Only Zi

Searching for Light

One Month Later

“Assalaamu’alaikum his sister cute-cute sister, Lila how are you?”

“Wa'alaikumussalam brother, Alhamdulillaah Lila healthy” Zi directly sat Lila on her lap.

“Nih sister bring food, you guys have been on the meal yet?”

“Alhamdulillaah already Kak” replied Candra while rubbing her sister's head.

“Ya already make your snacks later tonight ya”

Soon Pa Haji came to Zi wearing a sarong and peci.

“Eh no nak Zi, sorry you want to go directly to the mosque yes Nak Zi is okay ya Father stay, the problem is soon entered maghrib” time

“Iya Pa is nothing, but the girls are okay pa pa, this time his prayer with Zi alone at home, Zi still misses them at all” Pa Haji nodded his head

Zi prayed, followed by 7 girls in the house who became his aunt.

When Zi started reading Surat Al-Fatihah

A man steps his foot on the porch of Pa Haji's house

“Assalaa...”.

His voice stopped looking at the scene in front of him. The door to Zi's house opened, because it was hotter than usual.

Finally the man decided to wait on the terrace while listening to the melodious voice of Zi who was leading the prayer.

Zi began to guide the children in remembrance, then read do’a both parents and do’a happy afterlife. Zi circulated her gaze outside seeing that someone was sitting there. Zi left the children and began to move on.

“Assalaamu’alaikum, Pa Hajinya Zi voice restrained

oh my goodness this guy again

“Kak Za, want to meet Pa Haji?”

will this guy be cold again?

“Iya” replied Za while occasionally looking down and circulating his gaze

“Eh no friend Kak Zi yes?” Ask the children of the halfway house who had prayed berjama’ah with Zi

“Come salim same brother, his name is Kak Za” Za smiling looking at the children

Tumben once she smiled

The kids went back inside.

Zi decided to sit outside a little distance away from Za, while leaving Lila in her lap

“You're happy little boy?

What??? it's not wrong for people to provoke chat first, what is the wind?

“Iya Kak, I really like it maybe because Zi is the only child” Za looked back at Lila who was busy holding the toy that Zi just bought.

“Kak Za has prayed? uh sorry Muslim sister Za?”

Za's voice choked, he did not immediately answer Zi's question, instead looking at the sky which was not visible to the stars at that time.

“Sama Kak, Zi is also not a good Muslim”

 

Eh tumben-tumbenan once we chat do not use urate, baso is good if talking using urate, the name war.

 

“lo is much better than me Zi” replied Za while looking straight ahead

“Meanour Brother?”

“Gue has long since never prayed, last maybe SD, when I play with the children in the village next to my house, other worship do not ask, just pray dare I stay for years, I live, let alone thinking of other worship”

Zi began to differ in heart, thinking that something must have happened to this man until he dared to leave his duty.

“Zi was also the same Kak, as a creature there are still many khilaf Zi did, but for the business of one's obligations, Zi Kakang who had to pick him up his own Kak.

Hidayah can come because we are looking for Kak not we wait, Brother ever feel lonely and empty sister life?”

Fortunately, I just read a book from Zahra, to take his direction hehe..

“Sering”

 

Geez began to irritate again his words, calm Zi calm Alloh with you

 

“That's her answer brother, Brother feels alone because of his own brother who is away from the source of that calmness"

"Try brother imagine the life of brother without anyone in this world is quiet, but that's his business depends on the creature, if it's his business regardless of the Creator his own will be much more terrible, it's a matter of course, and can –can make depression sis, because we have no place to depend at all.

"Sister try to count the blessings of what God has given to brother, sister Za healthy, being, intelligent, intelligent, time was given an order that only spent approximately 20-25 minutes Kak Za could not”

Yess, when else try to make Kak Za die of fleas like this. Eh Astaghfirullohal'adzim Zi, you know why the heck feel satisfied all, if the intention wants to tell you just do not have to use yas yes yes yes everything. After all, God is still closing your disgrace in front of others, want to know what kind of disgrace opened with God.. Hiiyyyy Na'udzubillahimindzalik

Zi started to shake her head slowly, feeling foolish by what she had just thought. It was very clear that the devil and angels were rummaging through his head and heart.

Lila who was the mash in her lap just stared in astonishment.

Za did not reply, only silent and occasionally bowed.

“Kak Za knows, when Zi set foot on our campus, Zi just learned to wear the hijab, because it was still a matter of weeks"

"Honestly when deciding to wear it Zi was worried, worried about many things, including fear if Zi even did something bad with this hijab, make him shy and can even make Zi more embarrassed”

“But Zi thought back, if the worry arises because of worldly fear, want to until when we are supported by the taste, while Alloh has given Zi a lot of pleasure".

"Parents who are loving, enjoy healthy, perfect limbs, oxygen that can freely Zi breathe, good friends, enjoy being able to worship without fear”.

“From all the favors, Alloh asked Zi to close the aurat that was supposed to be invisible, it might be as difficult as Kak Za's current condition, which is, but there was absolutely no comparison with all the favors Zi had received"

"Until finally Zi tried to brave up against those fears, and Alhamdulillaah although Zi faced new tests after wearing the hijab, but the sense of calm that Zi felt was not comparable to that of Kak”

“Maybe Kak Za has heard, but not necessarily hehe, early Zi entered the campus, but, so many Zi upperclassmen even Zi classmates looked at Zi one eye because of what Zi was wearing, indeed, at that time the clothes that Zi was wearing seemed a little dated and not fashionable at all, but Zi tried to strengthen his heart until finally the help came one by one”