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I have been in college here for a week. All campus and study program requirements have been completed. Tina and I went to class. We were in the same class, I'm so grateful for that. First day of class, not too bad. And I can get through it without any worry. It was all because of Tina's help. He always calms me when my anxiety is there. Fortunately, here there is no need for self-introduction one by one like in High School. I don't have to be afraid to be the center of attention. People here also rarely interact if they do not know. That's why I feel free and safe.

 

"What are we eating today?" Tina asked as we were walking towards the cafeteria. The first class is finished. In the next three hours, we will be in class again. Me and Tina were confused about where to spend time other than to the music room and library.

 "Samyang, bulgogi, hot dogs, chicken spicy-"

 "STOP Reva, you took my food list" Tina said. I pursed my lips. "Well, what's wrong with us buying everything?"

 That insignificant little quarrel had to stop because our steps had already reached the canteen. Pretty crowded, Tina and I lined up first. It took us ten minutes to finish the line, it was very long. Even though hunger must keep it.

 We brought food to the table. Because of the long queue, Christina and I just took samyang and bulgogi. Just afraid that someone might get angry because we chose food for too long.

 While I was solemnly eating my food, my phone lit up and shook. Signifies an incoming voice call. I glanced at the name that was written there. Immediately I press the green icon and close the flat object to the ear. "You want what, you?"

 "Aji gile si Reva. Songong batt mentang - mentang already in Korea temen himself dijutekin." Though I had just said three words, but Riki had been blabbering all along.

 "Haha. Becanda. Tumben you called me, Ki." It's not usually that this kid calls me. I usually call or text him. The reason she was like that, she said was keeping her boyfriend-Rika feeling. Bucin, Riki is bucin. For the sake of the girlfriend she did not want to contact her female friend just yet. Unless something really matters.

 "Gue wants something, dong. Va. You're my best temen." His voice tone was clear. Kan, I told you he called me if there was a sudden need. Riki sucks.

 "What?" After eating, I drink immediately. Do not feel spicy at all eat this samyang. For me, this is level one. My tongue is very immune to eating - spicy food. I glanced at Tina who was busy eating while occasionally playing her phone. He rarely talks about me. If I didn't tell him, he wouldn't have asked. I called with some of my friends in front of him but he was just so funny. Never asked who it was, what it needed.

 Riki was heard sighing, "known to me the same temen bule lo, dong. Please.."

 My eyes were wide open, which was true Riki this. That guy seems to be interested in Rika. Rika is also my high school friend, I know her very well. They both dated for a long time. It's just that his Riki is often insolent.

 "Crazy, lo, Riki. Rika wants some humanity?"

 "Yes, just acquaintances doang. I'm not a pacarin, I'm." Eagles clear. He doesn't seem to want me to think like that.

 "Btw, where are you squirming? How do I know my friend here bule?"

 "Yes on instagram, ogeb. I forgot you yes."

 Gosh darn. I really don't remember. Yesterday, I posted a few photos, including a photo of me with Tina. After that, I didn't open Instagram again until now. Honestly, I'm not a person who likes to play social media. I posted it just to show my happiness. Not intend to show off or want hits.

 "Woy, what's diem? Sleeping?"

 I took a deep breath, then took it out slowly. "SO YOU CALL THE CAVE JUST FOR NANYAIN TEMEN BULE I DOANG!!?? HOW DO I KNOW ABOUT MY COLLEGE AND MY LIFE HERE? TEGA BENER LU SAMA TEMEN. I HATE YOU! BYE!" With a fire I turned off the phone. Riki is so outrageous, she sucks too. Just let him curse across there, I don't care. I'll just turn off my phone so that crazy guy can't call me anymore.

 "What happened to you, girl?"

 I turned to Tina who was sitting opposite me, only the arm I gave in response. Then I asked her to leave the cafeteria immediately. My emotions haven't completely gone away, Riki is so annoying. I want to break his neck if he's here.

 Fortunately Tina didn't ask much, she didn't like kepo. I like friends like that. Not many questions, but understand how to calm me down. Tina took me to the music room as usual. But, it has been three days since we did not go there because there are some things that must be taken care of about the campus.

 

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Because the students were busy eating lunch in the cafeteria, so the music room this time was quiet. Error, no one at all. Tina and I chose the music room at our school. This music room is usually used for public. Because each faculty provides a music room. Maybe the founder of this college really understands that music is my escape when upset and sad hit.

 

As usual, Tina sat in a chair while reading her thick book. He very rarely watched me play music, ever, ever, but only once or twice. I was thinking, maybe he doesn't like the piano or anything like that.

 

I immediately sat down on the chair, and my fingers played on the piano keys smoothly. This time I played the song 'beautiful in white'. The mood of my heart that had been upset and bad mood, immediately turned into happy again. I don't expect anyone to clap again at the end of my game. The figure I didn't know his name was never to appear in front of me again since the incident at the library. I don't know, I'm a little lost. Just a little, not a lot. From now on, I expect nothing more from her - especially her presence which I really want. Yes, I admit I admired him since the first time I saw him. However, I realize. I'm not a person who deserves to be acquainted with a smart senior like him. Quickly - quickly I buried the wishful thinking - this useless wishful thinking.

 

After being satisfied playing the piano, I grabbed the guitar and just plucked the strings without hesitation. I express all my emotions and feelings through the guitar and singing. That's it, me, Reva. Not someone who easily expresses what I feel, I channel it through songs, piano, and poetry that I make. Right, I like to make poems about things that make me happy.

 "Reva."

 Tina's call at the end of the song jolted me, then I got up and put the guitar to where it was. I walked up to him and asked him what was going on.

