
Sometimes I want to give up and end it all but my heart can't because they gave up their lives for me
and I would never want to do it because they all always supported me but after them there was nothing like the world upside down
who in the beginning I was the queen in worship now I have to worship the queen. grandpa why did you leave me ?? me alone, do you have the heart to die I am here in need of you I want to be near you Inging continues with you but this life separates us
I hope this is just my childhood dream and I want to go back to childhood again I want to be small I want to be like a child not an adult who is too Ribet and complicated
When I was cool with my daydream, there was someone who was knocking on my door slowly
Tok tok tok tok tok tok tok tok tok tok tok tok tok tok
" get in" I said slowly but my eyes were still tightly closed due to exhaustion
then I heard the door open and step slowly
" dear why not turn on the "ask me light while turning on the light
" mager" said I mash faithfully closed my eyes
" dear papa wants to talk for a minute ?" say papa to me
Then I realized from my daydreams, I thought it was mama turned papa, tumben this is nothing papa to my room ? Because of lian
I opened my eyes and saw Papa.
" what's the matter, pa?" I asked papa to wonder why
" are you seriously ra with mr. lian of the liberals. If you really don't like him papa won't force you papa hope you think clearly." said papa while stroking my head
" why is pa?" ask slowly.
" no ra papa will never plunge you into the wrong path grandfather entrust you to me ra so I will do my best to you I will oppose everyone for your sake !!" papa said in a sad tone to me and I felt papa said it was from the heart and did not make it .
" i know you're worried about me and I can understand you, thank you papa and mom for loving me all this time even though we weren't together for long" said I smiled sincerely
" papa will support your decision dear" said papa to me
" pa I really loved lian out of nowhere and for rafa I didn't know I just considered her just a childhood friend, and I never liked her. I know for my own good but I never liked it "I said slowly and surely
" father loves you very much ra, and sorry if papa has a wrong that is on purpose or not or maybe papa ever lied to you ra but papa does not intend like that " he hugged me with sadness
Lalau I returned papa's embrace
" ara also apologizes if the fig has a wrong also on papa who was intentionally or not " said I slowly
" father wanted to say something, but he was afraid. Papa wants you to know the truth but papa is not ready, papa hope you can understand yes son" said papa to me slowly
" pa? ra's ? You say "said someone who surprised me and papa
" ih kepo ko time " said I sewot to calvin who arrived to enter my room
" anyways what's wrong I hug papa anyways soon I will get married and die papa" I said firmly to ko calvin with annoyance
" di can't ya, " said ko calvin forbid me
" in hello emang you said forbid me papa and mama aja allow you not to be in a very stern" I said to ko calvin sewot
" but ra you and him don't fit in and I don't agree" ko calvin told me
" keep on you think ? Who is suitable ?!! You are that ?!! " say me to ko kalvin who is upset
" calvin don't bother your ade there go " said papa throw him out
" wekkk pity deh "my words stick out the tongue to him then he seems annoyed at me and papa
" yes papa already come out first yes" said papa then died me
" yes pa" I said to papa
after papa left I began to stretch my body again on the bed. lalau I thought 'why papa said like that ? Will papa say everything ? Who am I supposed to trust? It was dizzy '
After that I started cleaning myself up to the bathroom, after cleaning myself I went downstairs to dinner
" are you ready, mama who cooked the tumben ?" ask my mom
" no papa ra mama has not cleaned the house for a long time and also cooked for you" said mama with a smile
" yes we have eaten" said papa to all of us and we eat greedily
then between the sidelines we eat Lian called me and then I picked her up
Drr drr drr
"hello" said me until the others saw me curious.
"what are you doing ? there's an mis" before I continue to talk I directly cut his talk.
" i'm eating with everyone" I said interrupting
" sorry yes I've been waiting at the usual place" said lian alu ended his call
" why ra ?" ask papa to me
" no papa pa lian just took me out, yes I've left first" I said
" ciee who is new" said mama teasing me
" what the hell ma pamit ya "say I'm ready
" koko interra ya" said ko Calvin
" don't let me take public transportation alone" said I then drink my drink immediately go running out until others wonder at me
After heading outside I hurriedly searched for a public vehicle for me to ride to the headquarters
arriving at the headquarters I immediately ran looking for Lian
" lian lian ?" I said look for lian
" nono mister lian was in his place "he said to me then I went straight into his place without banging on the door
Then how surprised I was to see Ian kissing the other members and then they were surprised by how surprised I was this afternoon he said he wanted to be with me but now he's with the others.
" you guys "say me slow
" ra I can explain this misunderstanding "lian said to me
" hhhh okay" I said I took the gun to shoot Lian but Iian dodged until the sound echoed where and immediately many people saw.