagined.
Mauriel wonders if he doesn't love Leon, will his feelings be okay ?
It felt as if someone among them had just died, as if everything had been destroyed in an instant, could never be repaired again, and returned to how it was.
" If you really intend to divorce me, why say you love me ? " Mauriel turned around and her face was full of regret.
Regretting for letting his heart go too deep, and deeply regretting for letting himself be too weak.
" I." said Leon, but could not continue his sentence. Now there's nothing more he can say to make things right, to remove the pain from the woman he loves so much.
Leon never looked at any woman other than Rubia, and he was sure he would not fall in love with Mauriel even if he married the girl.
And somehow, during the marriage, she could be tempted by Mauriel's charm, her smile, and the laughter she saw every day had melted her heart.
At first it was just a curiosity to see his silly behavior, but so close to him the feeling grew into love.
She loved the girl so much that she drove her crazy, she was jealous to see Mauriel close to her own sister, and did not want any other man to approach her.
His love is so great that he makes himself forget Rubia, the girl he once loved.
And the difference in love with the two girls is so different, Leon never loved Rubia as much as he loved Mauriel.
" I don't know what to tell you, Mauriel. Really..and I think...."
" I don't care what you think ! " Suddenly he looked at the man he had known and loved for the past year.
Leon was the first man to make love to her, she handed over something most precious to her own husband.
He was tall like an athlete, his hair was blond, matched with his skin color was white, and very handsome.
Although new to Leon, but he believes there are many women who are crazy, and pursue his love, including Mauriel.
" Do you know what I'm thinking ? I thought you were going to divorce Rubia and choose me, when on jeju island you look so in love with me, I thought you were sincere about it, I thought....." Mauriel said in a voice that shook ever since Leon said such horrible words.
" Everything you say on Jeju island is a lie, you don't really love me "
" You lied "Shouted Mauriel who was now crying blatantly and felt as if Leon had pierced his heart, and threw it to the bottom of the sea.
" If you love me then why did you divorce me once the doctor sentenced me to be barren ? Is that just your love for me ? Am I not important to your life ? " His voice became hysterical and Mauriel approached Leon.
" Can you explain it to me ? Between me and the child in Rubia's womb, which one do you love more ? "
" or maybe the child is just your excuse, you're actually just playing me, and after being content to destroy me, you immediately hit me, just like "Mauriel is getting closer to Leon, you're getting closer, beat Leon's chest with her hands, then grabbed Leon's hair, and slapped her husband's face.
Leon easily stopped her, pulled her hands together, and hugged her tightly.
" Mauriel I'm sorry, everything I said in jeju was my true feeling. "
" I love you, Mauriel "
" Love ? " Mauriel's voice shrieks between laughter and tears, while fighting to break free.
" You said love to me, but you also apologized for divorcing me just for the sake of a child in Rubia's womb ? " Mauriel took a deep breath as she continued to thrash around in Leon's arms.
" Let go of me, asshole "Mauriel looked at Leon with a tormented look, between love and heartache.
Slowly Leon stretched out his arms, and let Mauriel sit on the park bench while drowning his face down, his eyes still wet with tears.
" Is having a child important to you ? if you want me to have no problem adopting a child or I can think of your child with Rubia as my biological child "I don't think she would say that.
" You're right, having a child is very important to the Alexander family. I'm......" Leon hastily stopped his words, he almost messed things up.
Leon does not want all his plans to be destroyed just like that, let alone he knows very well the nature of Rubia, will be chaotic if Rubia finds out the divorce is only temporary.
Leon did not really look up to Mauriel, he would only divorce her, marry Rubia officially, and make her Leon's first wife.
If the child had been born then He would have immediately divorced Rubia, and married Mauriel again.
Bring back his love into his life, and live happily.
"Why ? " Task Mauriel not looking at Leon but up at the sky with a blank look.
Leon sat down beside Mauriel while looking at the girl's wet face, he regretted making her cry, and he regretted having to keep it all a secret.
Leon hated being in this situation, he hated what he had done to Mauriel, but he knew that he had to do it to achieve his goal.
Rubia has what Mauriel cannot give, a child born of his own blood, a boy who will continue the company of the Alexander group.
And the boy will be both of them, Leon believes Mauriel can get through all of this, and he is sure that with Mauriel's love for him, his wife will definitely understand.
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