My Universe (Generic)
Humiliation
Els does her daily activities, now the woman is in the ironing room, there are three baskets with mountains full of dry clothes that must be ironed, and all the clothes had to wait in line for the magic hand Els touch it until folded slippery and neatly ready to wear for the owner.
"Els.." her mother-in-law came to Els who was duet with her niece Iron Man who went back and forth on a sheet of cloth.
"Yes Ma'am" said Els.
"Mom wants to go arisan, you want to go to mom" he said.
"Well.." Els stopped the movement of her hand, and stared in disbelief at her mother-in-law. "Mother ngajak Els?" Els made sure her ears didn't hear wrong.
"Who are you, who else can you ask? Early busy in her shop, Lisa is also at school. It's just you at home" said Nunik's mother.
"But Ma'am, Els ironing is still a lot" said Els.
"So those useless clothes are more important than your mother-in-law?" yells.
"It's not so Mom, okay Els accompany mom to go arisan" break up Els, because refusing was useless.
"Don't have to dong Els" he protested.
"Els was not forced Mom" he said displaying a warm smile. "What time do you leave?" connect Els.
"This is my mother leaving, you change your clothes first" he ordered.
"Yes Ma'am" said Els to go to his room to replace clothes.
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Els followed her mother-in-law away, actually Els was very unhappy with gatherings like this, but Els was forced to follow the wishes of her mother-in-law. Els is a quiet woman, she is difficult to get along with the outside environment, Els is always uncomfortable when in the crowd, Els prefers to stay at home, alone in a room or in a quiet place. Els also has only one friend, she is Widia, the only friend who does not get tired of being on Els side with her reserved attitude.
"Jeng Nunik how are you?" exclaimed a middle-aged man of Els' age.
"Jeng Sari" the two hugged each other. "My news is good, Jeng himself how are you?" tanyakanya.
"good too. Come on-ayo come in, jeng Nunik come with who?" the woman looked towards Els.
"He's Aryan's wife" said Els.
"I'm Els Aunt" Els repeated her hand and introduced herself.
"Oh... This is Arya's wife?" welcoming the hands of Els. "Let's go in" he asked Els.
"Anything, is his son Arya not coming?" the question, makes Els uncomfortable.
"Arya has not had Jeng's children, whereas Aryo and Dini were not until a year immediately pregnant" said Els's in-laws.
"You're Jeng, I told you to make our son's soul mate. Look Gina, just three months married now is already pregnant" said a woman who came to nimbrung.
"Jeng Retno late, the Arya was hooked with his wife" mother glanced at Els
"Isn't Arya married long ago?"come again, friend of Ms. Nunik.
"Not long ago Jeng Rita, this has entered the fourth year" said Els.
"That's a long time ago, try Jeng Nunik bring Arya's wife to check her health, lest her uterus is not healthy" came again friend Bu Nunik who helped corner Els.
"But he said everything is fine Jeng Sumi, but I also don't know which part is fine" he said.
"God willing we are both healthy Mom, it's just that God has not been willing to leave a baby on us" said Els held the pain in her heart, it turns out this is the purpose of the in-laws Els invited her.
"If it's okay, it's not possible not yet pregnant" said a woman named Retno. "There must be something the same as you, Aryo just not as long as it instantly has children" he said.
Els can only hold tightness in the chest during the event, Ms. Nunik and her friends do not stop cornering and even blame Els for not being able to get pregnant. Els feels skinned and stripped of her pride as a woman and a wife, let alone a woman who is supposed to give wise advice and motivation so that she becomes stronger. Not that he judges, blames and demeans her like this.
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"Mom why would you do all this to Els?" ask Els when they just made sure of the house.
"What do you mean Els?" he did not accept the question of his son-in-law.
"Mom why would you embarrass me in front of your friends?" Els is crying.
"Mom didn't humiliate you Els, mom and mom's friends were just talking about the facts" she said.
"But having that offspring is beyond our power, ma'am, it is God's absolute matter when He will leave the offspring to his servant"
"You must not bring God to cover up your shortcomings Els" the chairman.
"Els speak the truth Ma'am, Els and Mas Arya are healthy, Els is not..."
"You dare argue with your in-laws Els?" snapped it. "This mother is the woman who conceived, gave birth to life betting, breast-feeding, caring for and raising the man who is currently your husband. The man who now bears your food, drink and needs. You want to fight this woman?" yells.
"Sorry Mom" Els could only shut up and bow her head.
"You don't be a woman who doesn't know Els, remember your position, you useless woman" Ms. Ninik pushed Els' shoulder against the wall, then left Els.
"Why no one loves me hiks.." cried Els broke, tightness that he held in the chest to make it difficult to breathe was released with the fall of Els tears.
"I hate myself hiks...hiks...you weak Els, you stupid woman, you useless hyks...." Els stood in front of the mirror cursing and blaming herself, for being too weak to resist the injustice that befell her.
"I'm useless, I'm stupid, I'm a fool, I'm weak, I'm a loser, I'm useless.hiks...." Els continued to blame herself and grabbed her hair, all the mockery and insults Els had received as if spinning inside her head, Els also recalled the scorn that her parents did when she was in elementary school. Fill the head of Els as if filled with words of trash from the people closest to her.
"Lord, I'm tired" Els was lying on the floor, her voice hoarse, her tears couldn't even flow anymore, her head throbbing painfully, her body was also weak, nauseous, tired, tired, and it feels painful in some parts.
"God what should I do? no is a happy speck for me? did you forget to write down the happy destiny of my life?" Els stared blankly at the ceiling of her room.
"When should I live like this? What is the reason I was born into this world? I'm so tired" Els closed her eyes, her heart and mind were so tired, there was nowhere to share, her husband would definitely do nothing even if Els complained,. telling stories with his parents is also impossible Els did. Talking to Widia, Els was very embarrassed.
Whether the fate of what Els lived, if only Els had the courage to commit suicide, maybe Els had done it a long time ago.
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