Mine's Not For Me

Eps. 38

** at Rayyan's house

"Rayy when he got home, he went straight into his room where he could do anything in his room because the day was a tiring day, how not all day Rayy was outside the house feeling of wanting to fall in the room while playing his favorite game, but because it was too tiring for Rayy so he locked his intention to play. Instantly he stopped Viola's attitude when he was home with Rayy, viola looked awkward and more silent.. his attitude changes too quickly from the talkative while doing an interview to suddenly instantly turn into a person who is so quiet, Rayy thinks there is something that has offended her, Rayy said, is it possible that Viola heard her talk with Bayu while at the cafe earlier.. (Rayy muttered feeling disturbed by various kinds of prejudices between right and wrong)"

"Tomorrow after Miss.Vera's lesson, the cave must speak directly to the vio, the cave must dare to ask directly! (Rayy whispers in the room)"

"Rayy.. honey, are you home, son? (momi calls from behind the door to Rayy's room)"

"Kteeek (open rayy door). yes mom, just got there.."

"why are you talking to yourself in the room, hemm. what's wrong (momi sneered)"

"mama and Rayy, sitting together on the balcony of the house adjacent to the room with a private family room on the top floor right on the 3rd floor of Rayy's room and they relax while enjoying the night breeze outside"

"what's wrong mom, again read the comments of friends on mobile phone. hehehe (Rayy berkilah)"

"honey, it's not like you're a teenager when it feels fast. used to like sitting together with you still like to play, like watching cartoons.. now that we are busy with the routine of each meeting you is quite difficult, you are busy with all your activities, you are busy with all your activities, and mama is busy with all the routines of our company sometimes Dady you often go out of the country to check all the companies that Dady is developing.." (momi tells a story by staring at her deep night)

"Mom, if anyone wants momi to tell Rayy.. Rayy is ready to listen (grasping her momi hand tightly)"

"Son, momi tau.you're a very well-developed teenager, you're handsome, intelligent, with a proud history of achievement for momi and dady, your life is without flaws with complete facilities.. But I'm sorry that Momi and Dady may not be able to provide perfect guidance or affection for you, maybe in the future Momi and Dady are too demanding, trust me dear (touching Rayy's cheek and eye contact between momi and rayy) it's all for your good, what momi and dady do now is solely for your life in the long run and all this will be yours as whole and you are the sole heir of all our efforts develop now, both momi and dady can only let you grow into a child who has a wise personality, become an honorable person without demeaning others, notice your position in your social life later . ." (momi confirms Rayy's attitude)

"actually you want to say that, Rayy must maintain an attitude of maintaining social distance which Rayy needs to approach and which Rayy needs to do, Rayy said, so mom (rayy immediately stretched his hand to momi)"

"importance for who momi means, make Rayy. hemmm (pulling a long breath and bowing to hold her emotions in front of her momi).. from a small all looks beautiful in the view of people to Rayy teenagers today may be a lot of people want in the position of Rayy, but the reality is not the same that they think is mom.. true said momi, Rayy from childhood never felt any shortcomings, but actually Rayy's soul who felt the lack of mom, family warmth, to the familiar, but actually Rayy's soul who felt the lack of mom, small chat chat to get closer between momi, dady and Rayy but all that Rayy doesn't have mom. and Rayy never demands for it .."

"So Sorry Honey, Momi and Dady are too busy without thinking about your feelings . (momi is crying and hugging Rayy's body which is now bigger than her momi rayy)"

"..THE.(.Rayy couldn't hold back her tears either).. Mom, Rayy's permission to organize Rayy's life in Rayy's own way, Rayy wants to be like other common friends who can be free to hang out and make friends with any group without seeing caste or position .. Rayy sometimes can't tell which friends are really sincere which ones are toxic, they always look nice and sweet in front of Rayy because they already know the background of our family what else now Rayy school in the neighborhood that people know it belongs to Momi Rayy herself . . (Rayy complained about her feelings all this time to momi)"

"In that way so momi can monitor your development in school, momi does not want to miss the info and grow up when you are a teenager today, not that it is too vulnerable promiscuity your age, if even momi and dady can send you to abroad you like, but it is too difficult for momi" (to worry momi too deep)

"Hmmm.. (Rayy took a breath and nodded her head ) .mom, Rayy let me go back to the room first .. want to rest tomorrow Rayy there is a percentage assignment with Miss.Vera (Rayy went from her seat to return to the room)"

"Rayy.. Who's Viola, son..? (when momi threw the question, Rayy stopped and turned to look at Momi's face with a stick while Rayy frowned)"

"Why did momi arrive to ask the name, has it come that far the information momi got?. Is not momi more know than what Rayy does not know .. excuse me mom (Rayy turned her body towards her room)"

"Sorry Momi Rayy, one day you will understand why momi did all this to you (momi murmured sadly seeing Rayy's attitude arrived cold towards her momi)"

"Rayy continued to step into her room, faintly sounding the murmuring sound of her momi sounding selfish and suppressing Rayy's feelings .. from childhood everything Rayy did with the permission of momi first until Rayy entered this High School Rayy still followed what Momi wanted, and she was still in the middle of the school, but why for now Rayy wants to be herself without the shadow of momi or her dady . . (Rayy lay her body on the bed and stared at the sky room only visible light reflection sleep lights, Rayy kept thinking of the words from her chatter with her momi . . could it be that Rayy can not be separated from the shadow of his momi and dady, could Rayy always live without being able to have his own decisions.. Rayy took a deep breath to neutralize her visibly agitated feelings) "

"Hmmmm..why did Momi to ask the name of Viola, whether the news about viola has spread to momi's ears, but who would dare spread the news, maybe Lalya? .. try tomorrow the cave ask directly to Lalya, if it's true he .. means it's too much to interfere with the problem gu.. (Rayy immediately worried about the words of Miss Bertha if this news reaches the ears of momi all will be at long risk)"

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