
lecturer Rayda still standing while crouching at the table near the picket received guests... I was indifferent.while Ipank instead went out to buy beer..he said ngajak cleaning service we named Nawir…..I decided to enter the room and Rayda Puan followed me…….
do you know the feeling of longing…..
how heavy .bear love……
the pain often recurs at all times….
the heart shakes like an earthquake,
my lips to speak or say……….
haughty thoughts and red blushing faces,
ah.... love, where you are now….
I will remember this scene all my life. Rayda Puan women mosaic made in nature, such as a wax statue of Madame Tussauds, a famous wax museum in London, England….
his charm will rest on a heart, a heart that adores love and thirst in search of true love, true love, do you know man if you find your true love then do not let go of your whole life because in the life of this world man or woman aka woman only one who finds his true love among ten humans, because in the life of this world man, it is very difficult to accept the sense that the love you have now is not necessarily your true love, even he is the same in terms of love, actually, human selfishness alone causes jealousy .. want to curb like a horse, like a slave…..
Rayda Puan came to me in a state of quivering lips, his cheeks like the Brantas river flow splitting tubes and Lamongan, flowing clear like the Tuntang river flow, or Mahakam in Kalimantan.senggukan resist the desire as if to spill, inching sitting on the sofa guest my room, while I sleep with my high work chair….
Looking at the sky of room , ash smoke billowed from the lips that were mute while the coffee this afternoon that had been cold closed slowly and a little…..
For me the events of the past few days are like medicine, because medicine is bitter, my friend...semit between two options....all for my happiness is also.........whatever my choice is……. RAYDA PUAN don't leave without a message... I won't take “bahamu”…….I am not ready to take care and convert the wounds of “your journey”........ I will learn from your story later.....or there is no more story for me...... , our mind speaks for itself…..
Talking about the destiny that passed between us, God's plan that was all a mystery until I was able to say…. Not anymore.until I am mortal in this natural life….
O slave of love, O devotee of love I always remember the advice of my teacher, the teacher who until I write in this sheet I still follow , he said wisely and gave me an easy parable of love.he said .. if you lean on something, then by yourself you will be a slave to it, if you lean on money, then you will be the slave of money, where the money commands you, you will obey, whatever the money orders you will be forced to do, and you will be forced to do so, you're told to be a babu, a rice-field hoe-maker, a duck-thug, a barber, or a cake-seller, or whatever money tells you to do, you will consciously or unconsciously follow, even you get forced to do up to the point of time and tired of you because you lean on the money, because you lean on the money, you are ordered to Hong Kong, you will try to go to Hong Kong, you are forced to go to Arabia, you will go to Arabia, whatever the word money, you will come, you will join, as long as you lean on the money, wherever you will be enslaved. stepped on by the money with all the rules.
Yes it is no different if you surrender yourself to others, for example position, rank, authority, honor, then you will be forced by that position, forced to do anything, he said, so that he can you reach, justify all means and efforts, field rice fields can be sold to get it, property can be sold to get it, even life and anything will be given up to gain that honor and position, because you surrender and lean on the position that you think can sustain your happiness.
So on whatever we surrender and lean, then by itself we will become slaves from where we make the backrest, he said, and what you think can be made lean that will also suffice you, if your back is money, then that money will help you, he said, if the position that is your back then the two will help you, but anything other than Allah is not lasting, money can run out, ATMs can be stuck, positions can be lost, fired, and so on,
Therefore, whoever rests on Allah, Allah is sufficient, Allah's God-like yatawakal waman fahuwa is special, and just as anyone who rests on Allah will become Allah's slave, will be commanded and driven by God, his conduct will obey God, as according to money, God rules this, will do this, God commands it will be done, he will do that, reigning away Hajj, will also go Hajj, and the one who relies on Allah is called his slave Allah, or the Arabic ABDULLAH.
RAYDA PUAN always remember the advice of my teacher, the advice that was really intended for me and my journey , I share also for you that the half of my heart that you have taken in this senseless incident will catch you until we meet again maybe in the field of mashhar later, I will be getting older and older, old, the charm of my manners will fade with time, the strength of my body will soften like a stalakit and hang like a steep rock inlay, cut down steeply, the cliff of hearts that will become extinct because every living human has rations and time spans…remember that your mind will be more seducer only because like my teacher's advice that the noble nature that occupies the mind is also the gift of God, so there is prayer, Allahummaj’alni minal mukhlisin, and so there is prayer, o Allah made me include people who are sincere.that is, we ask in SO, it means that the occurrence of sincerity that we can not strive, but we are formed by God, given by Allah sincerity, if Allah does not give sincerity, then we will not be able to be sincere, the quickest to get sincere is to prepare to receive sincerity, as we want to be given water, the fastest can be water is the one who carries the glass.means preparing the container of water.so sincere, sincere, trustworthy, trustworthy, patient, and all praiseworthy nature is given by God, God, not from buying in the market, so we should not seek but prepare ourselves to receive the praiseworthy nature bestowed by God……