
the sound of the chicken began to sound very unusual so loud behind me, I immediately woke up from my soft mattress and then I saw what time it is now when I saw the clock turned out to be only 3 pm, I immediately took ablution water and immediately did the tahajud circumcision prayer with my roaring heart overflow all my grievances to the Catholic I expressed everything I felt with the roar of tears flowing flowing down my cheeks with no hente, I look for everything that makes my heart my mind becomes unsettled to be my mind feels invisible, but when I started to specially arrive2 something started to touch my body and I started to turn around KPD the figure of the hand turned out to be the figure of my father who had been dead since 3 years ago,.then I poured out all the feelings I felt I spilled all of them out with nothing left, and then his hands began to caress my head while saying, "son why are you so sad about your life story, you know, why are you so hurt when everyone goes away from you son, son, do you know, you are a very lucky person and you are a very dear person until Allah gives you so many trials, he said, if you see so many unlucky people that they keep their spirits up and smile like a sun that has lost a thousand sorrows because it has covered a million darkness with its rays that make life for the universe, let's see, son, around you there are so many plants that lack water, lack of sunlight but they are so beautiful and smile when the sun is not appreciated, jdi for what your burden becomes something so heavy na., ", but my father cape with all his I am tired of trials and exams that make me traumatized by all the words of diatribes and curses well, I'm right2 frustrated I really want to die well, well, Alloh is not fair to Yasmin well, Alloh is so hearty well, what should Yasmin do to make Yasmin's heart forget everything well, yasmin's father wants to follow the father, all do not love Yasmin well, all do not love Yasmin, well whether Yasmin can live happily well, well the friend that father loved Yasmin if it's true well Yasmin should marry him, but yasmin father can not afford to marry her well, yahmin father can not afford to marry her, yasmin's father wanted to live alone well, well Yasmin cape once well, Yasmin cape once, yasmin cape once,.. Yasmin wants to live where there's a father, okay.
I unknowingly heard the Adhan reverberate and I woke up from a dream where there was only me and my father.,
my name is Yasmin Agista andriansyah I am the youngest daughter of a peasant son my father's name is Abdul Hadda bin Mi'an, alm my father is a person who is thick with his religion, I am the youngest daughter of two brothers, the name of my brother, Muhammad Abdul Bilal, who is now a teacher in the village next to him, was not married when he was very beautiful, while my mother was named yastri Sukma andriansyah, my mother of Sundanese and Javanese descent, mother seorg najai in my ship and as a kiroaat, mother's voice is very melodious but my mother, my mother,. my mother began to change since she was known by all people and accidentally said the words to my father then immediately my father fainted, although I was only able to see all these tragedies, he said, tears break the happy story into a sad story, the mother I am great2 will now be the one who ended my father's life as her husband,... I also fell stiffly heard and saw my father lying stiff in front of my eyes, my heart ached, as torn as2, my blood rippled so hard as to be dragged by a jack in the sea so fast,. this is a dream or just a story that will tragically end my life,.