
Syifa had no idea what she was feeling at the moment. His tears did not stop flowing and he did not know why. His heart seemed to want to crumble right then and there. His body seemed to want to collapse. He had just first felt tightness in his chest that seemed to shake his body to shatter into pieces.
He regulated his breathing and the very difficult air in and out of his sense of smell. Slowly he crawled up to the bed by forcing his feet to walk. Like he was dragging his stiff body
"Why my heart?" his murmur with sobs still showed no signs of wanting to stop. While holding his chest which was painful, he laid down his body and slept sideways. The air coming in and out of his nose was heavy.
"God, I'm not strong" he murmured, shutting his eyes forcibly when he heard footsteps coming into his room.
Syifa was slightly shaken and felt someone behind her at this moment. But he did not want to open his eyes and look back
"Syifa?", the Luthfi who had just approached, Syifa held her arm gently, "Is she asleep? He said he wanted to wait for me" he said as if nothing had happened
Syifa with all her might held back her sobbing because suddenly, Luthfi approached her, and again she recalled the incident, she saw, Dinar hugging from behind
"Shyfa?" gently, Luthfi grabbed the haircut child, Syifa who covered her entire face. Eyeballs, Luthfi almost came out of hiding when he saw the face, Syifa was already filled with tears
"Shyfa? You why?" face, Luthfi looked panicked and pushy, Syifa faced her.
Syifa was no longer able to hold back her crying that she had been holding back. He wiped his own tears repeatedly but there was no end to it
"Syifa, what's wrong with you?" tanya, Luthfi who was completely panicked with a feeling of worry
"I have nothing" answered Syifa. "I'm sleepy. Want to sleep", he just hugged, Luthfi and hoped that the man would not see his face that was filled with tears
"Syifa", Lutfi is still trying to see the face, Syifa and wants to ask deeper
"I'm sleepy", Syifa further lowered her gaze
"Why are you crying?", Lutfi really has no power to hold back his chaotic feelings seeing, Syifa cried
"I'm nothin. And don't look at me" said Syifa, unable to shed her tears in her arms, Luthfi. His crying voice slowly began to sound. Fortunately, their room was soundproofed, so their neighbors would not hear her voice
"I beg you not to cry" said Luthfi, trembling with sobs, Syifa, so bitter in her ear, "You why?" he stroked his back and head, Syifa gently
Syifa could no longer answer. Her tears just flowed and spilled. Accompanied by his sobs that increasingly clear sounding roar in the ears, Luthfi
Lutfi was all at her best holding back her chaotic feelings. He no longer asked and was now busy calming, Syifa even though he was not calm
"You see yah?", Luthfi suddenly made a sound after a few seconds of silence
Syifa did not answer. He was busy compiling the words, "See what?" ask her with a raucous voice
Luthfi cleared her throat, "Hmm. Ngk. Nothing" to be honest his current fear was, Syifa saw, Dinar hugging her. "You don't want to tell me the same story?" tannya
Syifa shook her head, "No one wants me to tell you" she said firmly
"You cry and you don't want to tell me the same story?" tanya, Luthfi who seems disappointed
"Neither want nor exist" replied Syifa
"We promised, didn't we? Any problems should be stories? Must hear an explanation and not immediately angry" said, Luthfi
"But I'm not angry anymore" said Syifa
"You cry. It means you have a problem. You don't remember? Mommy says you have to tell each other so that there is no misunderstanding?", Luthfi continues to remind, Syifa about their Mommy message
"Always carry the name of Mommy" grumbled, Syifa and Luthfi smiled. Even in situations like this, Syifa still did not forget his Mommy message
"That color is Mommy's message" Luthfi said
"Udah ah's. I want to sleep", Syifa pushed the body, Luthfi and turned her back
"Do you really want a story?" wheeze, Luthfi
"Wouldn't want to" refused, Syifa firmly
"You know? Why do many newly married people immediately separate? Because they are not open to each other. They keep their own problems" said Luthfi and successfully made Syifa face him despite doubts. "You want that to happen to our household?" he continued seriously
Heart, Syifa seemed to stop hearing the last sentence, Luthfi. What does it mean that he talks like that? think, Syifa
"What do you mean by that? You want us to separate?" syifa said carefully with a heart that increasingly suffocates her chest when she utters her own words
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Heart, Luthfi like he was holding something so heavy hit his chest suddenly when the speech that had just escaped from the mouth, Syifa said almost inaudible
Silent
Silent
No one spoke after a few minutes of silence. They are busy breathing to regulate something that sticks to their chest
"I also don't want to" muttered, Syifa who lowered her head and held down the crystal grains in her eyes
"But why are you doing that?" tanya, Luthfi who breathed a little relieved at the reply, Syifa
"The color I think, you want to separate from me" he replied, who still did not dare to lift his face
"Why do you think that?", Lutfi raised his face, Syifa with both hands, "And why are you crying again?" tannya
"I'm a crybaby" said Syifa, with her tears spilling back. However, Luthfi felt an answer, Syifa was cute and smiled faintly
"Why are you smiling" said Syifa, who wiped her own tears
Luthfi shook her head and smiled, "That's nothing. Hmmm" he momentarily hesitated to continue saying, "You see, Dinar is hitting me?" ask him carefully
Syifa did not answer. He tried to turn his face away. Lutfi let out a long sigh because he had now found the answer even though, Syifa did not say anything.
"You didn't see next, did you?" ask, Luthfi
"What's? I haven't answered" ketus, Syifa
"But I know the answer" said Luthfi
"Dih", Syifa snorted and rolled lazily her eyeballs
"You should see it through to the end"
"Well?"
"Let's not misunderstand"
"I don't misunderstand"
"You misunderstood. You just see, Dinar hit me. And you don't see what's next"
"Why should I see next? Obviously I've seen Brother Dinar hurt you"
"But I don't hug him"
"But you relax your body hugged him"
"Hufth", Luthfi really ruffled her hair because she had to give up arguing with, Syifa.
"What's? Why?" tanya, Syifa who raised her voice
"I don't like your high voice" the egg, Luthfi looked straight in the eye, Syifa
Syifa became afraid of the gaze, Luthfi who was like that. But he did not deny, that he was wrong because he raised his voice on Luthfi who had now become her husband
"La. Sorry, he lowered his eyes
"You know what Mommy means? Why does Mommy tell us to be open to each other and to be ready to explain when there's a problem?" tanya, Luthfi who has softened and caressed the cheek, Syifa
Syifa looked into the eyes, Luthfi. He turned his face to think. Actually, he did not really understand the words of his Mommy at that time
"You don't know, do you?" tanya, Luthfi and again Syifa nodded slowly and carefully.
"This is what Mommy meant. If there is a problem, you should always tell me the same story.if I am wrong, you ask me for an explanation. If you look at me like that, you have to look to the end, so you don't misunderstand. And I don't want to see you cry again like that. You gotit?" obviously, Luthfi gently
Syifa who had been teary-eyed at the explanation, Luthfi also nodded slowly. His heart warmed after hearing the explanation, Luthfi. He regretted his actions that had doubted, Luthfi when he saw, Dinar embraced, Luthfi
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Hi everybody? I want a little story. So in this eps, I keep getting into more conflict. But do not know why, I made the plot, I made the story, but even I was the one who became crying myself pass re-read. Strange right well 😅 Feel I'm also experiencing their tightness ðŸ¤
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