Shackles the Heart of the Police Officer

CHAPTER 81 - The Grief Feels Full

Marwah felt the past and helpless anger rising up again in her. The anger was as strong as he felt on that cold stormy night long ago. He recalled opening his norman eyes upright before him bare-chested, while to him, his clothes were torn apart covered in blankets. "For the money!"

Once again Marwah felt her pain crushed; sharper than the incision of the knife in her skin. He saw Norman's face, Mother-in-law, and, The arrogant and deceptive sister-in-law was in her head and suddenly Marwah cursed herself for believing that they were not cruel to the poor woman from such a simple village.

Still reluctant to feel Marwah to believe, feel the betrayal so severe, the husband he loved so much to lie to him, in-laws he loved so much was the most evil and cruel person ever.

Marwah deliberately slammed the goods when Rambo came home and looked at her husband's black eyes with anger.

"I don't need your worries, Mas," said Marwah, his voice rising, though difficult. Deliberately, he takes off Rambo, loosening his grip, Marwah feels as if she is floating in a sea that is much emptier than when life was tormented with Norman first.

Marwah raised her chin, and gathered her mighty strength. "I've been living my life exactly as your family has arranged. As you know, my world is broken, I suffer. I don't need-or need-worry. You must lie to me, Mas! you traitor!"

Rambo flicked his hair, then looked into Marwah's blazing clear brown eyes, and said, "I don't understand, I just got home but you welcomed me with a vase throw, I'm not angry I'm approaching you, hugging you, I'm afraid you might be feeling bad----but you-you-try saying what's up? let me understand?"

"You traitor! Lying for more than a year, you think everything will be stored as well as your family's behavior?! No Mas, you are wrong, God loves me and opens the old wounds. I know Mas!! Are you happy to cover everything from me?!" Infuriated with Rambo's pretentious attitude. "Yes, you, your family."

Rambo brushes his hair on his shoulders with both hands while gritting his teeth.

"It's not enough all I've done so far, I'm even willing to die half to get the attention of the people who have been hurting me. Not enough for your family to have Norman touch me? You know my suffering but you can cover it up."

Anger overpowered Marwah's body. While Rambo then reached out to cupped his wife's face.

"Why? Why would they do that to me?"

Marwah pulls away from Rambo's touch, though every part of his body demands to let the man stay close.

"Because I'm poor? My degree is the cause of all this" Marwah continued to speak despite the fact that Rambo was crying. "Because I'm not equal to you, until your family isn't happy to see me. Because I'm poor, they think I'm a bully."

"Jawab Mas!" Marwah could no longer bear this pain, another item was cupped and floated, landing hard on the floor. "Am I born poor? It is wrong to live without treasure. I'm self-conscious Mas, I know I'm nothing compared to you, so I disappeared for five years, harboring my own feelings. It's all because I realized! But I thought, no one's as cruel as your family could do this to me."

Rambo could not see the pain of Marwah, his emotions and anger were burning. He bowed and bowed, begging his wife for forgiveness.

"I'm sorry Marwah! I'm sorry Marwah! Please forgive me!"

Rambo's voice trembled, as he kowtowed at Marwah, his voice echoing through the Marwah's headroom. Adding his heartache to the bottom.

And the gray night flowed quietly until the sound of the door opened, waking Marwah from a very long sleep.

"I just came home my dear," Rambo whispered in Marwah's ear, when Marwah woke up until he realized the anger he was craving was flowing through his subconscious.

"Mas, why did you just come home? lots of tasks in the office? or patrols?" he said welcoming Rambo, he was sitting on the bed.

"You haven't slept, honey? or did I wake you up? I'm sorry I didn't mean to, just wanted to say hello, I thought you wouldn't wake up. Let's go to sleep again, you must take care of your health, so as not to get sick again." Rambo grabbed the top of Marwah's head and stroked it with gentleness and solemnity.

"No. I'd like to wait for you to come home, so you don't feel lonely when you get home."

"Already, now that I'm home, you're sleeping baby, I don't want you to get sick"

"Yes, it's."

Rambo takes a position to lie next to Marwah, pulling the wife in his arms, not even bored Rambo stroked the back or occasionally the stomach of Marwah until he then chose to pretend to sleep in the arms of the gondrong man.

Mas how this is, I still can't believe what I heard from the phone just now. How can I be angry and hate you Mas, how can you bear my grudge.

You are where I put love, you are where I get affection. How can the one who bears my love, also have to endure my hatred.

Mas, I will not be able to hate you, will not be able to lose you, why should you? why are they you? Marwah murmured in her heart, it was hard to deny, she deeply loved the man, overcoming her anger and heartache at all the evil he had received.

Believe me, whatever I do is nothing but to protect you, I love you very much Marwah.

The words that Rambo had spoken to him, suddenly came over, echoing in Marwah's head and ears. And he knows it.

"Good night baby, no matter what happens this man will always love you." Rambo said slowly so as not to wake Marwah again.

I don't know what to do, Mas, even though he is your family, even though you lied to me but you don't deserve their mistakes. I love you so much Mas, it really hurt me. But taking my revenge on you will hurt me even more.

Mas, we meet, we marry, all is destiny, I believe I love you too is destiny. If your family did it, I'm sure it's also our destiny. Slowly though hard, for your sake I will try to forget the pain, I will try to kill this feeling of resentment.

My revenge, not worth the love you always gave me, is not worth the affection you gave me.

Anyway I....

Perhaps my life will not take long to hate, let me spend this life with you in full happiness.

I'm sincere Mas...

I'll try it, for Mas's sake, I'll do anything.