MY HUSBAND'S BAD BOY!
The heart that is hurt
For twenty-four years of living in the world, Julia had difficulty breathing this time, so her chest felt full as if no oxygen intake entered her lungs. Julia didn't expect Zach to hold her this tight. Although slightly enjoying the hug, but again because this was the first experience, Julia did not even know how to behave.
'Brother Zach is drunk. Is he going to force me to serve him tonight? Well, what should I do now?'
Julia started to panic. If she had to, she hoped to enjoy it. It's not that Zach was drunk and forced him into a relationship. Not because he felt compelled.
‘Husband-wife relationship must be done voluntarily by both parties, preceded by heating to taste.’ So the sound of the sexology article that Julia read from a famous sexologist.
“Sayang, please. Tiffany ..” muttered Zach calling his girlfriend's name made a beautiful pounding on Julia's chest collapse instantly.
Julia also broke away from the embrace of her husband who still continues to complain about the name Tiffany. Now Julia knows the name of the woman who has won Zach's heart.
Now in the corner of her heart, Julia felt so much pain. The feeling of pain that he had only first soaked, for twenty-four years breathing the air in the world. Unable to endure the pain, the girl shed tears for the first time because of Zach.
Julia sat on the side of the bed with tears streaming down her cheeks. He paused for a moment before returning to the kitchen and throwing away all the food he had made.
“I'm too naive!” His chest was so painful because he found what he was doing was in vain. “It hurts so bad to be ignored like this. Until when do I have to bear it?” julia whispered softly, while shrinking her tears that barely stopped, continued to flood from her two beautiful beads.
Julia had never known a wound because of a man. His father and mother lived together there was never a meaningful quarrel. His father worked away from home until he came home once a week.
The moments together with Rohendi, usually used by Nia to go for a walk, visit tourist attractions, to become a savings of very rich memories in Julia's life. Just this time Julia learned about her wounds and how hard it is to love someone who never cared about her feelings.
“I think, Brother Zach has accepted me. It turns out I'm still nobody, even though we're married. It's very painful. Mother ... will I be strong to face all this? This guy never loved me, even though I tried so hard, Mom.” Julia wailed slowly. Now his sagging body fell leaning in front of the kichen set that stood firmly behind him.
“If you knew as sick as this loved, I shouldn't have tried it. I shouldn't have expected much, and indeed I'll never be able to win over Zach.”
Julia lamented again. If not the name of another woman, whom she blatantly listened to from her husband's mouth, perhaps she could still restrain herself.
“I guess after we get married, she'll start learning to love me, Mom. Turns out I was wrong. The sacred bond of marriage cannot imprison one's feelings. Now I don't know where this wedding is going, Mom ..” Julia still complained as if her mother was now in front of her. This was all he could do to slightly ease the burden of his already claustrophobic feelings.
Julia recalled Nia's words while they were on the terrace, lying down while looking at the stars scattered in the sky.
“Julia, after getting married later, you will be faced with many problems. Some are light, some are heavy. There's no perfect wedding, son. All weddings have their own tests.”
Nia stroked her daughter's hair. They both slept in the halls covered in the sky.
“Julia never saw father and mother fight, it seems like our family never got the test, right?” asked Julia innocently. He was his only child, until all the attention and affection of his mother's father spilled a hundred percent on him.
“That's because we chose to save and finish it together, Son,” replied Nia calmly.
“Ah, great mom. Why don't you ever tell Julia, Mom? You know not? Julia also wants to have a husband like a father who loves his children and his wife very much. Mom said, Dad even willing to eat instant noodles to be able to send all his salary when Julia was sick and had to be hospitalized, yes?” Faint memories are still imprinting.
“Yes, you are sick with thypus and must be treated ten days in the hospital. At that time, my father was still finishing his studies. So we have to skimp. Do you remember that story?” Nia smiles again imagining her past life story full of struggles with Johan.
The story of life's struggle that is not tired of Nia conveyed to Julia. Nia principled child need not know the difficulties of parents while facing it, but after successfully passing through it, Nia always forms Julia's personality with many stories about such life stories.
“Sometimes when you're married to Nak Zach, whatever your problem, face it with a cool head. Don't get emotional when deciding something. Only one key when facing a problem. Like water that is cloudy, first precipitate, so you can see everything clearly.” Julia nodded in reverence.
“Mother believes that the great mother and mother always pray to’a so that you always get guidance from God, because in fact God loves the problem is always followed by a solution. If you have not found the solution, then be patient first. Remember, yes, so the woman must be patient. Do not be explosive, find time to reflect, so that the solution is immediately visible. The clear water in the lake always gives peace to those who see it, right?” Nia said softly.
Julia took a deep breath, recalling Nia's advice, little by little the tightness in her chest began to unravel. Slowly Julia got up from the kitchen and went into the living room. Julia opened the balcony door, then sat on the chair while staring at the star that night was also boisterous scattered in the sky.
“I never asked and wanted to know about Zach's feelings for me. Maybe I shouldn't have acted that way. Should I find out first if a Julia has a crack in Zach's heart?” complaints later.
Julia who had been trying to be normal with all the behavior of Zach and not take heart now feels wrong to take a stance. The girl looked up at the lagit. I don't know why he really misses his home.
