
That day also gray did not immediately let me go home, because there was a rain storm outside there I did not want to know basically there was rain.
So I decided to go back up to his bed I didn't make a mock look out of gray because I was quite upset over what he did to me. I woke up again in the afternoon and did not find the existence of gray I sat myself down while waiting for my sleepiness to disappear when I fell silent suddenly the bathroom door opened featuring a gray figure who had just finished bathing he came out using only a towel that covered under him I just stared for a while just to observe but wait.
I looked back at him very carefully damn his body was very good, I turned my face that was already very hot, gray took his shirt and pants from the closet I just observed from the end of my eyes. Just as the man was about to put on his clothes in front of me I directly threw the pillow "why ?" Gray with his innocent face asked why, damn "wash in the bathroom" I immediately turned my face back. Gray didn't ask her much about going back into the bathroom.
I got up and tidied the bed I wanted to get out of the room but I was afraid to find a scene like last night and the sound of the wind pounding the glass, I'm the one who looks confused it read by gray "You want to get out ?" Asked gray who was standing behind me I nodded my head without looking at him anyway he walked first and came out while closing the door back.
I breathed out why I now felt that I was being kidnapped, as I was about to walk back to the sofa the door opened again and showed the room was bright and the window there was already covered in curtains. I went out and approached my bag first I saw gray in the kitchen "You used to have breakfast with heavy meals or snacks ?" The barinton voice was heard again, gray looked at me "i'm usually heavy food" I stood up and approached gray and sat on the patry I stared at his struggling cookware.
If you think about it gray is indeed the perfect type of man he can do anything, he can do anything, if only he wasn't stiff and I liked him too maybe I would be happy to be married to him just that I didn't like him so whatever others think I should be grateful for instead became wrong in my eyes. "Gray, how long are you going to keep this marriage ?" I asked if I just wanted to make sure if he didn't think this marriage would be forever, I was paranoid about that not answering gray just raise his side of the bow asking for more explanation.
"You wouldn't think if this marriage was real right and would keep it ?" I propped up my chin talking casually when I was scared half-dead gray also did not answer he instead focused on his cooking "what if I'm going to maintain this marriage ?" I glared as the man spoke like that he gave me a plate containing eggs, sausages and a few pieces of vegetables.
"I think it's better not to do it, because you deserve a better woman" I looked at gray earnestly because I thought that I wasn't a good woman and I had too much obsession, "why ?" I was confused as to what reason should I look for to make her also sure to divorce me "I'm rude" well men like it I think she wouldn't like a rough woman "hm" he just muttered indistinctly it seemed like it was less than making him dislike me.
"I can't cook" this time I'm sure he'll think twice if he wants to keep this marriage going, he looks at me for a bit and nods "it won't matter" I was quite surprised by what the man said how he was so relaxed "I can't cook and can't do housework you wouldn't mind ? It's possible I won't be able to take care of you" I hope she'll mind "No problem, I don't think all the women in the world should be able to cook and do homework. Because I thought you were a flowing woman" I breathed heavily on why she said that which impressed me. "Well, I like my voice, what if I prioritise my mind over you ?" He'll think this abis is "no problem" damn it.
I ate my breakfast thinking there was one thing I considered "gray, I don't deserve to be kept because I'm a broken person" I muttered I bowed my head in I hoped he wouldn't hear it. But it seems wrong she heard it because she looked at me with a demanding look I took a long breath hopefully I will be strong to convey it because I also do not want one day I even like it and she knows my dark past and leaving me are what broke me.
"I'm not whole, maybe women who are not virgins are used to it because they do it with their lovers. But I'm not a-a-I haven't been a virgin since I stepped on High School they snatched it up and swore at me" I don't know how much it hurt when I remember.
There was no laughing voice no one spoke but there was a hand that touched my shoulder and gray touched my chin to lift I opened my eyes to look at him he didn't make a sound he just hugged me, just a minute she hugged me ? Am I that sad ? But I don't care because I need a backrest when I remember that bitter piece about my time I didn't return gray's embrace but I just leaned back on his chest.
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The stormy day is ripe and I'll say goodbye to gray but what I got was her clean hard saying will take me. I didn't run out of sense to reject it so I just nodded.
When I got to the front of my apartment building I didn't come out I wanted to say thank you but my lips were too stifled, gray pushed his phone out and I looked at him with a stupid "put your number" look" I nodded and picked up the phone, it was quite awkward actually and I couldn't turn it down because I was quite embarrassed thinking about what I said earlier "Thank you Mr" after giving back the phone to the owner I got out of the car immediately.
When I arrived at my apartment unit, Grape looked at me with a gaze asking "who are you in ?" I rolled my eyes "Office friends" I sat myself on the couch with my best friend this "man ?" I nodded "did you guys spend the night together ?" I was surprised when she asked like that "no, why do you think I'm like that" Grape looked at me with a probing look as I tried to distract from her gaze "you're wearing that guy's shirt" ah yes I forgot to change my clothes and I also left my clothes in the gray apartment with my interior and at once I was surprised because what if the man saw it. Damn zarees why are you so frivolous.
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[Friday, 22 April 2022]
Author: Aulia Safira Hamidah
Type: Sfiranjk341
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