My teacher is my soul mate

Worthless Feeling

Braakkk...

Alexa slammed the door and immediately washed it, she flipped her bag in any direction and dropped herself on the bed. Alexa sobbed, she did not even care about Ryuga who had been knocking on her door, Alexa even pulled a pillow to drown her face.

No more knocking on her bedroom door, Alexa popped her face behind a pillow and clocked her phone. Alexa turned on her phone and saw a lot of incoming chat notifications and several incoming calls from her Papah, she opened her whatsapp application looks Rena and Kifli who chatted her asking her current situation, giving her spirit. Rena and Kifli are friends who are very attentive to Alexa. Alexa scrool again chatted him and saw Doctor Siska, who told him to come for control and therapy tomorrow.

Good Day.....Miss Alexa tomorrow is a schedule chekp up, do not forget to come at eight in the morning.( Dr. Siska Armetta M.Psi)

Alexa then flips her phone in a haphazard direction she breathes violently when she sees a call from her Papa ringing back. Because his current mood was so bad he deliberately ignored his Papa who had contacted him since a few days ago. Because Alexa knows for sure her Papa will only discuss about her photos spread in school groups.

Alexa again took a rod of skirt** for her suction back. Alexa is not a perok** addict, like people who a day can spend a box or two skirts**, she only menok** when the mood is bad or her feelings are worried.

Unlike Ryuga who just keeps pacing around in his room while thinking about Alexa's speech. He gives up because Alexa completely ignores when Ryuga knocks on the door of his room.

How does Alexa know about Sita ?.."Why hear his words I feel so there is another meaning to his words...Did I make a mistake with her ?..." What was the meaning of his words earlier." Ryuga said while scratching his head no matter how hard he thought, but his brain was still deadlocked he could not find any answer, he could not find any answer, while asking Alexa was impossible he did because Alexa seemed to avoid him as if he did not want to be disturbed.

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At night someone looks so restless in his mind, his sweat looks flowing wet his face. No.!!!!.yelling Alexa who arrived suddenly jerked sitting awake from a very creepy dream. Alexa ran into the bathroom channeling her nausea that continued to torment her almost every night. Now Alexa limped while fumbling nightstand trying to take the medicine that only one item left in the drawer.

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The clock shows at 06:00 am Alexa is arranging dishes at the dinner table preparing breakfast before continuing her activities. Ryuga is seen down while rolling his shirt he glances at Alexa with his face look unreadable. The fragrance of perfume is clearly smelled from the body of Ryuga fragrance that continues to disturb the feelings of Alexa which recalls the events of the night that Ryuga was drunk and attacked him. Alexa suddenly looks like her own misbehavior when she moves around Ryuga. Oh what's with Alexa, in an instant the charm of Ryuga makes him forget the events of last night, his heart back weak accompanied by the pounding of his heart that is not careless. Alexa subdued her eyes closed for a moment, trying to control herself to throw her breath long.

But at that time Ryuga was seen ignoring him, then left the apartment without touching the breakfast provided by Alexa.

What... She fucked me, is it because I ignored her last night ? Hmmm....," It should have been that people were angry because of his attitude,.the most aggrieved here.." after all that he did me at that time, and the smell is just me who ended up like a fool himself,."ujar Alexa while laying his head on the dining table.It seems clearly a look of disappointment on Alexa's face, Alexa breathed in violently and sat down and stared at the breakfast that was still intact leaving only herself.

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Alexa today has asked permission from the school, but she still wears a uniform because she does not want to raise suspicion on Ryuga, because today is her chek up schedule to meet with Doctor Siska. While waiting for the arrival of Doctor Siska in the waiting room, Alexa opened a chat and there was a chat coming in from Rena.

Lex Luh didn't come in today? Wh why? You're all right, right ? (Bene)

Yes I am fine, I have permission, I want to go to my nyokap tomb (Alexa)

Oh that's it.."gue thinks you're sick!! yes already yes udah mapel nih bye bestie 😘😍🥰😚 (Rena)

Bye 😘😘 (Alexa)

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Uh Alexa, have you been waiting a long time? .."ayo please come in.."said Dr. Siska who just arrived, Alexa was a little surprised by the arrival of Dr. Siska because he was busy chatting with his best friend.

Good Morning Doc.."said Alexa kindly to Dr. Siska. And Dr. Siska also looks a little tidying up some files on her desk, as she has also just arrived.

Morning!!..."Come sit down.." said Dr. Siska with a friendly smile.

What's your condition this late, Alexa..," asked Doctor Siska kindly.

Alexa just smiled and lowered her head so Dr. Siska also immediately gives encouragement to Alexa to tell what has been experienced Alexa.

