Muara Kasih Single Mother

There's No Anger

“You're not angry, are you Dinda?”

It was a question that Pandu asked once they had entered his car. It feels, Pandu needs clarity whether it might be angry, resentful, and maybe hurt after hearing a conjecture from Lina.

“No, no anger kok Mas .. It is natural that people will guess like that,” reply Ervita.

There was one thing Ervita understood now that the past could not be discarded or erased. The existence of Indi in his life is indeed possible will be conjectured for others. But in every event there is a silver lining. In every biting thing in human life, there is an antidote. Second, Ervita learns to trust Pandu more than anyone else. Perhaps for other wives feel justified the words of others to feel that what the person says is true, while the confession of her own husband is wrong. Not so for Ervita.

Trusting her own husband, sigaraning her own life was an absolute thing for Ervita. The key in fostering and maintaining harmony between husband and wife is mutual trust.

"So you're not angry?" tanya Pandu once again while driving down the road in the city of Gudeg towards that afternoon.

"Yes, no anger .. that's okay. Even if later many people know about my past and the origin of Indi, I am ready. Anyway it was a stain on my past. Stains that can never be removed. However, the presence of Indi is also the most beautiful gift in my life," he replied.

Pandu then sighed, and then he stopped his car slowly, on the shoulder of the road and glanced at Ervita.

"Whatever happens in the future, I will take care of you and Indi. He's my son, Dinda .. I love him so much," Pandu replied earnestly.

"I have no doubt at all, Mas .. only, there will surely be a gossip about its origins later. Indi is also a strong child," replied Ervita.

Tempaan since in the womb and not even know the figure of his father, certainly makes Indi stronger. Someday in the future Indira will surely understand his existence and make peace with himself.

"I thought you were going to be angry with me, including when he said I only felt sorry for you. Honestly, I'm not like that, Nda," Pandu replied. This time Pandu wants to affirm that the feeling he has is love, not pity.

Ervita smiled and nodded her head slowly, "Yes, I know and I can feel it. You don't feel sorry for me" he said.

"I hope you will always think that you are a strong and strong woman. Women who are isolated, but can be themselves. Women who are pregnant alone, but can raise Indi very well. You are a great woman, Nda," said Pandu.

"I'm not that great .. I'm isolated in solitude. I'm fragile, and there was a time when I missed Mom and Dad at home. Homesick at that time. But for the growth and development of my baby, so that he is not affected by my psychological condition" replied Ervita.

"I know, Dinda ... very know," replied Pandu.

Not not not knowing, but Pandu very well know that Ervita strengthens herself to grow and develop the Indira fetus in her womb. Because, in silence, Pandu always pay attention to Ervita.

"Instead of hearing the words of others, I trust you more Kok Mas .. You are my husband, sigaraning my life (half my life), cook yes I trust him more. As much as possible I will always believe in you" Ervita replied confidently and earnestly.

"Thank you Dinda .. This trust from you means a lot to me. I will not waste such a great trust on you. I'll take care of you and Indira."

As soon as Pandu's heart was gone, he thought that Ervita would be angry with him, and messed with Lina's words. However, the Pandu is afraid does not happen. Instead he was grateful because Ervita revealed everything that happened with adults. Pandu also learned that age is not a benchmark of one's maturity. Ervita who is young and six years adrift with him can actually reveal everything well. Ervita can be mature.

"You are an adult Nda . when you are young, but you are not blindly jealous and eat everything round and round. Thank you," replied Pandu.

Now, it feels more calm and focused to drive the car. Slowly the car drove back, and Pandu several times carved a smile on his face.

"The fool, though late, but he is the right one Nda. Your presence in my life makes me a five-year-old, but even a little late, but it is clear that you are the right one" Pandu said with a glance at Ervita sitting next to him.

"Pun I who must feel bitter bitter bitter life at a young age, but finally can get the right life companion. It's also as if my soul mate came late, but he came once was the right figure" said Ervita.

Slowly Pandu is hidden there, "May this be the last mate of our lives yes Nda .. kaken-kaken inen-inen," Pandu replied.

"Amin," replied Ervita.

Then, Pandu spoke again to his wife, "I want something, Nda .. I want to have a baby with you. When did God say, Nda?"

For the question this time, Ervita really did not have the answer. For man only seeks, and God determines. How strong the effort, if God does not want the taste will also not be accomplished.

"Both pray, Mas" answered Ervita.

"Also try yes, Nda," said Pandu.

Slowly Ervita nodded her head, "Funny you, Mas .. I'm embarrassed every time I talk about it," she replied.

"Shame but ngggemesin," replied Pandu.

"It's funny that Indi has a sister, see you're pregnant in a completely different situation, Dinda ... You're not afraid of getting pregnant right?" ask suddenly.

Slowly Ervita shook her head, "I'm not afraid of getting pregnant, I was afraid the first time you touched me. I feel like I'm dirty and unworthy. Some even said I was used," Ervita replied.

There may still be traumatic effects from the past, so that when re-touched by men makes Ervita feel so afraid, feel dirty, feel she is just a worthless item.