My coach

Episode 106's

Afrenzo knew that it was not an indiscriminate wound, it was a wound obtained after hitting something very hard. So that the back of Risda's hand was injured, the wound looks a little dry.

"Why can there be a wound like this, Da?" Ask Afrenzo.

"That's...." Risda said hanging because he was unable to continue his words.

"Java!" Afrenzo Sentak.

Hearing the jolt immediately made Risda bow her head, she did not even dare to stare towards the current Afrenzo. That guy looks really creepy right now, even more sinister than usual.

"Renzo, I can clear it,"

"Explain now!"

"Gue hit the wall in my room" answered Risda in fear.

"Why?" The tone of Afrenzo's speech is still rising.

"Gue... I'm depressed, Renzo. I don't know what else I have to do to get my emotions out, so I..."

"So you hit the wall?" Ask Afrenzo by interrupting Risda's words.

Risda then nodded her head, because it was true that she had done it before. He often does that when his feelings are really not calm, even his pain is not able to eliminate the pain in his heart.

That is what makes Risda want to hurt herself, in such a way she will feel calm and unencumbered. Risda really did that not because he wanted to show himself great, but he did it just to relieve the pain in his heart.

Risda could not hurt others just to relieve the pain in her heart, which was what made her bravely hurt herself. There is a relief after doing that, after that Risda will feel very relieved and even he can forget the pain of his heart.

Risda really had no other choice but to hurt herself, she did not care about the pain that was in her hands as long as her heart was relieved. This girl really did it, even she had no doubt that her life would be lost.

All he had in mind was death, he was eager to end his life at this moment. However, fate did not allow him to leave so quickly, repeatedly killed himself and killed himself but it was in vain.

"Lo got a problem what?" Ask Afrenzo.

"Gue wants to die, Renzo. I want to end it all now, this world is so cruel and does not allow me to be happy even for a moment."

"Gue told you, if there's a problem it's a story. Why don't you be honest with me?"

"Sorry."

Risda was only able to determine his head in front of Afrenzo, he did not know what to do at this time. Afrenzo was still looking at his face fixedly, as if the boy was waiting for an answer from Risda.

"Da," Call Afrenzo.

"I'm sorry, Renzo."

"No matter how big your problem, never hurt yourself, you are so cruel, Da. You only care about your feelings, without caring about your own body. Even your own body does not belong to you, God can take it from you,"

"It needs to be taken now, then let it happen, Renzo. I want to end it all, "A drop of Risda's tears flowed from her eyes.

"After you end it all, will you be happy?"

"Many want me dead, Renzo. If that's what makes them happy, why not?"

"What do you mean, Da?"

"I have tried three times to be killed by others, but why does God still save me? Had it happened, I might have calmed down there, Renzo. I can be happy in His eternity, but what happens? I am still alive," Tangis Risda instantly broke apart after saying so.

"Who tried to kill you? Say, Da."

"That's just the past, Renzo. It was done by three different people, the first was a friend of his boss Mother, the second was the child of his boss Mother, and the last was the one who wanted Mother."

"How can that be, Da?"

"The story is long,"

Risda's view was as if he would look far ahead, he imagined things that had happened to him before. While Afrenzo, himself faithfully awaits for Risda to tell him everything at this time.

"The beginning...."

*Flash back on*

One day, in a very luxurious house. Risda was standing in the second floor balcony of the house, the house was the home of his Boss Mother. Risda settled towards the sky, seeing that it was so vast that he did not know the end.

He had been living in the house for a month after being evicted from the house by his father. Long time ago Risda was expelled from home, when he was still sitting on the bench of SD class 4.

Risda was kicked out by her father because she didn't want to tell him where her mother is and who works at the moment, because at that time Risda had also been threatened by her Aunt that she would take her mother away if Risda told her father.

That's what makes Risda can not say to his father, he was forced to leave the house because of the speech of his father. There had been many things that he had been through all this time, his mentality was so broken that there was not even more left.

Risda stared at the sky with a pushy look, hoping that everything would end until then. Who would have thought the friend of his boss his mother liked his mother, but Risda disagreed about it, because the attitude of the person was very rude and fierce.

Risda did not want to take it later she would live with such a person, let alone that person seemed to have not fully grown up. Just call his name as Bambang, a young man who is still around 30 years old because he is not married so he is still a virgin.

Bambang liked Dewi since Dewi started working in that place, Dewi only followed Risda's words because she did not want her son to be angry with her. Risda disagrees if his mother is so close to Bambang, especially Bambang who likes to be angry arrives.

Therefore, Bambang was eager to get rid of Risda from there. On that sunny day, tired after school Risda also slept. Risda had just moved from her old school to a new one, which was not far from her mother's employer's house.

There her personality is total, the girl who usually easily mingle with her friends is now an anti-social girl. Even he did not know his classmate at all, even though he had been in the school for 1 month.

His day was always filled with solitude, even Risda showed a fake smile only in front of her mother besides that she never smiled even her face was always flat. even the face of the current Afrenzo was lost flat with his face, because he was never expressionless.

