PELLET THE MIDWIFE

Chapter 6. Loss of Honor

It was raining heavily outside, making the night feel so cold. There was no other choice, we had to share a room tonight.

"You sleep on the bed, let me on the couch" said Fadli, pointing to a sofa in the narrow room.

There were no words coming out of my lips, other than just a nod of my head. All this too soon, one time go together already directly sleep in one room.

If Mom had known what I was doing, she would have been cracking it by now.

Being outside all day makes my body feel sticky, I intend to take a shower before going to bed.

Fadli is still in a position to sit on the sofa while playing a mobile phone. Does he feel as I think? Nervous, deg-degan. Ah, I don't know.

I'm used to showering at night, because my job as a midwife requires me to go home late at night. The water tonight feels colder probably because of the weather. I quickly moved all over, fortunately the inn provided toiletries so I could clean myself up.

What about the change of clothes? I was so nervous I forgot to take her to the bathroom.

That afternoon, Fadli bought me clothes, I refused, but he kept pushing. However, due to my carelessness the clothes were left on the bed. How's now? I can't wear dirty clothes. I wanted to ask Fadli for help, but I'm ashamed.

Luckily there was a kimono towel hanging inside the bathroom. The inn was small and simple but the service was amazing. 

There's no other choice, I have to wear that towel, hopefully Fadli will be asleep by the time I get out.

Crews!

Slowly I opened the door.

"You shower, Pus? Isn't it cold?"

Degh's!

Fadli, it turns out he's still up. I looked slowly, while covering the towel on the slightly open chest.

"Well, you're not taking a shower, Fad? The water is seger lo," I stammered.

The young man with the hair stood up. "What yes? Alright, I also feel sultry," he said as he walked towards the bathroom.

The duarrr!

The sound of lightning struck so hard, even the flash of light reached into the room.

I realized I was in Fadli's arms. It happened so fast, the distance between me standing and Fadli was quite far, but somehow I was able to jump into his arms.

"No papa, just the sound of lightning" whispered Fadli in my ear, as soon as my Roman feather stood. This time I was so close to a man.

All this time I was very self-serving, all the crews in our single organ group also understood my principles. Different from the views of others out there. They always look down on me because my profession as a singer dangdut kampung.

Many of them said I was a naughty woman who was ready to flirt with people's husbands for money, wanting me to gag their mouths, but it was important that I didn't do what they accused me of.

I tried to escape from the arms of the lurah sir's son, but Fadli's arms held back. "Stay, like this for a second, Pus!" Fadli looked inside at me. What the hell happened to him? Does he mean to be bad to me?

Instead of rebelling, I followed his will. "Honest me, Pus. Do you love me?" unexpected words came out of Fadli's mouth.

"I-i ..."

"I love you, Puspa,"

Fadli preceded my words. However, I was not surprised by his expression of love, certainly because of the influence of the pellet that I used.

"I fell in love with you, a long time ago. Since we were Junior."

Degh's!

What did Fadli just say? She loved me since Junior High? Is that true, or is he just seducing?

"I love you too" I replied with a shy smile, being close to Fadli made me feel at ease. The fact that he already had a wife-to-be slightly bothered me.

"What about, Yasmin?" ask slowly, because you do not want to ruin the atmosphere.

"I don't love her, she keeps pushing and threatening to kill herself if I don't want to be her lover."

Fadli's speech made me feel relieved, at least this man really loves me not another woman. The situation is getting heated between us. Until I realized we were already on the bed.

God, I know this is wrong, but how, I can't help it. Fadli is the man I've always wanted to be.

Instantly I remembered Mom's message, just as Fadli was about to untie the towel I was wearing. I quickly held her hand. "Why? You didn't do it?" ogre. I just looked into his eyes deeply. Looking for an answer that will convince me. "I'll marry you, Puspa." The exact answer I wanted to hear. "You, promise?"

"Me, promise."

It's been almost 30 minutes, I'm in the bathroom. Looking at yourself in the mirror. Missing the honor I've been guarding all this time. As my tears fell, remembering Mom's face, she would cry if she knew.

Fadli's promise to marry me, made the regret in my heart slightly lessened. At least I did that with my future husband.

Didn't he say he had long harbored love for me? That means Fadli's sweet attitude towards me is not due to the influence of pellets from Mbah Slamet, it's all purely out of love.

"Repoom ... You're still a long time?"

I heard Fadli call from outside. Early in the morning he went to seek help, and now the man is back.

"No, I'm done," I raised my voice a little so that it could be heard by him.

I came out of the bathroom fully clothed, the clothes Fadli bought me.

"What a beauty my future wife" Fadli said as he hugged me tightly. I still feel awkward about the change in his attitude.

"Let's go home, I must have been waiting," I said as I detached from her.

"All right,"

Not until we got out did I remember something. "Wait, Fad!" I quickly held her wrist.

"There, what? Have you changed your mind?" tanyanya tempt.

"About last night, can you keep that a secret from everyone?"

I ask with sincerity, hoping that no one will know about the sins we have committed.

"Just calm down, honey. I will keep your honor," Fadli said, then kissed me gently on my forehead.

I was pleased with his words, even though it was inversely proportional to what he had done to me, had he not taken away my honor? Never mind, it has happened, the important thing is that Fadli is willing to take responsibility and will not leave me.

At 10am we arrived home. Mother greeted me boisterously, as if I had just returned home from the war.

"Thank God, you're home, I'm worried" he said.

"Sorry, Mom. We just got back because my car broke down on the road" Fadli told Mother.

"Yes, I understand, my dear, the important thing is that you come back intact,"

said Mother excitedly. If you know, this girl is back already in a state of complete absence.

"You, don't stop by first, Fad?" kataku.

"I'm going straight home, Pus,"

"Alright, careful!"

Since the car crash in the rain, I've met with Fadli a lot. He often takes me out of the house. Just a walk in the afternoon around the village.

The news of our relationship, so quickly spread throughout the village. Make a negative impression.

Puspa the dangdut biduan is now an actor, my heart aches when I hear people say that. But what they say is not wrong.

Both of Fadli's parents called me to come to their house. Fadli and I are being interrogated right now.

"What are you guys, seriously?" he said to me and Fadli.

"Yes, Sir. We're serious, I love Puspa" Fadli said, making me feel proud. The man next to me is keeping his promise.

"What about Yasmin, Fadli?" Fadli's mother started talking.

Fadli was silent for a moment, there was doubt in his heart.

"I'll take care of that, Mom. You guys don't worry."

Both of Fadli's parents eventually agreed to our relationship, thank God they weren't the old-minded type. Suppose it was someone else, they would have been difficult to accept me who is a singer of celebration. Yasmin is the main candidate. Moreover, their social status can be said to be the highest in our village.

***

That afternoon, there was a commotion in front of the house, Mother was seen defending herself with tears. A young lady impolitely pointed at the face of her thumb with her finger. I, who had just come home from singing practice, was shocked by the unusual sight.

Immediately I ran and I held my mother in my arms, this whole life is the first time I've seen my mother humiliated in public like this.