My Long Journey And Dad
Chapter 9. Grief, sorrow and gray
A very empty day no longer a listener complains, all so bland there is no affection from Mom and Dad like other children. Inspiration also does not know what to try to live his life like. Ilham was devastated by the departure of everyone closest to his loved ones. There was no more laughter in the house, no more advice for him.
The hope that used to want to be a football player has now been lost, there is no spirit until support again. Inspiration hates himself until his father's fatal disease is completely unknown, he feels guilty. He immediately also hated his mother, until Mr. Herman breathed his last even Mother Nur no refreshing Inspiration and for years Ilham had not heard from his mother again
“Ilham really hates Mom. Just be careful if Mom comes back again, Inspiration will not accept it anymore. It's enough Mom to hurt Dad and Inspiration. If you are dear Mother as far as any mother goes, Mother will definitely meet us even if only for a moment,” cries break Inspiration no longer has a spirit of life.
When Inspiration was daydreaming in his courtyard of cool air and waving trees came a Father - a father, not so old. Yes it is Mr. Yanto, the father of the shop owner who several years ago he had occupied to sell cilok.
Because some debts have not been paid, finally Mr. Yanto came to the residence of the house of the late Mr. Ilham who was very quiet only seen a boy sitting alone while daydreaming.
“Assalamualaikum” said greeting Mr. Yanto to Ilham and awakening Inspiration from his daydream.
“Eh Waalaikumsalam, what is it?” tanya Ilham who had forgotten the face of the owner of the shop, and looked at him strangely.
“Oh this son of the late Mr Herman yes?, I only say Mr. Herman still has a debt to his dear who a few years ago he occupied to sell lilok,” explained Mr. Yanto
“Oh so this is Mr. Yanto, sorry sir I forgot, because it is long enough,” Ilham replied while getting up from his seat.
“Iya Nak is okay - what,” said Mr. Yanto very gently, actually Mr. Yanto did not have the heart with the child in front of him who was still in school to be held accountable for his debts. But there is no reason not to collect it, because debt is still a debt that must be paid.
“Mari sir, please sit,”
Finally, Mr. Yanto sat next to Ilham in his yard.
“I will definitely pay off your debt, but sorry not for now Sir, because I am still in school Sir and my parents just died,” Clearly Inspiration instantly shed tears.
“Iya is fine - what son, sorry you have to collect because debt is still debt. But you will also be patiently waiting. You are patient yes, never despair up there Your father must be very eager to see you smile,” said Mr. Yanto while wiping - swiping moved Ilham to be a little strong.
Inspiration is just smiling. And after talking finally Mr. Yanto came home and Ilham went back to his house.
The inspiration that now rarely goes out of the house, do not play. Meal time alone even 2 new days of eating and sleeping more often until school time is often bad luck. Inspiration thinks in his heart.
But there are many neighbors who care about inspiration. Sometimes they enter Inspiration to eat, sometimes there are also those who give money. Inspiration is very happy to get attention back but not with the figure he wants.
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The moon kept changing and this year was the day of Ilham's graduation. Although the nature of Inspiration has changed 180° but its value and preservation have not changed at all. Until he got the best grade. Teachers are very very proud of students who are always angry because they are always bad luck and students who are always looking for trouble and are always present in the BK room. But the response of Inspiration does not match their expectations. Ilham only smiled a little and was not at all happy, all he thought about was his father.
“If Dad were alive, I would be very proud of Inspiration. Now what Inspiration should be like, the achievements that Inspiration achieved are nothing compared to the presence of Father.”
After the submission of the charter and the trophy, finally Ilham immediately went home without permission. Inspiration all the way crying. Now the boys who are usually strong now are men who are whiny. He also remembered his friend Ramzi who until now he always missed.
“If you have Zi, even though my father has left me. At least there's still you trying to toughen me up and there's always,”
At that time Inspiration is like a depressed person if you think of all that. Finally Ilham tried to buy a cigarette in the stall to calm himself.
In the end after graduating Inspiration is like a depressed person who must be taken to a mental hospital.
At the time of walking his own path Ilham crossed the bar quite rame, initially Ilham did not want but the feeling of pressure wanted to take him in there. And in there Ilham was drunk to spend a few bottles of alcohol, and to sleep lying on the street like a madman. His life had been shattered like broken glass.
While being drunk Inspiration walked home and immediately he collapsed on the street, but he fainted not completely, his eyes could still see and as he was about to faint he collided with the figure of Mother - a mother who was not as old and beautiful as his mother used to be.
But Ilham even pushed the mother to fall down.
“Who lo, don't be so smart, stay away!” say Ilham while pointing - point at the mother's face and immediately go and pass out in a distant place to meet the mother's mother.
The mothers were very concerned about the situation experienced by the boy who had just pushed him. Not scolding her but the Mother looked at her carefully like recognizing her, yes the Mother is the Mother of Inspiration. But because it had not met for a very long time, the mother did not remember the face of her son. But his heart instantly captivated him, probably because of an inner bond.
“So kangen to Ilham, it's been years I didn't see him. How did Ilham and mas Herman,” said the mother and immediately woke up from the fall and resumed the journey.
On the other hand Ilham encountered passers-by due to fainting. Finally, the person saw the ID card and immediately looked for the location of the house to be delivered. Fortunately Ilham met a good person, if not somehow fate.
