Mommy For Azkia

CHAPTER 53

We have a right to love and feel for anyone. But keep in mind one law of nature that not all hope can be obtained and not all love can be avenged.

~Yunita Dwpspta

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I don't feel like today has gone so fast. The clock has shown at eleven o'clock in the evening. Bagas was still sitting in the living room while watching television, while everyone was asleep with his beautiful dreams. Don't know why Bagas can't close his eyes well tonight, not because he's not used to sleeping in the guest room or how.

"Well haven't Gas slept?" edwin asked when he was about to go to the kitchen to get a drink and accidentally saw Bagas sitting alone.

The edwin? Don't ask where Edwin came from. Naturally he appeared, because he and his friends were staying at the Wijaya family mansion at the request of Syafira. It's obvious they can't resist that desire.

"Not yet Ed, do not pewe so sleep in the guest room" said Bagas then Edwin sat closer.

"Ohh kirain why. I stayed up late watching the ball game" Edwin said.

"okay.. Thanks broo" said Bagas and only in reply nods and smiles by Edwin.

The relationship between Bagas and Fira's friends is well established. It seems that Bagas is very easy to adjust to the friends of his beautiful wife.

But didn't Bagas know about Edwin's feelings for Syafira? Is he not jealous? Not angry? If you ask like that, the answer is no. Because for him the love of a person is never wrong, and somehow Syafira is now his wife. It is certain that he is the winner of Syafira's heart. Because this is all the words of the late Eyang B. J Habibie.

"If he was born for me, you will turn my head back"

For a moment it was quiet again.

There was absolutely no conversation between the two. Their eyes focused on the screen of the wide, thin box. However, if we look deeper, maybe we can see that their eyes are on the television but their minds are wandering somewhere.

"I'm sorry if I was too presumptuous to ask you about this matter" said Bagas, pausing his words to make Edwin's forehead wrinkle.

"What do you mean gas? I really don't understand" asked Edwin puzzled. Because they don't remember having any problems.

"Since when have you loved Syafira?" ask Bagas while looking at Edwin.

Deggs...

Edwin's heart was beating very fast. His blood flow also seemed to flow so hard. Bagas' question made his chest as if it was pierced by thousands of knives that instantly pierced right into his heart. So all this time Bagas knows about my feelings for Syafira, will he be angry? That's what Edwin thought.

"Aa-what do you mean Gas. I don't get it. Of love? What kind of love are you asking. I just loved and cherished him as a friend" elak Edwin while turning his eyes in any direction and it did not escape the sight of Bagas.

"There's no need to cover it from me Ed. I already knew that you loved my wife" Bagas said when he heard Edwin was dodging.

"When is Gas?" tanya Edwin ventured to look at Bagas.

As long as he knows and just shut up. Never threatened Edwin to stay away from Syafira or anything like that. Though it was clear that Syafira was the future wife of Bagas.

"But why do you just keep quiet Gas" asked Edwin again.

"Well should I what Ed? Threatening you to stay away from Syafira or what? that how you think?" bagas' words made Edwin sigh violently.

"I'm sorry Gas. I didn't mean to keep the taste to your wife. But, honestly, this feeling has been around for a long time and I realize this is a false feeling" Edwin said, bowing.

"There's no need to apologize Ed. Syafira is a very good figure, so it is natural that many men like him. Moreover, you are often together not" said Bagas.

"Yes you're right. He's such a good figure. But still my race is Gas' fault. I shouldn't have involved feelings in our friendship" Edwin said.

"Remember Ed..Love is never wrong and love never knows where it will dock. Sometimes love comes at the wrong time. His example was when he already belonged to someone else. I hope to open your eyes and heart. Look around you there may be someone who secretly loves you. Do not just fixate on the love that you basically cannot have but can only feel. Everyone also has a tired point of loving according to their own ability Ed. Don't lose your love a second time. So, try to control yourself and your heart" said Bagas at length.

It's nothing he said like that. He was only kasian to Edwin if he had to be trapped in a love that clapped one hand. Loving yourself is not easy. But even wanting to have it feels impossible. The woman Edwin loved now belonged to another man. The only way is to try sincerely and accept the fact that they cannot be together. And as Bagas said, maybe opening and arranging hearts for new people is also the best way so that he does not continue to live in this pool of one-sided love.

"Think about what I'm saying, Ed. I say that because I also want the best for you" Bagas said when Edwin did not speak at all.

"Yes already. I'll go back to my room. Don't sleep too late Ed. Good Night" continued Bagas while patting slowly on Edwin's shoulder.

Now Edwin was alone. Her brain is still digesting Bagas' words to her. His heart seemed to worry between forgetting his love or staying in his position of loving Syafira until the end of his life.

"Must I forget this love. Can I throw away the long-buried taste. Can I erase the shadow of Syafira with the real form of another woman. My brain says yes I can but my little heart says I can't. Oh God please give me your lead" murmured softly Edwin as he rubbed his face with his palm.

Without him realizing behind the door of the family room, a woman was crying bitterly lamenting the fate of her love which was also equally one-sided.

"Maybe this is the end of my love for you Ed. Is there really no place for me the slightest thing in your heart. If true, then from this moment on I give up on my love. I gave up on loving you. I'm going to throw this feeling away. You think you're the most tired of this one-sided love, but unbeknownst to you I'm just as tired as Ed. Very tired really. So after this look for your happiness and I will also find my happiness. Good bye Ed. May you always be happy" the woman's inner self is determined by her heart. Then he stepped back into his room.

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