Opening a Frozen Heart

eps 5's

The clock shows at 5 pm Rini looks just out of the bank. Maybe most people judge that working in a bank is very good because the work is just sitting and serving customers. But there is another side that is not known even though the bank's operating hours are only until 3 pm but for some bank employees the return to work hours are precisely the beginning of the beginning of other jobs that must be completed at that day too.

When passing in front of Azlan's house looks Azlan who just came out of the house along with Abinya. Azlan looks very handsome using a suit of cocoa and sarongs and peci attached to his head. Rini runs into Azlan and Abinya but Rini is only indifferent after all her face is not visible because it uses a bogo helmet with dark glass.

Adzan already reverberated Rini already in his room after bathing and berwudhu Rini prepared to perform the prayer maghrib. Rini is not too religious like Azlan sometimes Rini prayer is still a hole. Rini can also read the Quran but not so fluent and fluent.

The life that Rini lived made her feel that God was unfair. Rini became lazy to worship because she was angry with the creator why her life was so miserable and sad. When his peers wear bags and good shoes and have enough pocket money, Rini actually has to work first to get pocket money.

Envied? Of course Rini was very envious but after returning home to see mamah and her sister felt the iron was gone. What Rini thought about was how she could raise her family's status. His family name is already bad in the eyes of many mothers who always gossip his family.

It was at night before bed like this that all the recordings of his past memories returned to spin. It is seen how his life used to be very sad his struggle with his mother can never be forgotten Rini. It was like Rini was crying but no tears came out her feelings were completely dead. Rini was already unable to feel the emotions of sad, angry, upset, happy, and happy.

*Why was my life so sad?? Even now I can not feel happiness, my mother has married again my mother has managed to rise but why I continue like this, I am really very tired and constantly look okay. I was so tired for 12 years always having to smile in front of my mom. I was tired of hiding my broken feelings. Why did my father leave me and my mother even when my sister was a child. Even so I beg you, O Lord, do not take away the happiness of my mother this time, let me feel the pain. Once again I beg you Lord do not take my mama's happiness to see my mama smile really makes my heart feel peaceful let me suffer.*

After struggling with his mind Rini got up from the bed taking 2 grains of medicine that she used to drink. Without the drug Rini would not be able to sleep. After taking her medicine Rini lay back down and closed her eyes.

The dawn Adhan awakens Rini from her sleep. Rini wakes up before her alarm sounds like a magnet is pulling Rini to wake up.

"Hoaammm only at 4 am in the morning.tumben I wake up as adzan usually never" said Rini who felt astonished.

"Kayak knows his voice instead of Azlan's... Bodo is so ahh why be thinking of him"

Because it was already awake, Rini finally decided to clean up and perform dawn prayer. After finishing the prayer Rini stepped foot into the kitchen to take a glass of drinking water and sip it.

"Tumben Rin has woken up usually you go out of the room to have breakfast" said Mamah Rini

"Yes, why did I wake up"

"Shall you pray subuhan??"

"Well, dong Rin onceyan let you cook, so later if you are married you can cook" mamah Rini's words suddenly made the look of Rini's face turned flat in her heart Rini wanted to say that she would never marry but that would make Mama Rini sad. Rini could only dodge when her mother told her to get married.

"Mamah ihhhh I do not want to marry mah anyan I can also cook mah"

"Yes you can just cook omelet sambal tomato sauce same instant noodles doang" said Mamah Rini yes it is the favorite menu of Rini warm rice, omelet and tomato sauce is very delicious

"Mamah is not cool ah own childhood is not able to cook" said Rini while pouting

"The reality is Rin"

Rini has not answered her mama chat now Rini is struggling with the frying pan. Rini was told mamahnya to fry tempe mandatory menu that must be in every breakfast and dinner. Because every lunch hour there are only mama Rini and Risya alone, while he, his stepfather and younger brother are not at home.

"When do you want to get married, baby?? Next year you're 24, you don't want to be called a spinster??" tanya Mamah Rini is on the sidelines of cooking activities

"Well, Rini still wants to enjoy Rini's youth, Rini still wants to enjoy Rini's youth, not even one year Rini works, Rini still wants to work, Rini still wants to make her happy" replied Rini

"With you married you have made mama Rin happy, we are living in the village age you are very ready to marry Rin, Rin, your friends are already in marriage all even have children"

Rini just kept quiet Rini did not want this chat to be longer. Because Rini is sure her mother will continue to urge her to get married soon.

Really Rini does not want to make her mother sad and disappointed but what power Rini really does not intend to get married. Rini was very afraid that her household would be like her mother first. Rini could only dodge for various reasons when her mother told her to get married. Her mother does not know if Rini is traumatized by men and depression because Rini is very smart to cover her feelings. At that time Rini's mother found Rini's medicine in her bag when she wanted to borrow a cell phone. Mamah Rini asked Rini what medicine Rini replied that it is a vitamin so that she does not get sick easily. Mamah Rini did not know that all this time her son depended on the drug to be able to sleep.

~Happy Reading~