NOT PERPETRATORS

Harsh Rejection

I shifted my body away from him. Good thing Doctor Susan didn't seem to notice us. He's still busy checking out Arka. Then he asked me to sit down. Doctor Susan explained about Arka's state.

"Mother's son caught a cold, exhausted, and it looks like he's about to catch a cold. I will write her a prescription medication. Please get the cure, okay?"

"Yes, Doc."

The doctor named Susan wrote the prescription down on a piece of paper, then gave it to me.

"Thank you, Doc," I said.

I went out to get the cure. The arka looked very weak. He fell asleep in my arms. Dimas followed me. Until I stopped and asked him, "Don't you have to work? Why follow me?"

"I want to be with you" he replied casually.

"I don't need company. Thank you," I said ketus.

And it's predictable. Dimas is stubborn. He followed me until I was done. He also paid for Arka's medical expenses. After that, he took us home.

I was in a hurry, afraid that someone would see us together. Worried that our togetherness would lead to misunderstandings. Dimas immediately picked up his car, and we went in and sat down next to him. Then he drove us home. Actually, it's not that I can't resist. It's just, Dimas was desperate. I am lazy to argue with him in such a situation. After all, wasn't Nessa also on duty at this hospital? Suddenly I remembered what Nessa said back then. At the top of Bogor, at that time ....

(Flash Back Episode 39)

"Initially, I thought about it. That you'll take Dimas' love from me. Isn't that ridiculous? I didn't want to believe you. In fact, ever since I first met you, I've hated you."

Nessa's words are still vividly remembered in my memory. He didn't trust me. Even hates me.

"Yes, you are the one who made it into Dimas' heart. In fact, until now. Until now, it seems like there has been no gap for me to enter."

Nessa's sentences are neatly tucked away in my memory. Is it true that Dimas didn't let Nessa into his heart?

"We were just a couple of friends. Until we finally got engaged. I love her so much. He loves me too. It's just that his heart is still on you."

Is it true that in Dimas' heart there is only me?

"We're matched!"

"i like it. Loved it. L loved her. Unfortunately, Dimas has never said that he loves me."

"What makes my heart happy, he will definitely agree to it. She loves me so much. I'm sure he loves me too. It's just that Dimas still refused to admit. Moreover, he had not been able to expel his past. That's you."

"I'm already married. I will not accept another man. Dimas is just my past. I threw it away before I decided to get married. So, you don't have to worry. I don't love her anymore." That's my promise. The promise that came straight from my lips.

"Please .. don't let Dimas leave me. I don't know how many times Dimas would tempt you to come back to him. But I trust you completely. Reject Dimas! He's my destiny! He's my soul mate! We were born to be together forever. Never go back to Dimas. Never betray me. Promise me not to go back to your past! Or I'll really hate you! Promise that! Please, Imania ...."

Yes, Lord .. why did I go awry. I always wanted to stay away from Dimas. But Dimas always stuck to me. Where I look, that's where he'll catch me.

"Nia," he called her down. And I didn't hear.

"Nia" he called again.

"Nia, there's a phone on your phone!"

I'm shocked. Dimas' voice suddenly blew my daydream. I also took my phone from the bag.

"Hallo, Mom."

"Where are you?" The voice of Bastian.

"I just got home from the hospital, Mom. I called you earlier. But--"

"I just opened my phone. Thank goodness you checked Arka."

"Yes, Mum."

"How's Arka saying the doctor?"

"He just got in the wind. Don't worry," I said so that Bastian's mas wouldn't worry too much.

"Yes, already. I'll continue working. I love you" he said from the phone.

"I love you too" I said.

Dimas suddenly braked his car. I staggered a little, and of course I scolded him straight away.

"What are you doing! It's dangerous!" namelku upset.

He looked at me and looked at me with his eyes. "You broke my concentration."

"Hey! You almost hurt us. You're blaming me?"

