
Mila stopped the taxi and quickly got on, leaving Tian's house. Mila called Yana many times but was not answered. It seems they have not finished booling. Mila couldn't have caught up with them under these circumstances. But he couldn't go back home with a face like this either. His eyes could not lie after crying. Crying for a while must have made his eyes out. He didn't want that to be a question for his parents.
Mila decides to stop at Yana's house. Mila enters Yana's house and waits for her on Yana's porch. Shortly from the taxi away. Yana came and saw Mila crying in the front seat of her house. Yana looked at him with a bangtang because Mila just stared at him with tears that kept flowing. Yana approaches him without saying anything and Mila hugs him, spilling all her tears that she had right then and there.
Yana doesn't understand what happened to her. About Tian? Or Mila's parents? Yana hugs Mila to calm her down, letting Mila let out the cry she had. Angry, disappointed, I don't know if that's his name. Yana does not want to know, the most important thing is Mila calm down first.
Yuna came and saw the crying Mila in her brother's arms. Yana just told him to shut up and quickly go inside. Yuna nodded. Yana's phone rang and it was from Tian. Yana raised her phone and Tian asked Mila to her. Mila who heard that, held back her cries. Mila shook her head at Yana.
Yana nodded and replied that Mila was not with her. Yana closed her phone and immediately understood this about Tian, again. Yana wiped away Mila's tears and took her inside the house. Mila followed Yana to her room. Yana changes clothes in another room and comes back to her room with a drink for Mila.
Mila was still crying and the tissue had been spread all over Yana's room. Yana thrust water at him to calm his heart a little. Some of the water in his eyes has come out a lot so it needs to be refilled again. Mila's eyes already looked extremely swollen from the unrelenting crying. Even now to see only the pain due to the crooked horn.
“Udah, Mil. Long time ago. What time are you here? There will be a worried father. Surely your eyes hurt right,” Yana who is sad to see the condition of her best friend. He went to the kitchen to get some warm water to compress Mila's eyes.
Mila went to the bathroom to wash her face and then cleaned up the scattered tissue. Yana came with a basin and a small towel. Yana compresses Mila's eyes. Didn't get a word out of their mouths while compressing Mila's eyes. Yana faithfully compresses Mila's eyes until Mila herself falls asleep. Yana stared at the face of her best friend who harbored her own grief. Even her sobs were still heard even though she was asleep.
Yana informs Mila's father that Mila is at home and is asleep. Yana reasoned that they after the test went to the mall to play tired and promised to take Mila home after she woke up from her sleep. Yuna came to her sister's room to check on Mila and bring them food.
Yuna saw her sister who fell asleep next to Mila because she was exhausted after playing booling. Yuna woke him up because the clock was late enough. Mila woke up from her sleep as well and removed the towel from her eyes. Yana gave him a drink and told him to eat. Mila refused and gave permission to return home. But Yana still forced him to eat.
Mila was just stirring up her food. Yana glared at him to force him to eat. After seeing her eat some bribes, Yana drove Mila home with her vespanya. There was nothing they talked about at all about what happened to Mila. Mila still kept deep in her troubles. Yana stops in front of Mila's house and Mila walks into her house.
“Then it hurts, just let go of Mil. I don't want to see you rich gini continue. Don't feel burdened by me. Just think of your heart, do not be forced, ” suddenly Yana spoke with a disappointed heart because she had to see her best friend in such a problem.
Mila turned her head and smiled holding back the crying that was about to fall again. Yana waved her hand and told Mila to go inside immediately. Mila rushed in and went straight up to her room without greeting her Mom and Dad as usual. He did not want them to see his eyes that were still a little careless after crying.
Tian was pensive in his room with an angry face and clenched hands. Someone knocked on his bedroom door. Tian ignored. Knock the door heard again accompanied by the call of his name. Tian still did not move at all. Dad went into his room because he got no response from the room. Father walked up to Tian and sat down beside him.
Dad apologized for his meddling attitude towards his relationship. I gave you a reason why I did it. Dad just didn't want Tian to be unkind to Luna. Dad also told me that he was the one who invited Luna to come to Jakarta to meet him. Because to Dad's knowledge, Tian must have also missed Luna who had been separated a long time ago. I don't want Tian to hurt Luna's feelings like now. I just want to maintain good relations with the Luna family that they have considered close relatives since long ago.
