
Ningrum rushed to the kitchen. He prepared the ingredients he would cook for their dinner.he would make Luccy feel appreciated his efforts all along.
When he was busy with his activities, a notification entered the mailbox in his phone. Ningrum tried to open it, and it turned out that Bank-ing was from a transfer account number he had known.
"Andy.." he groaned. He stared pushyly at a text message sent by one of the leading banks' names.
A year passed, and he almost forgot the man, now he suddenly came just by giving a transfer.
Ningrum looked for the man's number, nothing, because he had already deleted it, but strangely he still memorized the number well.
Ningrum typed the number he memorized, but was not connected, and was out of range. Ningrum ruffled his hair, ruffled his waist, with his mind in a frenzy.
He continued to try to call the man's number, but was unable to connect, and the operator said the number was out of reach.
"Andy's... Where're you? Why are you doing this to me?!" Ningrum leaned against the wall of the kitchen, while raising his head, he tried to remember the face of the man who was full of mystery, but the shadow could not show the face of the man.
Ningrum again pressed the green button for the number, but it was not connected. Ningrum sighed harshly.
Meanwhile, the man was far away, staring at his phone screen, erasing the traces of his transaction, and deactivating his phone, and then storing it in a bag of his own pen made of real leather.
Then he grabbed another phonsel, and surfed in cyberspace.
At the same time, a woman appeared to enter her room, where she was resting, having just returned from the mine, because she heard the news that her mother was very ill.
"Mas... Lunch for you I have prepared," he said.
The man who was none other than Andy nodded his head. "Come out first, I'll catch up" he told the woman.
The woman obeyed her words, and rushed out, no rebuttal from her, she was too obedient. But the woman who had become his wife 5 years ago, felt that she was only a wife on paper and also a bed, because the look of the man's eyes was not for him, where when the body was with him, because, but his soul is in another woman, I don't know who..
Ningrum sobbed in his tears. He doesn't know his feelings. To be honest Andy is a love that can not be forgotten until now, but it seems like fate said another to him.
"Don't do this, please.. If you're married, be happy.. Don't ever hurt her heart by transferring money to me, it's the same way you hurt her. Just pray that I have a healthy body, in order to still be able to make a living, without having to send money," lamented Ningrum who typed it very quickly, and would send the text message, which was, hope if the man's phone is active will enter the message.
But Ningrum was silent for a moment. What if Andy is married, and accidentally his wife who ratifies the phone and reads a message from him? Wouldn't that hurt the woman who is now his wife? Ningrum dilemma.
Slowly he deleted the text message he had typed in such a hurry, then canceled it.
Meanwhile, Andy came out of his room. The empty space in his heart, filled only with a timeless name, 'Ningrum'.
He was like a bird with broken wings, trying as much as possible to forget each woman's shadow, but the more he forgot it, the deeper he felt, and he could not fly far away, despite trying to keep trying to flap his wings, he still could not.
He realizes a big mistake by marrying Arumi which at the request of his old and sickly mother, so that he gets married soon, because the mother wants a grandchild.
He can no longer avoid his destiny, when the match is made, for it is all for the sake of the mother.
But the sin he realized because he had ignored the feelings of the woman who had now faithfully accompanied him with patience, because there was an unfinished love.
"Lord... If he is not my soul mate, why is this feeling so strong? Why should there be love growing, while it is not my ribs" he murmured softly in his heart.
He breathed weakly. A sense of crumbling in his chest. The shadow of the face of the woman who had bound him in a wishful thinking that did not arrive.
Slowly he rang from his bed, towards the door in weak steps. "Maybe we will never be united in body, but let me keep this feeling in the recesses of my heart, tucked away in the innermost vault, so that no one can dive it, only I know, how deep this feeling is in you," he murmured softly in an insufferable heart.
When Andy opened the door to his room. A four-year-old girl ran up to him, waiting for him to come to the table, and trying to hold back her hunger, for the sake of eating together with the man he called papa.
"Father.." he shouted. Then extended his hand towards the man, asking to be welcomed in his arms.