He brought his face a few centimeters from mine. "Don't say any more love words to Bastian!"

"My problem is .. you .. just deserve to love me" he said at will.

I'm laughing a little. "Oh, forget me. I've forgotten all about us."

"Why? Why should I be tormented by this kind of feeling? Why can't I have you? Why can't I forget you?" He said while looking at me.

Staring at his face this close, made my heart beat so fast. I swallowed my own saliva. Dimas ... You're not the only one who's been tortured. In fact, I am too. I'm tormented if you keep forcing me to come back to you.

"Nia, just so you know. I don't love Nessa one bit. I just love you. Only you!" he said with a vibrating tone.

"Di, you don't lie to yourself. I know you love Nessa. I'm sure you have feelings of love for Nessa. It's just that you haven't been able to realize it. You're too late in the past. Until you find it hard to think clearly about your future" I said, staring at him. My heart feels like it's gonna fall out. Staring at him like that makes me less and less anxious.

"I don't love Nessa."

"You love her."

"No!'

I took a deep breath, turning my face away from his sight. I fixed Arka's position on my lap. Arka's still asleep.

"Look at me, Nia," he said as he grabbed my chin slowly. Now, we're back to looking. Five centimeters from my face. Really, my heart seems to be about to explode.

I've never felt my heart this active, not even with my husband.

"I love you ...."

"You're so stubborn."

"I see, there's still love for me in these beautiful eyes."

I lifted one corner of my lips, turned my face away from it. "You're wrong! I don't love you at all." I felt pain in my chest when I said that.

"How pathetic I am. You rejected me many times" he said with a laugh.

"Don't come after me anymore. Go after your future!"

"My future is you!"

I was getting upset arguing with him. He never ran out of words to corner me.

"Nia, I can't marry Nessa. I don't love her."

I took a deep breath, exhaled slowly. Then looked back at him, still with a thumping chest. "If you didn't love her, you wouldn't have been that sweet when Nessa passed out back then! Actually, you have feelings of love for Nessa. But you keep hiding it!"

"Who hides love? Isn't that you. Free running, Nia. Because love cannot hide. Until whenever!"

"I want to get down here. I can go home by myself."

I tried to open the car door, but Dimas held my arm. He brought his lips closer to my ear, which was closed by pashmina. "About my concern for Nessa, it's nothing more than a concern for a friend. I don't love him, I just love him. Do you understand?" whispered soft.

"That's none of my business. I can't love you anymore."

He grabbed my chin again, faced this face at him. "Do I have to get rid of Bastian first, so you can accept me?"

My eyes were round hearing his question. "If you hurt my husband, I don't hesitate to kill you!"

"Yes, kill me, but with your love. I'm willing!" said casually.

"You're crazy!" hisisku.

"Perced Bastian! So, I don't have to finish him!"

It's ridiculous! He seems to have lost his mind. "Never touch my husband!" I put my finger in front of his face. With anger that can not be restrained anymore, I finally overcame him all-out.

"You're just a crazy man! Don't ever come near me again! Stop bothering me! No need to be so good to my husband! You're nothing more than a friend eating! I have been holding back my emotions! So, leave all our memories! Get away from me!"

I also got out of the car, after being content to wear it. But he held my arm back. Grabbing my chin and ....

The cup!

Furious, the lips attached to me. The intonation is so soft and fast. So that I can't fight it. There is an Ark still awake in my lap. In shocked and open eyes, I felt anger spilling from his lips. That gently sweeps every corner of my lips. My heart rhythm stopped beating. Unable to withstand this strong feeling. My eyes slowly closed. The clear threads slid back to the cheeks. Removing all fret in the heart. I can't resist it, why?

After a few minutes, he removed his lips. I immediately took the opportunity to escape from him. I opened the door and got out of the car with a wet face. I ran down the hot road. My house is still quite far away. However, I continued walking, while keeping Arka who was still asleep in my arms.

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