And I don't know if this kid has chosen a new life with Mila. Father feels guilty for meddling and even managing the life of his son who when they should focus on letting go of each other. But Father still insisted on Tian accompanying Luna to Belitung. Dad didn't want Tian to give Luna a bad impression.
“If that's what you want, why not talk directly to Tian. Why go through Mila, Dad! He shouldn't have been involved. Dad ruined everything if gini,,,!” Tian still did not accept the attitude of his father who interfered with his relationship. “Tian is already big Dad. Tian is not a child anymore. Why do you always demand everything is the same Tian. Why Kian is more free to make his choice. Is it because I'm quieter than Kian? Why do you understand Kian better than I do?”
Those words just came out of Tian's mouth. Tian felt that his father understood his brother better than he did. I heard it so terjud. This time Tian spoke like that to him. Even Father Tian looked like he was disappointed in himself for not knowing what his youngest son really felt like. Father left Tian's room without saying anything more. Tian also immediately locked his room because he did not want anyone to bother him anymore.
Tian did not eat breakfast together in the morning. Without speaking, he left home and went to school. Mother was sad to see this disharmonious situation. Though Mother hopes if they can spend time together well as long as her husband returns to Jakarta. Her husband's stubbornness often becomes a quarrel with his children. Perhaps because she was rarely with them, so her husband did not understand well the nature of her children.
The clock still shows 6 past 20. Early in the morning Tian was already perched in front of Mila's house. Mother came out to water her beloved plant and looked at Tian who was looking at her with a smile. Mom returned the smile and watched him. Mom asked in her heart was that Mila's friend? Mom put the plants back in and went into the house to call Mila. I asked Lana. Has her brother come down from her room? Lana just shook her head while devouring her bread. I went back out to see the boy.
“You're waiting for Mila?” greet Mother to Tian.
“Daddy, Mom. I'm Tian,” Tian saluting Mother Mila.
“Mila hasn't finished tidy-tidy like it. You wait inside yeah. All breakfast together,” invite Madam Mila.
Tian accepted the invitation with pleasure. They went inside and I told Tian to sit at the dinner table with Lana who was there. Tian greeted Lana and invited her to a conversation. Tian's expression looked happy because it got a good response from Mom and Lana. Mother poured the milk and gave it to Tian. The sound of Mila's footsteps came down from her room.
“Mother,,,, Mila no breakfast yes. I had breakfast at school,” Mila got out of hand quickly while talking to her mother.
“Where the hell is Mila? Really rushed? Breakfast for a while, there's a friend of yours,” Mother pointed towards Tian.
“Tian? What are you doing here?” shocked to see Tian at his house. “Where's the father, Bu?” ask Mila to panic.
“Dad go fill gasoline,” Mother approached Mila and invited her to sit at the dinner table. “It's fast breakfast that way,” Pour milk for Mila.
Tian continued to finish off the bread that Mother had prepared for him. Mila glanced towards Tian with an indifferent gaze. There was awkwardness at the dinner table this morning. Mila who did not know what Tian's intentions until early in the morning like this was already in her house. Lana and Mom look at the two of them with a bang. Like people who don't know each other. Not greeting each other and not talking to each other. Lana's done with the bread. Tian wiped Lana's lips that were left with brown jam there. Lana smiled shyly. Tian replied with a small smile while tidying up Lana's hair. Seeing the sight made the disappointment in her heart slightly fade but quickly Mila regained her senses and downed the milk fast in her glass.
“Bu, Mila left first yes,” Mila kissed her mother's cheek and immediately rushed out of the house.
“Mila, your bread spend first,” cried Mother. Look at the rest of the bread on Mila's plate.
Seeing Mila leave, Tian quickly swallowed his bread. “Tian said yes, Mom. Thank you for breakfast,” while rubbing his messy lips.
Mother gave the rest of the bread that Mila did not spend on Tian. “Titip this yes. Tell Mila to spend,”
Tian nodded and said goodbye. Soon he comes out to chase after the already unseen Mila. Mila walked quickly so that Tian could not catch up with her. But want him to run even though it can still be followed. Wong Tian was on a motorcycle and he was on his feet. Tian stopped his motor and blocked Mila's path. But Mila dodged and ignored him. Tian runs his bike again following Mila and blocking him again. Mila kept dodging and kept walking like she didn't see him. Tian patiently continued to do so and Mila arrogantly continued to ignore him. The time of patience has already begun to be on the verge of crisis. Tian turns off his motorbike and leaves it behind and chases Mila.