Approximately two hours Alexa and Doctor Siska have a deep conversation that discusses the external world of the patient.Alexa given cognitive therapy approach is done by encouraging Alexa to change the behavior and views of Alexa to think more positive. Alexa also tells about all the events she experienced including also telling her marriage.

Doctor Siska is shocked when Alexa reveals her marriage. And Dr. Siska was very regretful because it would only add to the bad condition of Alexa let alone Alexa married because betrothed without the feeling of love from both parties. Can be heard clearly the sound of sobs Alexa when telling things that she has felt lately. Dr. Siska is very worried about the condition of Alexa, the most he fears is Alexa will perform Self Harm actions or hurt himself, he said, and the most severe for patients who are trapped in the condition can be an attempt to end his life.

Feeling Worthless is when a person feels worthless. This feeling tends to make people feel hopeless, useless, and confident that they are worth nothing. Feeling Worthless depressive symptoms are most closely related to suicide attempts.." says Dr. Siska with his description of Alexa's current condition that has been said to be worrisome. .

Doc.what are the chances that I can be cured.."ujar Alexa with so heartbreaking sobs.

But I'm afraid Doc.." said Alexa with her anxious feelings.

Alright I won't force it if it's hard for you, but you also mind again huh what advice I..!!! And for the time being I will give you an additional prescription.."if your condition worsens you should see me immediately.", said Dr. Siska with such attention.

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Alexa walked out of Dr. Siska, but when he opened the door and came out he accidentally hit the body of a doctor who wanted to enter the room Dr. Siska.

Oops.." said Dr. Andry while securing the Boba he held in his hand so as not to spill.

Oh..!! ,"Sorry Doc I didn't accidentally.." said Alexa friendly while slightly bent.

Oh yes gpp!!.." said Dr. Andry who at that time wanted to meet his lover, Dr. Siska.

Dr. Andry stood looking at the back of Alexa who had walked past him.

Hmmmmm...Rich never see but where it is.."in Dr. Andry scratched his forehead trying to remember. Because Alexa's face was slightly lowered so Dr. Andry could not see it clearly.

Sayanggg...,"kok even bengong there..,"here.."said Dr. Siska whining spoiled to her lover Dr. Andry. Dr. Andry came in and brought Boba Brown Sugar to his girlfriend.

That was your patient." asked Dr. Andry was serious about Dr. Siska.

Hooh.."Why beautiful? What has a crush?...", asked Dr. Siska as she plucked her lips.

Not Beibs..."I don't know where I've ever seen it but I forget where..Oh yes this is your order.kalo less sweet see me aja yak..," said Dr. Andry teasing his lover who seems to look a little jealous of him because of Alexa.

Hah Lying!!..,"Based on crocodiles..!! But it's a pity that he already has.." said Dr. Siska smiled as she stuck out her tongue, she told Dr. Andry a little Alexa about Alexa status. But it is not telling about his health condition, because it is a secret in every world of medicine.

Seriously..,"still SMA has merid, wah lost to us Beibs.but kasian also yes.."sujar Dr. Andry was stunned. Dr. Siska just nodded chiming in on her lover's words.

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While walking in the hospital corridor Alexa's phone rang and it was seen Mama Retno calling her Alexa also immediately raised the call.

Alexa you come home at what time." asked Mama Retno who sounded so cheerful.

One hour Mahh..,." said Alexa lying who was actually waiting for a prescription drug at the hospital pharmacy

Did you pick you up later, huh?.."Mama would like to take you for a walk as you are Temenin Mamah.."said Mamah Retno.

Alexa panicked because she was not at school, actually Alexa planned to visit the grave of her Mom after returning from the hospital.

The Garuda Bangsa SMA

The sound of cheering on the female students in the basketball court arena saw Mr. Ryuga and Dimas fighting. I don't know what Ryuga felt suddenly just saw Dimas playing basketball he felt challenged to follow the game Dimas. Dimas is a basketball team leader who is very popular because his face on the court becomes twice as handsome. While Ryuga while in England his basketball game can not be doubted because there he had joined the basketball community whose ability can be equated with basketball players equivalent to the NBA .

Eh what the fuck is the Fli in there rame it?.." asked Rena curious while wailing.

Oh you nanyaaa !!!...There are strawberry flavors, there are mangoes and there are apples." answered plain Kifli with his style of guyonanya Dilan kw sounding trivial and quite disturbing hearing Rena.

I swear I'm so sick of it..,"Kifliiiiii I'm serious.." said Rena while pinching Kifli's hand.

Sick !! ," Pea is also the son of...How do I know, from earlier I was here....," Crazy yes ema luh cravings what the hell, Ren?... ..Ampe blue cave hand luh pinch.."sajar Kifli while stroking elus hand that pinch Rena.

Bodo very ?.. "suggested Rena he went to leave Kifli just like that.

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