 "May I borrow your phone for a moment? My battery's out."

 "In a moment" I walked up to get my bag that I put under the piano. Looking for that flat object. My forehead wrinkled. What I'm looking for isn't there, as I recall the phone I put in the bag. My panicked face grabbed Tina's attention, she stepped towards me. "Why are you panicking?" tanyanya's confused.

 "My phone's not here!" I searched again, but the results were nil. My hands are shuffling my hair, frustrated. I'm not concerned about the phone being lost, but the most important thing is the data and numbers of the people closest to me in it. "Duh how is this? What am I supposed to do, Tina?" I said a little scream.

 Tina approached and stroked my shoulder. "Silent. In Korea there can be no thieves. Think back, where did you last put it?" He can still be one-sided, while I'm like a hot worm in need of ice cold.

 "SHIT! CANTEEN!"

 Then, we decided to go back to the cafeteria table we were sitting at. Damn, the result is nil. I neglected to keep my own phone. Being too upset, I forgot to pick it up on the table.

I bit my own finger, "duhh, how's this, Tina? You said there were no thieves in Korea. Huhuh." I whine and shake my feet. The people around me looked at me strangely, but I didn't care.

 

Tina told me to sit down. He was still trying to calm down myself who was already in tears. "If there is no cell phone, how can I contact my family and friends? And also photos - photos of our memories are a lot there. Huaa." I'm crying more and more.

 "Do we need to report to-"

 "You're looking for this?" The voice of a man made me and Tina turn their heads at once. My eyes were wide at what he was carrying. "Yes. That's my phone." My index finger was pointing at the thing he was holding. I was surprised to find out who was holding it.

 "A, sunbae. Anyeonghase." Tina bowed her body, giving a sign of respect as a junior. "Yes, right. That's Reva's cell phone, my friend." Tina's words were very gentle, she was very polite.

 

The guy I wanted to meet for a long time gave me my phone. I accept it with pleasure. With a face still covered in tears, I smiled at him.

 "Same - same." He said sitting with us. She's facing me and Tina. We were both surprised by that.

 Tina and I smiled awkwardly.

 "Aigoo, you cry that much, yeah." He grabbed a tissue from his shirt pocket and gave it to me. Immediately I took it and wiped away the trail of my tears. I was so embarrassed when I realized I was crying.

"What's your name?" His smile was on that handsome face. I can't say anything else when I see that.

 "My name is Christina Chloe. New students here. And this is my friend"

 "Revalia Arventa." Cut me fast, making Tina shake her head in wonder.

 "Meet me, I'm Kim Jong Dae. Fifth semester students majoring in business and media. It's good to see you guys." He speaks in english. I think his tongue fits too speaking English.

 "Well, we often see sunbae."

 I intended to ask, but I stopped because I was ashamed. Tina nudged my arm, gesturing for me to also throw a question. I finally beat my shame. "You speak English amazes me, sunbae. Also your words in Korean were very polite during yesterday's seminar." Praising him a little bit I don't think is a bad thing. She laughed in embarrassment at my compliments. Tina smiled happily at me.

 

Jongdae-let me just call him a name because maybe he doesn't know about this. The man in a white shirt with his trademark jet-black hair again - again smiled kindly at us. Could - could I die melted if it lingered in front of him.

"What country are you from?"

 "I'm Indonesian and Tina is American."

"Wow. Different countries but can be friends this close? You guys are so great."

 We laughed awkwardly together. The atmosphere is a bit stiff. Maybe because I just met.

 Jongdae looked at his watch, then he got up. "I have a sudden business. Sorry to keep you busy looking for that phone. I saved him when he was left alone by his master, haha." His laughter was like an electric shock. Me and Tina stood up and bowed to him.

 "It's okay. Jongdae. Thank you." Thank you."

 "Same - same. Next time you guys need help, just call me." I heard a pause for a moment. Then he continued. "Ah, yes. Reva," her eyeballs pointed right into the lens of my eye. "the next time you want, we can sing together in the music room. See yes!"

 "Bye, sunbae." Say us at the same time. Finally, Jongdae left. I'm not melting. Fortunately, he left quickly.

 Tina pulled my hand quickly walked out of the canteen, "yuk to the library. There's material I want to discuss with you. You're not sad anymore, are you? The phone is back, my heart has also met again. Complete is your happiness, Reva."

 

Kan, Tina started again. Immediately I shower him with pinch - little pinch. "TINA! He's not my heart!" I don't care about the ringing. He laughed satisfiedly at my flushed face holding back the embarrassment. Tina now knows her weapon attacked me. That is by carrying the name Jongdae or just simply mocking me by saying that I am in love with the handsome man. Oops, did I just admit something?

 

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At five o'clock in the afternoon. The course is over. Tina and I didn't go home right away. As usual, we will walk - the road to unwind. Huh. The materials given by the lecturer successfully stress us. Not infrequently, my hair fell out because of the tasks that exist. I realized one thing. College is harder than High School. In the past, I often complained because of the existing PR. But now, I realize college materials are a hundredfold very difficult.

 "Eat first, before the road."

 "I'll just go where you're going. What matters is that I don't have a headache."

 We get off the subway, then walk to the nearest resto.

 Without any delay, we ordered food. Damn, how surprised I was to see the food Christina ordered this time. "Tina, you seriously want to eat that?" My eyes did not blink looking at the relaxed Tina. "You ordered it for me too?"

 "Yes, you should try it too. Let's just say it's a challenge from me to you." Tina smiled sumringah, while I gulped with great difficulty.