Our Waiting

Thirteen

The Tata POV ON

I heard the voice of someone who seemed familiar, but I couldn't remember who he was, why he knew my family so well, I wanted to open my eyes to see who was talking, when he said miss, I wanted to see who was talking, when he said for help, when he mentioned father and mother, everything hurt, it was a sincere request from others to me.

I soon heard my mother's voice saying I was crying. Am I crying?. But all my body feels heavy, I can't move my body.

Doctor, what is it I'm where, why doctor.

All this time I where, why all the dark, but slowly I heard the mother complain again to someone but who.

Mother I miss mother, mother's voice is very melodious I think at this time, want me to hug mother it feels.

Dad also why does it feel like I'm a shadow, but no one can see me, only black.

I wanted to feel like I was screaming, when my dad said I was giving Nani away, what was my motorcycle fault why I wanted to give it to people. And what is this I don't want if dad changes my motor parts.

I want to get Dad to argue right now.

Who Jojo is, what he has to do with me, but hearing that you want to match him why my heart hurts, I don't know, I don't even know who Jojo is.

Where am I really?

This question keeps turning.

I can hear you sobbing asking me to wake up, Mother I'm awake Mother, I hear mother, but it's dark here. I'm starting to get scared of this.

This continues to happen, no matter how many mornings you have greeted me, I want to greet you, but I am not able to do that.

Bang Malik, Ante Niah, Daddy, Mommy, Sister Sa. Missing system, Listen to your voice, help Tata.

Why I sleep, I wake up and don't sleep.

Why is everyone asking me to wake up?

Am I handicapped? Blind, mute, but clearly my hearing works. Oh God why me?

*****

Good morning too, but it feels free I replied, this is the morning to whom I was called, but different, this is not the voice of my family, who is he? Why crying.

Mas's? I don't think I've ever had any contact with this mas. Missing, Honey, Love. Whatisthis?

But why do I feel so special about her.

Is he holding my hand, Mother help me in the hands of people, he said Tata thin hands, why mother is silent, where mother why let him hold my hand.

I'm thin? Not wrong, want me to scream in front of him saying this body goal. I can't take it, why does it feel like I'm being stripped of it. You perverted man.

Tata's father wanted to complain to me, but I didn't come.

******

Again..

This morning, I should count the mornings, so I can know this morning how I was greeted by my family.

He said he was going home, thank God.

But if I don't wake up right now, I can't complain to mom and dad about him seemingly stripping me off.

I should be able to scream, at least you know. Mother here.

The Mother... The Mother.... Don't let him go first..

Bun... The Mother...

Yes, I tried not to hold my hand, so my hand moved.

I succeeded!!!

"Bun" Why does it feel like this is the only sound that comes out, I've been shouting from earlier.

"Dear baby, this is my mother, Tata is conscious?"

Dizziness, like my head is covered with rocks and like a Roller Coaster ride. I'm dizzy.

I saw Mother crying, but it still felt stiff moving my hand.

The man in the white suit, whom I believe the doctor asked me about.

I'm just dizzy, nothing else.

I guess, this is the pervert who said the morning to me, I felt like I wanted to be angry with him, but seeing his condition why it seems I can't be angry with him.

"Who is" Because I don't know his face.

Why you say she's my girlfriend, my boyfriend bang judge, you know, you've been stuck with this perverted guy. Oia all this time I've never heard the judge greet me.

I asked the Judge bang to the mother, but the man immediately went from before me, surely he was embarrassed at this time ngaku - ngaku be my girlfriend.

Finally I can say hello to Father, Sasa and Mommy. Uh there's a new face, who's next to Brother Sa, what's Kak Sa's girlfriend.

I was astonished, moreover, that he came back, bringing along doctors and nurses as well.

He wants to ask for a defense from the doctor. It doesn't matter if he's here, but when I see him I feel happy, even though he's a perverted guy.

The doctor said I was in a coma for a month, so at least my vacation time in college didn't last very long, because I felt like I had just returned home.

2021?

Was wrong?

It's impossible, I can't miss so much time right now.

"Aakh" My head, as in the weight of tons.

Why can't I remember anything, what's wrong with this. I can't possibly forget this nearly 10-year period.

I can't just forget this, I kind of want to disappear from here. I can't be like this.

Brother Sa came to hug me, it felt comfortable, but still the pain in my head I could not bear.

faded, my vision faded with the loss of this pain.

******

When I woke up I felt heavy in my hand, I saw this perverted man sleeping with the pads of his right hand, and his left hand holding my left.

Comfortable. One feeling I feel right now.

I let him hold my hand, I saw on the sofa there was a man standing next to Sa's brother last afternoon.

Not wanting to disturb them, I tried to remember what I missed. I lyrics table next to this bad hospital, no my phone.

I try to sleep again, let tonight I feel comfortable from him, deep down I want to apologize to the Judge bang already let my hand in his hand.

"Sorry judge" Bathinku.

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Mother came, brought breakfast. The fragrance arrived at my sense of smell was delicious, I wanted to ask but at this time from the hospital I had already gotten breakfast.

I lyric two men who took care of me overnight was fresher, only capitalize washing face, I guess without a toothbrush, but I immediately felt amused as well. The doctor said I had been in a coma for a month, meaning that during this month I also did not shower do not brush my teeth, wah what happened when the Judge came to see my current situation.

I honestly refuse to believe that this perverted guy is my girlfriend, because I love the judge so much, and so does he, too, love me so much. We can't just split up.

I should be able to persuade you to contact the Judge to come here.

At least the explanation I need right now.

I think even if time goes by for 20 years it's hard for me to erase the sense of the judge's bang.

*****

This afternoon I saw the perverted man saying goodbye to my mother, I honestly did not want him to leave me. I don't know what this feeling is, on the one hand I still believe my partner's Judge bang.

When he walked towards me, I was misbehaved, I was nervous. Honestly, he is indeed more sweet than the Judge bang. But what the fuck is this why I compare the Judge bang with him.

When he said goodbye, he also reminded me to keep healthy and do not be lazy to eat. It felt like I wanted to say, "Once you care, then why should you go" But my tongue is confused, which comes out only a thank you note with a sharp tone.

I was so that he felt guilty and delayed his departure.

I can't see her leaving, my chest's tight taking her off.

I turned my eyes straight to the window, holding back my tears from dripping off.

I saw the reflection of the mirror he greeted the mother, Why did the mother not hold back her departure.

I'm ashamed to hold him.

I saw her behind the door holding her, but why didn't she hug me.

Should I be jealous of you?.

The Tata POV End