Andy greeted her, brought her in his arms, and who would have thought, if the girl's face, was similar to that of a woman named Ningrum, and it happened because every time she made love, always imagined Ningrum's face in his imagination.
Wicked? Is that word worth putting on for her? Yep... But a feeling cannot be forced, just let it flow, and with time all of it will have an answer.
He may be evil as a husband, but he is a good father to his daughter. He is evil in his feelings, but all the needs of his wife are met well.
"How long ago, Alicia was hungry!" whining the girl after being in Andy's arms.
"Sorry papa, dear," she said calmly, then gently kissed Alicia's cheek which became the wedding fruit.
Meanwhile, Ningrum curled up in the corner of the kitchen room. He doesn't know what to do. Andy was like a wind that came and went as he pleased.
"Andy.. Why are you doing this to me..? This is not true! If you're married, say it! And never send money to me again! Be happy with him there," Ningrum groaned with a heart so empty.
He held his chin above both knees. Her crying was so heartbreaking.
At the same time, Sary entered into the kitchen ruqng. He wanted to let you know if Yamink had come to deliver his order. Where the man is not only as a supplier of cosmetics, but Syahfitri has also opened an appetizing food and drink outlet.
Yamink brought 6 cups of fruit salad, fruit juice, and a variety of toppings with spicy dower level which became Ningrum's order.
Sary was astonished to see her employer who looked so apprehensive with a noticeable sobbing with a shudder on her shoulder.
Sary paused for a moment, then opted out of the kitchen room.
Ningrum flinched, as a hand patted his shoulder. He raised his head, and Andini appeared to be in front of him, with Yamink.
Andini stretched out her hand, grabbed the woman's shoulder, then helped her to stand up straight.
Andini led her to the dining chair, then pulled her, for Ningrum to sit down and calm down.
But he just clutched Andini's body. He wept and poured out all his restlessness. Andini stroked his best friend's back, he did not know what the real problem was, but certainly, his best friend needed a shoulder to lean on.
Andini gave time for her best friend to control her emotions, she could not force Ningrum to say what her current problem was.
After he controlled his emotions, Ningrum let go of his embrace, then wiped his tears, and sat down in the dining chair, though the roar of his tears still lingered.
Yamink and Andini also sat in the dining chair, both still silent, staring at his best friend who seemed to be trying to calm his emotions.
"A-Andy's... He's married.." his wish broke again.
Andini and Yamink looked at each other. The two only heard stories from Ningrum, if a man named Andy always sends money to their best friend. But they themselves never know what the real Andy looks like, because the man looks like a fairy tale before going to bed.
Because his figure is very different from other men. The man loves in a different way.
The two were still speechless, trying to listen to all the explanations from Ningrum.
"Does Ma'am still have the same taste?" ask Andini in full search.
Ningrum. He cannot deny his heart and his feelings, if he still has that feeling. But he did not want everything to boomerang for him.
he tried to nod weakly. He himself did not know if his feelings were wrong.
"Am I wrong to keep that feeling?" ask her with a very sad heart. His gaze looked so sweet, which clearly illustrated his fragile heart.
"The feeling is not wrong, but if Mbak can fight it and try to forget it, together with time, everything will disappear!" andini.
"I've tried to forget it, erase the number, but in vain, I still memorize the number in my memory. Even nine years passed, I tried not to wait for him, but he actually came and went as he pleased," said Ningrum with honesty.
"i am at a loss for what to say when it comes to dealing with feelings, but one thing we have to remember is that there is a legitimate woman who accompanies her life!" Yamink chimed in on Andini's words.
"It is precisely because of that, that I tried to forget it, but the further I tried to run from all of its shadows, I was instead entangled in memories that I should no longer remember," Ningrum replied.
Andini and Yamink try to understand what her best friend is up against.
"Already, Ma.. Let's eat the fruit salad, dear tuh, the mayonnaise has melted and the juic is gone ice," interrupted Andini.
Ningrum only realized if he had ordered food and drinks from Yamink his best friend.
"Emmm.. M-sorry, Kang.. I was too late in my troubles, so I forgot what I ordered" Ningrum said, wiping away his tears.