Shadow of Love Pendant Asa
Muhasabah Love
O owner of my life
How weak I am
The weight of your tests
I've given all to You
God, I just realized
Beautiful healthy delights that
I'm not good at being grateful
Now I hope for your love
Lovely words of love
Flowing miser in my prayer canticle
The pain I feel is the antidote to my sin
The love of my tears
Remember all you gave me
Forgive khilaf and wrong all this time
Yes Divine, Muhasabah my love
Lord, strengthen me
Protect me from despair
If I have to die
Find me with You
Lovely words of love
Flowing miser in my prayer canticle
The pain I feel is the antidote to my sin
The love of my tears
Remember all you gave me
Forgive khilaf and wrong all this time
Yes Divine, Muhasabah my love
Lovely words of love
Flowing miser in my prayer canticle
The pain I feel is the antidote to my sin
The love of my tears
Remember all you gave me
Forgive khilaf and wrong all this time
Yes Divine, Muhasabah my love
The sound track that accompanied Syaqila as she wrote the words in her diary book, in the last page.
['Today I am very happy, because tonight is the third night I met him in a dream. She came to me in bridal attire, and gave me a bouquet of flowers. I don't know what my dream means, obviously, I'm so happy to get a special smile from him. If I wish to be his soul mate in the afterlife, it's been my dream since he left. But I was so self-conscious, my sins were so much, that I wasn't sure I could be with him in heaven.
I just hope this pain goes away, because holding the pain is not easy. Hopefully, this pain that I feel, can be a trigger for my sin, and make me able to meet him in heaven.
O Allah, I truly miss You, if you wish to call me back to you, InshaaAllah I am ready. I don't want to trouble anyone for my illness, I want them to stay happy, carelessly taking care of me for too long. Please grant my prayer.']
A piece of paper in the diary, read Azzalia along with Azkya and Renata who had also sat together in Shaqila's room. They all cried while hugging, after that they delivered the body of Syaqila to his final resting place and Sarah drove them to Shaqila's room to read some messages from Syaqila to her friends.
"Assalamualaikum." greeting someone who made the three companions turn to the source of the voice standing in the doorway of Syaqila's room.
"Wa'alaikumussalam." they answered in unison with shocked faces.
"He's dead!" pekik Azkya who immediately jumped hugged Nadia who was already standing in the room.
"Nad...Syaqila Nad, Syaqila.." cried Azkya while hugging Nadia. Nadiapun returned Azkya's embrace and stroked the back of his best friend.
"I know. We must be sincere, so that Syaqila is happy there." Nadia said as she stroked Azkya's head wrapped in a wide black headscarf.
After the four friends hugged each other, they then clashed with each other, and Nadia became one of the suspects, because Nadia left without saying goodbye.
"I'm sorry." replied Nadia.
"I don't want to, any of us playing secrets anymore. We are friends, we are there to share, not to be alone" said Renata, who is taken by all his friends.
"You agree?" ask Renata.
"Again." replied Azzalia and Azkya. Then Renata turned towards Nadia, who was still staring.
"Nadia?" call Renata. Then Nadiapun gasped, and finally nodded.
"Now, explain to us, why did you leave us yesterday without saying goodbye?" azkya's interrogation is still not accepted by Nadia's attitude some time ago.
"Ehm..."
"Are we wrong with you, Nad?" asked Renata, which Nadia answered directly with a piggy bank.
"Keep why?" tanya Azkya was still curious.
"Because there is no kang opik here." replied Nadia bowed bitterly.
"As you know, since I was a child I lived without parents, I only lived with my grandfather and Kang Opik. But at the time of Opik mesantren, I also participated in pesantren, but because it was not accepted at pesantren kang Opik. I was also registered in pesantren close to the boarding school, precisely I participated in the pesantren special orphans. And since my mother remarried, it made me reluctant to go back home, and I chose to join Opik."
"When kang Opik continued to study in Jakarta, I also participated in kang Opik. Kang Opik got a scholarship, while I? I only follow the regular ones that I have to pay every month, which is my boss and my budek who bear all my tuition fees. At first I enjoyed it, but after kang Opik left I felt uncomfortable. And I chose to return to the Pesantren in Ponorogo. I deliberately went back there to return to my adoptive parents, and I will continue to study there while working." continued Nadia.
"Oh, so? So not because of us?" ask Azkya.
"Really, no." replied Nadia sincerely.
"Then who are you here with Nad? And, do you know who Syaqila died from?" ask Renata.
"I got word from my budeku, Ms. Hani. Ms. Hani got word from...Seem." replied Nadia while looking towards Azzalia.
"So, where did you take Nad's bus?" ask Azkya who already knows the route.
"No, I was ushered in." replied Nadia.
"Who?" ask Azkya curiously.
"Mas Ashar." replied Nadia with a changed face hue.
"Mas Ashar?" azkya asked in disbelief, but Renata and Azzalia only looked on in confusion, as they did not recognize the person called Nadia.
"Yes" replied Nadia.
"Can't you?"
"Yes can. Because Ashar is in the pesantren." replied Nadia.
"Well, I mean, how can Ashar be your anterin? Can you do it with Kyai and Nyai's mom?" ask Azkya Wonder.
"Ehm, yes, I can. Because..he was my future husband." replied Nadia who managed to make her three friends wide in disbelief.
"What's? prospective husband?" ask Azkya, and Renata together.
"Yes, husband-to-be. And InshaaAllah, next week I will be married." replied Nadia mantab.
"Are you serious, Nad?" tanya Azkya still could not believe it.
"Yes. Seriously." replied Nadia.
"You.. ga again trying to find an impingement, right Nad?" azzalia asked who felt, that because she was married to Seem, made Nadia stay away and accept marriage with others.
"You mean?" nadia asked who actually knew the direction of Azzalia's conversation.
"Yes Za, what do you mean?" the protest of Renata who felt awkward with the words of Azzalia.
"No Azza, really, I'm grateful, it turns out that I'm back to the right place, where there's someone waiting for me, so that when I just arrive, he's been preaching to me, and we'll be married soon." answered Nadia.
"You don't want us?" ask Renata.
"Of course I invite you, because you are my best friends. InshaaAllah later the invitation follows ya." said Nadia smiled sincerely to her three best friends. The four of them embraced happily.