“Mil, we want until the rich school gini continue?” Tian blocked him this time by stretching out his hand. Mila sighed in exhaustion but held her back due to prestige. Though his breath was heard. “Make motor yes. Later your clothes will be blotted if the road gets to school,” Tian begs.
“I'm with Yana. You can set out on your own,” Mila who is clingy on her stance and is indifferent to Tian.
Tian fell to the ground. His mind was dead-end having to behave how else for Mila to want to come with him. Mila saw it immediately trying to wake Tian up but she did not want to get up before Mila came with her. This time Tian used the way that Mila did to him, clucking at his stance that would not wake up before Mila went along with him. Seeing Tian who was acting turned around now, Mila touched herself. There was no way he would let Tian do that to him and be seen by the crowd. Finally Mila walked towards the Tian motorbike and sat there. Tian got up while smiling inwardly and ran towards his motorbike.
“Tian where the hell is going! This is not the direction to school,” cried Mila annoyed.
Tian did not reply at all and focused on seeing the densely crawling streets. Mila saw the clock was 7 and they had not yet reached school. Worry and worry were seen on Mila's face. I don't know where Tian's going to take him away to the point of skipping school. Things that Tian had never done before. Even though the exam is over but there are definitely questions that will be discussed today.
After an hour of travel they arrived at a park located in a residential complex. Tian turned off his motor and took off his helmet. Mila got off the bike and opened her helmet. Mila took out a jacket from inside her bag and put it on. Tian tidied up Mila's disheveled hair after wearing a helmet. Tian clasped Mila's hand and invited her to sit on the park bench.
Mila breathed in the air that was there. He had a smile that was bright because he was happy to be where he had never seen before. There is a fountain that presents the ripples of water, also swan as a complement to the beautiful pool there. Seen some people who are busy exercising and reading books. Mila looked at them with pleasure. Tian looked at Mila happy face. Even though he realized it wasn't because of him. Tian let go of his hand. Mila looked towards Tian.
“You like?” said Tian with his flat tone.
“Why are we here? Why do we have to skip everything?” Mila was angry at Tian.
Suddenly the mood returned. The look on their faces that the last few seconds attracted smiles now returned flat expressionless.
“Do not stay away again yes. Don't stay with me like I was yesterday. Don't disappear without news. Let alone going to let go,” suddenly that poetic word sounded from Tian's mouth.
“You're talking about us again?” ask Mila.
“There are others here?” looking Mila.
“But there is someone else in our relationship, now,” Mila stare back.
“He's nothing. It's nobody I am anymore,” firmly Tian.
Mila sighed. Set his sudden heartbeat to race faster. “I don't want any of your past unfinished relationships,”
“It's done, Mil. He disappeared 5 years ago and now suddenly comes on and asks for the relationship back. It's not there, Mil. Can't! Now my relationship is just the same you!” Tian clasped Mila's hand tightly.
Mila took it off and quickly. “Toooooooooo. Now our relationship is not good,”
“What's okay? Since when?” Tian felt that there was no serious problem in his relationship with Mila.
“Since he came! Since you weren't honest about him! Since I feel you are not only mine but also hers!” Mila expressed her disappointment that she had been pending since in Bandung.
“Mil. I understand you're angry. I know you're disturbed. But we can finish it, Mil. Please don't tell me our relationship isn't good. We can finish together,” Tian changed his sitting position by facing Mila.
“You said you understand but why all this time just silence, Tian. Why not try to explain? Why do they often disappear without news? I need your explanation about him! Why should I hear his explanation first. Tian, I need you to be clear, it's the same with me. Not him! I thought you invited me to your house yesterday because you were going to take me there. But it's only because your father wants to ask permission for you,,,”
Mila could not continue her words because of the tightness in her chest that made her difficult to say anymore. His eyes were already glazed over but he held back that the water did not come down and wet the earth. Mila turned her face to wipe away her tears that wanted to freefall right now. Tian clenched his hands in annoyance. He was so selfish and stupid of himself. Why is he insensitive. Why is he always silent. Why is he so busy with his emotions. Why is he only taking care of his ego. Without seeing her cross over, the person she loved was hurting about her attitude.
“I guess,,,” Mila continued her unfinished remarks. “I don't think I can be among your unfinished past relationships. I can't stay in this state. I hope you can finish your past well. I'll be the one who's gonna lose and,,,,”
Not done with his words Tian's hand shut Mila's mouth. He didn't want to hear things he never wanted to hear from someone he loved right now. That parting word was completely unwilling for him to hear from his relationship with Mila. Even to stare at Mila's face right now she can't afford it. Unable to see the disappointment of Mila who for several days he was self-fulfilling.
