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After being able to control the feelings that have been mixed between regret and guilt for destroying the happiness of himself and those around him. Devan cleared his throat giving a sign to the middle-aged couple who were inside the clean kitchen.
"Hem! Sorry .. I'm late." said Devan just pulled the empty chair in front of which has been prepared a variety of dishes.
"It's okay. Moment ... Mother prepare the plate." replied Ellena's mother who was stopped by Dion's father when he wanted to prepare the plate.
Not answering Devan just kept quiet while paying attention to the cuisine in front of him. Whether intentionally or not, there are some foods that Zizi likes. Then how could he possibly enjoy the food while his wife out there did not know what it was like.
"It's eat!" mother Ellena's voice resuscitated Devan from her daydream.
"Thank you, Mom. Aren't you guys eating?" the man asked to see that his parents were just sitting there but not picking up plates like him.
"No! We have eaten from before. Eat you must also think of your health in order to have the energy to seek your wife." Mother Ellena said like a sword that slashed Devan's heart. Even if the woman did not mean that.
How she'll be fine after hearing the wife's word. If Zizi was his wife, what kind of husband he was who had tortured and hurt the woman called wife.
Shame ... Devan was ashamed of himself who was already a savage husband. Where there is a husband who did cruel himself. It was at midnight that she locked the girl she had been with for the last few years, in a wet bathroom and bruised from her slap.
"Hem!" after being silent for a while. Devan cleared his throat again with a long sigh that felt heavy he felt.
If there is no one there, then tonight Devan will not continue his dinner that has been missed from earlier.
He ate this time only to appreciate Mother Ellena who had taken the trouble to heat the food for her. If not for that, just looking at the food he already feels full.
Although lazy Devan began to fill his plate with rice and some kinds of side dishes that have been heated. Tonight the man felt like a defendant, because the couple was silent but kept watching his every move.
Until a few minutes later, Devan only spent a few spoonfuls of food. After that he did not say anything, he immediately cleaned up his former food and stored the dishes on the table back into a special glass cabinet where the food. Meanwhile Father Dion and Mother Ellena were still silently watching from their seats.
At least they both know that Devan is currently in the midst of guilt for Zivanna. But it's too late because Zizi has chosen to leave Devan and her own mother.
"Dad, mom. Devan went back to the room." said the man passed from there to the top floor. Right into Zizi's room instead of her own.
"What should we do? If he doesn't find Zizi soon enough, he'll go crazy if he keeps going like this" Dion's father said before Devan's arrival, having discussed the matter of his son and daughter-in-law who are now out of nowhere.
"Eitherway! I don't know either. Here Devan is only a victim of Marisa's lies." exclaimed Ellena's mother still staring at the front back that began to move away from the two of them. Before he came back to say.
"Honestly, it feels like I want to be mad at your son. However, after a second thought there was no point in getting angry with him, everything had happened, because even though I was angry. My zivanna won't come back." Ellena's mother wasn't one to make hasty decisions. Maybe because he used to live independently during his widow. It would make her a tough woman not to carelessly act.
"You deserve to be angry, because Devan has tortured and lied to Zizi. It's up to you, what you want to do to him, I won't interfere, because my son is guilty." The middle-aged man had already given everything to his wife.
The woman does not one hundred percent blame Devan. Even though he knew his wife was just trying to look okay. If it was another woman, maybe Dion's father who didn't know anything was divorced that day. Fortunately, his wife was Ellena's mother who had an angel-like heart.
"No I won't give him punishment, because without us Devan's law has already received the punishment itself. Let's see how he ate this morning and tonight. If I didn't appreciate it, I would've reheated the food for him tonight, Devan wouldn't have eaten." said Ellena's mother, who guessed everything.
"Thank you, I'm so proud to be able to marry such a great woman like you. Even though you are very worried about our daughter's situation. But I can still forgive my son's mistakes" said Dion's father, who was lucky to marry his private secretary.
Meanwhile, upstairs after arriving in the room. Devan was not rested, but he took the Diary of the wife because he wanted to read it again. With his heart pounding, the man carried the book up to the bed. Then he began to open a sheet that he had not been able to read.
Wife or maid
That is the title of the new leaf that Zizi wrote on the fourth leaf of her Diary.
"Hi .. don't grieve Zivanna. Smile! Today was my first day living in a big house that was all modern. I'm not the mistress of this house, but I'm just a maid. Em... Maid or wife I don't know yet."
Devan could see that while writing the sheet Zivanna was crying, because her pen and paper ink was like being exposed to water. So that Devan who is reading now also shed his tears.
"I'm sorry ... I've hurt you so far!" I guess after that revenge, I'll be happy."
Mumbled Devan who returned to read the next article.
"I was hoping it was all just a nightmare. However, all my hopes were lost while I was working Brother came and mentioned what my duties were during the hitchhiking there." what Zivanna wrote recalls Devan how he treated his wife.
But even so Devan returned again to read the next writing sheet dami sheet. As far as it doesn't feel she's reached the sheet where Zizi saw her kissing Fiona.
*Smile behind wound*.
"This pain is incomparable when compared to seeing him with other women. Namely, what is my power that has no power. Love from me alone will not be able to bind him to mine." wrote Zizi on the sheet titled. Smile behind the wound.
"After seeing her treatment today for me, and how she treated the woman who became her lover. I feel the love I have is starting to erode bit by bit. As hard as I survive, if it is always like this maybe someday I will give up. But for now I want to keep the love I have.
Know your sister is going on a business trip. I asked Aunt Marta to help me get to the balcony of the room I was in. I want to see him go even if only from a distance away. When I got outside, it turned out that he was going to get in the car. However, I saw him undo his intentions after seeing my presence.
I thought my brother stopped because he saw me. But ... I was wrong again! He stopped not for me, but for his girlfriend Fiona. I saw him kissing the girl affectionately.
Even though my heart was hurting, I forced to smile. Smile behind the wounds I felt. Where I might be okay. He is the husband I love. Even though I know she doesn't love me."
On the sheet Zizi does not write until it runs out like the previous sheet. Maybe because he was no longer able to express what he felt.
"I love you too Zivanna. I love you so much! Sorry .. 'cause I realized it too late. All this time the love I had was only covered by my grudge against Ellena's mother." exclaimed Devan hugging the Diary book.