My Pain Killer's

chapter one's

A twilight ray that afternoon entered the room towards the second-floor room facing across the highway. Brown windows measuring 3x4 meters. There stood a large tree that was shaking the leaves. From behind the leaves, a girl sat blankly, she was facing the highway, her eyeballs were moving left and right following the vehicle on the highway. Sometimes he looked down and hugged his knees. Like someone who carries a heavy burden.

"What should I do, how can I refuse it. I'm afraid they'll get hurt by my decision". His desire alone.

He then moved his feet towards the bed. He will fall asleep or just close his eyes.

Tok..tok, someone knocked on the door. Srett. That door is open.

"Lula, km sleeping baby?". There's no answer to that question. "Yes, rest first. It's gonna be an important day for lula". The middle-aged woman then walked towards the door and left Lula asleep in her room. "1..2..3..4...5..." Lula was counting step by step from the middle-aged woman who was her biological mother. After a count of up to 5 Lula opened both his eyes. The girl did not fall asleep, she just closed her eyes. Not because he was angry with his mother. But when he was lazy to talk to anyone.

The cold night enveloped the lula sitting facing the empty sky left behind by the moon and stars. Yes, the condition is the same as Lula. Empty and empty. "The sky seems to support my situation now". Her speech. On that silent night he kept thinking about his fate tomorrow. Tok.tok.tok..message. "non.non lula". Aunt's voice stopped the lula's daydream. "Bi yes. Take her to the room". Answer lula. Hearing Lula's reply, the aunt went downstairs and picked up a tray filled with several food menus.

" Lula gk want to go down to eat bi?". Adam asked when he saw his aunt bringing lula dinner. " Yes, sir, the food was told to go upstairs". Understanding what the aunt said, Adam just nodded his head. " Mission sir, I'm upstairs first". Pamit aunty. Adam and Nisa return to eat the food provided at the dinner table. They're talking about preparation for tomorrow.

On top of the lula just let the food decorate his study table while he was still sitting glued and his eyes were accustomed to being spoiled by the vehicle on the highway. He can spend hours just staring at the vehicle on the highway. Then count them one by one and when he sleeps he will fall asleep at the window.

 I'm just getting used to all the circumstances, not because I like it. I am only comforting myself who is overwhelmed with boredom. 

Maybe you find it strange, what's interesting it all?. 

At first I felt something similar. 

Of interest? Maybe everything I do seems uninteresting. 

But I didn't do it to attract your attention or anything else. I just stirred up a long-buried passion for life.

 Am I wrong?.

I'm sitting here, thinking about him. Letting the wind blow my hair, letting the dinginya of the night hug my face and spoil my eyes with the lights of the city. 

flashbacks.......

Twelve years ago, when Lula was 12. The dream came to him.

In a dream lula stood in front of a mirror while looking at herself and behind her was a girl standing, a girl who mirirp once with a lula just that they were wearing different dresses.

Seeing the girl lula suddenly cry, her tears flowed incessantly. The girl he had longed for. After three months of coming to see Lula, Lulu's accident leaves her family for good. Yes he lulu twin lula who three months ago died due to an accident.

I cried in my sleep, the one I missed came to see me, yes! Her. He's my only brother. He is my real and living shadow. I stood in front of the mirror looking at me, I saw Lulu looking at me from behind with a smile. It was that smile that kept my tears flowing. Slowly lula hugged me until it made me hard to breathe, brother will take care of you.

After the accident that hit the lulu, lula always menagis. She kept blaming herself . “if only I was careful maybe Lulu didn't get hit by car” she said in her tears and lashed her own.

His father and mother tried to calm lula. “so lula, we can not fight destiny, just let your brother down. Say both of his parents.

The departure of lula makes nisa and adam very hard hit, as a quiet and loving child, lulu always memorized by lala adeknya.

Nisa and Adam never worry about leaving their twins at home with their aunt. Lulu is very good at taking care of her adek even though she is still said to be the children of her mind like a 17-year-old. Lulu won't let in if there are other kids bothering her sister. If there is something that he has that lala wants then lula will not mind giving to her grandfather, while lala has a much different nature to lulu.

She was more childish, spoiled and always envious of her brother. There were-there were things that he wanted from Lulu's room. But Lala prefers to follow her brother, wherever she plays he must follow her. The little girl loved her brother more than her parents. If asked which one you love your mother or father, Lala is always a waitress.

“clear be bund, sister lula”. Say it plainly.

Because unfortunately on his twin brother and the little girl did not want to forget the memories with him, he also finally decided to change his name to lula stands for lulu and lala. Lula knows that lulu is one in her. Although his body was no longer together, his heart and soul stayed and hugged his heart tightly.

At first her parents objected to Lala wanting to change her name to lula. But come to think of it there is no harm if lala wants to be called lula. Maybe that way lula can shake her brother.

At that time my soul was dead, I hated being called lala, that name reminded me of that incident. I don't know why I combined my name with lulu, lula. Yep! Lula, I think that's a good call. Slowly I began to erase my memories with Lulu. I don't know, I live in the dark. Until that moment came when I felt a fire burning in my heart. The heat and the light are what I feel. I'm sure it's lulu, yeah! He was in there I was sure it was .but for a long time the fire was burning too big, to make my heart ache.