At the time he was in elementary school, even he was almost expelled from the school because he had never done schoolwork. His parents have been called to school 4 times, and even he was slapped by his teacher.

Maybe the child today slapped by the teacher will report to his parents, but not with Risda because he was just silent when slapped. Risda knows that this is his mistake, because he has absolutely no passion to learn, which is what makes the value of his report down even longer.

"Why is your grade like this? Don't you at your school first you get that grade for money? you could have just gulped your teacher just to get a good grade you could have just gulped your teacher just to get good grades," That word is what Risda always remembered until this moment.

Even in his deep sleep, his mind kept going until it did not allow him to feel calm. The burden that he carried seemed to continue to haunt him, wherever he went, he would feel lonely not having anyone to talk to.

No one wanted to befriend him because he was just a servant child, let alone the burden he was currently bearing was so immense.

Starting from family separation, the suffering he got after the family separation, shunned friends because he was only a servant child, let alone his anti-social self with the surrounding environment, his personality turned into an introvert, and even his mind was always crowded with things he did not need to think about.

Even when sleeping like this he did not feel at all soundly, he slept in a place provided by his mother's employer for his mother and him. Her mother was cooking in the kitchen while Risda was sleeping, but the television in the room was still on.

Suddenly someone covered his face using a pillow, Risda then woke up from his sleep with a very deep shortness of breath. How can he breathe normally? His face is now covered with a pillow.

Risda continued to try to get the void off her face, the person who did that did not let Risda move at all. Even Risda's hands and feet were held very firmly, not only that, but the pillow was pressed so firmly that it made Risda unable to breathe.

His body felt very weak, due to the absence of oxygen entering his lungs. The body that had once rebelled so strongly was now suddenly weakened, even to hold on to it he was unable to do that.

"Maybe I'm going to die this time?" Inner Risda screamed loudly.

The extremely weak himself was already helpless, he thought that this was the end of his life. Risda tried to take as much breath as she could, but she could not do that because of the pain she felt in her chest as she could.

Over time, Risda could not even be able to move her fingers.she really resigned that she would end tonight. His mentality was very destroyed, it did not make him want to try to live again.

Bhuukk...

"aaa.... What are you son of mine!"

Suddenly there was a voice of someone who was shouting, a very loud voice that sounded very slow to Risda. At that time there was also a commotion in that place, but both eyes of Risda wanted to be closed at this time.

After hearing that shout, Risda could breathe with her legs even though she was unable to open her eyes as she still felt weak. He closed his eyes, but his ears kept hearing the noise.

Long enough in that place was so crowded, that the noise disappeared alternately with someone shaking his body. The person seemed to be panicking because there was no reaction by Risda.

"Riss! What's wrong with you, son? Open your eyes," The sound of a soft cry was heard by Risda's ears.

"Risda doesn't want to, Bun." Risda replied weakly while trying to hold the hand of the Goddess even though she still kept her eyes closed.

Hearing the answer from Risda, made Dewi feel relieved that his son was still alive despite the very limp condition. The goddess immediately embraced the limp body of Risda, herself was crying until Risda listened to the sound of sobbing cries.

*Flash back off*

Risda who remembered the incident also immediately shed her tears, could it be that when she died before, it would make her happy? So he did not need to feel anything like this after his death that time.

Afrenzo rubbed his head slowly to calm the girl down. He did not expect what Risda had experienced before, bring what Risda experienced so very heavy.

"If I had died that day, I would never have felt more pain, Renzo. I can be calm, and I can feel happy in my new nature,"

"Da, I didn't mean to make you cry, I'm sorry?"

"Lo's not wrong at all, Renzo. I tell you because of my own will. hiks.. I don't want to live anymore,"

"Shhuutttt... Don't say that, Allah doesn't like it when His most beloved servant gives up. You know what? Even the Prophet Muhammad was full of trials, but he was so noble. You are tested by God because you are able to get through everything, God wants to strengthen your shoulders in his own way. The proof, you can get through everything, right?" Afrenzo still rubbed Risda's head smoothly to make the girl feel comfortable and much calmer.

Risda looked down at her while wiping her tears with her hands, she could always cry in front of her. Afrenzo also gazed at a wall clock, and the time showed that soon will be a magrib.

"The story continues tomorrow, yes, now we go home first. Soon there will be a groan of magrib, it's time to go home" said Afrenzo.

"Lo don't get mad at me anymore about my hand?" Risda asked who was afraid that Afrenzo was still angry with him at this moment.

"Forget it over, don't repeat it again,"

"But it's become opium, if I can't calm down how?"

"There I am, you can hit me. Don't wall that can hurt your own hands,"

"No, I can't do that. I can't hurt anyone else, I can't, Renzo. I don't want to," Risda said, shaking her head slowly.

"Lo can hurt yourself, why not with me?"

"Gue don't want you why why, how can I do lo?"

"Don't hesitate,"

Afrenzo immediately rose from his seat, and was immediately followed by the current Risda. Afrenzo invited him to go home, because time had shown that soon will be the adhan magrib.

Risda only complied, because she was also afraid of being scolded again when she came home late. Both of them immediately rushed to go home to rest their bodies.