Mother To Alana

Schizophrenia Paranoid

..."Paranoid schizophrenia is a type of schizophrenia with peculiarities on the appearance of positive symptoms, such as delusions (belief in something unreal) and hallucinations. Although it can be suffered by anyone, this condition is more often experienced by people aged 18–30 years"...

Due to past injuries and also the effects of bullying while in school, my mental illness relapsed. Before getting married, I had a chance to check into psychiatry because my parents were still lay about what psychiatry was so late to deal with.

I knew my illness when I was in 3rd semester of college, I was so depressed at the time that I felt like ending my life because I was free no one cared about my situation.

Finally after this third depression, my parents took me to psychiatry. I am confused to be taken where, finally just resigned when on the bopong by my father and also om me.

Arriving at Rs, I guess I will be taken to the wedding building and in it there is already my prospective partner because of the color of his striking hospital (color purple, pink and ash).

After arriving inside the hospital I mistook all the other patients as his invited guests. When taken to Rs clothes I was sober once, I only use t-shirts and trending pants.

After arriving at the doctor's practice room, I started to get a little confused? why was I brought here? and it turns out this is a hospital.

It's time for my name to be called, Andini Rumaysha.

I was called a nurse and asked one-on-one, the nurse asked what was the complaint, was there anxiety? is there any suspicion? is there any fear? are there no whispers?

I didn't answer, my gaze was blank while looking at the wall. The one who answered all the nurses' questions was my mom.

The nurse said we were told to wait first to be able to consult directly with his doctor.

After waiting for 30 minutes, my name was finally called for a consultation with the doctor.

While in the doctor's room, the doctor was very friendly to ask me about my situation. What does your son feel right now?

I told a long story, starting from me who was bullied often, I who often get bad treatment while still in school, and up to organizational pressure while in college.

What is it feeling? doctor says

I felt like this was all a drama, and I thought like there were whispers like that, even until there were whispers telling me to kill myself. Keep rich there is a nit sound..nit..nit.

When I told him all that, the doctor's mother was sad and almost shed tears.

Anything else to tell the doctor?

It was so long ago, thank you assalamualaikum.

Before going out I was prescribed, when I read my ripple disease, it turned out I had Schizophrenia.

Symptoms of chase delusions experienced by paranoid schizophrenics can include:

Feeling that someone or the government is spying on their daily activities

Feeling that people around him are conspiring to harm him

Feeling that friends or close people are trying to harm him, one of them is the thought that someone put poison into his food

Feeling that your partner is cheating

In addition to delusions and hallucinations, paranoid schizophrenics also often behave uncontrollably or disorderly (disorganized behavior) and are difficult to understand in speech.

Delusions, hallucinations, and chaotic behavior and speech are classed as positive symptoms in paranoid schizophrenics. When experiencing paranoid schizophrenia, these positive symptoms will be more dominant.

Although rare, some negative symptoms, such as not being able to feel emotions, losing interest in daily activities, or losing interest in things that previously felt pleasant, are common, it can also be experienced by schizophrenics.

Negative symptoms need to be watched out for because it can cause a desire to commit suicide. Suicide urges are quite often found in cases of schizophrenia or paranoid schizophrenia that are not treated properly.

All the symptoms caused by paranoid schizophrenia can cause disruption to work, relationships with others, or even in taking care of yourself.

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At night, I took medicine from the doctor. I deliberately asked for a muntumnya night because if during the day I have to go to college so it will automatically cause heavy sleepiness and will interfere with my learning activities.

After taking the medicine, I felt sleepy because in the medicine there is a sleeping medicine.

One day after taking the medicine, I had a slight change, I was able to control my speech and behavior.

After being convicted of schizophrenia, I was finally told to quit all campus organizations by my parents.

And until now I'm 27 years old and almost want to have 2 twins but I still take medicine.

Oh yes if you ask me if anthoni mas know about my illness?

Yes, surely antini knows. Because when we knew I had discussed my illness to the anthony mas, and the anthony mas would accept me as I am.

Short story first, anthoni woke up.

Oh, my dear, I was finished in the library room of our house.

Oh yes gpp dear...

Mas just want to tell you that tomorrow mas there is a meeting out of town and must leave early in the morning and go home probably night.

Are you okay to be left with alana until night?

is it okay, you even wake up at this hour?

Why are you still clocking this way?

I just finished making a story in the novel maker application.

Do not get used to sleeping until it is late like this, a danger to your health and twin.

Yes, I will take care of myself. Me and the twins are perfectly healthy. Oh yes, my mom! Alana's asleep?

Alana's been sleeping since 9 o'clock, she's whining about going to bed with you. Until he's sapped and finally slept alone in our room. Mas also overslept with alana, so ms did not have time to nyari you.

Yes, I slept again, it was too bad.

Yes, come on.

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After the dawn prayer, I immediately petrified the anthoni mas preparing the needs for a meeting outside the city, everything was done while waiting for the anthon mas wearing a shirt, I prepared food in the kitchen.

I cooked fried rice to eat now and brought it to the work place.

After finishing cooking, I rushed to the room again to tell the mas anthon that the masaka was ready.

Mas. the cooking is done, let's have breakfast.

Yes, baby (somewhat screaming)

Don't yell dong mas, look Alana's still sleeping kasian. Let's eat together first.

Yes, my dear cup one kiss landed on the lips of Andin😘 munyil