“Please don't say anything more,,,! I was wrong Mila. But please don't punish me with our victim's relationship. Give me a chance to fix everything. Please, Mil. I was stupid. I don't know how to be fair to you. I could only, silent, silent and silent, ” Tian said with a bow and clasped Mila's hand.
Mila swallowed her saliva, taking her breath deeply. His heart was so weak hearing those words from Tian's mouth. But he thought parting was the only way for Tian to resolve this. Mila doesn't want anyone else in her relationship. Even if it is just a past memory that happened in childhood.
“But it's Tian's only road. You finish with him well. I don't want to be constantly bothered by that. I don't want Dad to think I'm blocking you. So we break first,” Mila feels his decision has been round.
“MIL,,,!” shouted Tian. “I don't want to! I'm the same she's done,,,! It's up to him to say he still loves me or whatever! I don't care, Mila!”
Mila was shocked to hear Tian yelling angrily at her. His mouth could no longer refute Tian's words. Just this time he saw Tian who was really mad at him. Tian covered his troubled face. He felt his relationship was really on the verge of drought. Just the anger he's got now. They are silent and look away from each other.Regulate each other's emotions and thoughts. Sad to have entered both of their hearts. There is a sense of equally do not want to separate from each other but because of the anger that pervades one of them. It could have been created without the consent of both.
Cloudy clouds suddenly eat the sun. Turn the morning light to dark instantly. From the sun changed into rainwater that fell with its speck. To wet two people who are being hard-hit by selfishness alone. Mila got up from her seat and pulled Tian's hand to shelter in the reading house in the corner of the park.
Mila took off her slightly wet jacket and took a handkerchief in her pocket. Dabbed his face with his jacket and handed Tian a handkerchief. Tian did not accept it, he just kept silent, staring sadly at the rain. Mila cleaned the face of Tian who was hit by rain water tampias and curled her hair which was also wet.
Their eyes now looked at each other. Mila took off her handkerchief on Tian's head for misbehaving. Tian looked at Mila without letting go. Taking a handkerchief on his head and drying out Mila's wet hair. Mila refused but her head was held in Tian's hand. Mila closed her mouth tightly and lowered her gaze so as not to look into Tian's eyes which made her even more misbehavior.
After she finished drying Mila's hair, Tian returned her handkerchief. Mila took it and put it on her wet jacket. The rain fell more and more and the weather looked completely dark. The wind that did not want to lose with the rain, blew with its firmness. The thunderous sounds of lightning were ringing each other. Mila could not bear to hear it, she was afraid when the rain was accompanied by the sound of lightning. Mila was seen closing her eyes because she was afraid of lightning. His hands were endlessly hugging themselves due to the cold air.
Tian looked at the frightened Mila from the lightning and lightning, protecting her by standing in front of Mila. The atmosphere is gripping because of lightning and lightning that is increasingly connected with the hardness. Big flashes like taking pictures of them and the sound of lightning made Mila even more scared to death. The frightened Mila directly hugged Tian who was in front of her. His hands shook violently in fear. Tian hugged her tightly to make sure to Mila, that she would be fine.
The sound of lightning sounds really scary. It was as scary as the parting words that Mila said earlier. Mila hugged Tian tightly without letting go. Tian smiled, he felt he had to thank the universe that had brought rain along with the gripping lightning. Because by their presence, he could feel the warm embrace of his lover again even though there had to be a universal intervention. But at least the universe understood his feelings at this moment. Feelings that do not want to lose the person he loves the most.
“Don't be afraid, I'm here,” Tian hugged Mila tightly. Hearing Tian's words, Mila let go of her hug. But Tian held him back. “Stay like this. I beg you,” Tian strengthen the hug. Mila cried in Tian's embrace. “I love you Mila,” she said by kissing Mila's hair.
Mila's cry grew louder as soon as she heard the words Tian said. Mila was crying. His tears poured down the earth along with the torrent of rain. Telling the sky that he was honestly not willing to be in this situation. The circumstances that made it with Tian became what it is today. Tian felt the feeling of Mila being hurt by this situation. Tian promises her not to do anything that will hurt Mila's feelings again. He didn't want to make his woman cry like this anymore because of him.
Giving up is easy to say but doing it is much harder.