
after getting an order from Refa to find the true identity of his future wife he immediately permission to return to the headquarters.
Jeffri leaves Refa's office and returns to the secret headquarters of the Tamma family.
along the way Jeffri again remembered the photo of his future wife because he felt like he had seen her but he forgot when and where he had seen her. But he was sure that he had met her before.
I'm sure I've seen it once but I don't remember ever seeing it where. He kept trying to remember her.
Jeffri had already arrived at the Secret Headquarters.when he was about to get out of the car he got a phone call from Panji
Cousin kaka? tumben once he called me. muttered Jeffri.he also pressed the green button and put his phone in the ear
" Hello Kaka."
" Where are you now?"
" I'm at the base. What's wrong?" Jeffri is increasingly confused by Panji who asks about his whereabouts now.
" Oh well la Jam lunch came to Restaurant Lily I'm waiting for you there." Panji said
Jeffri furrowed both his eyebrows at the words of his cousin Kaka. " OK I'll be there later."
" Yes, I closed the phone and I'll see you there."
Panji immediately turned off his phone when Jeffri would reply to Kaka's words
Aish is very disrespectful to him. Fortunately he is my Kaka if I will not break his hands and neck.
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On the other hand, Refa Returns to Continue the work that he had delayed because he drove Windi to the airport and met with Jeffri. He tried to focus on his work but unfortunately his mind was troubled thinking about his current feelings . What else when Jeffri mentioned the name of someone he had been waiting for for for the past few years. He was confused whether later if the woman returned whether Refa would be ordinary and chose not to hurt Windi or if he would return to someone he had by this time. He continues to fight in his mind and heart at this time.
Why do I keep thinking about it when it has been the last 5 years he did not even look for me or just contact me.
Shit! Jeffri fucking because of him I'm back to thinking about him. Just be careful if he is not good at doing his job, I will return him to uncle Joe's place, muttered Refa
Prov Refa
Her beautiful smile, her round eyes, her round face, her pointed nose and her beautiful pink lips. Everything about him was recorded clearly in my mind.
my feelings were again troubled to think who really owned my heart.is Windi or him? which had disappeared just like that without a single trace.
I was really confused at this moment which one should I keep right in my heart? and forget one of them. Ahh! it can really make me crazy to think about it.
God, what do I do, why do you let my heart worry like this, God? why?. You bring Windi to treat the wound because of him. But you also remind about the presence of him in my life God. How do I break my God's heart.
I don't want to hurt Windi at all god. I don't want to hurt her because I love her but I also still have feelings for her god.
I kept thinking about this and it kept me from focusing on my work. I choose to stop my work rather than force to continue the work will have an impact on the results of my work later.
I chose to leave the office to head somewhere that would make me comfortable and calm when my mind was in turmoil.
I dropped all my work to Ditto and told her I was going out for a little while to breathe some fresh air. After that I stepped out of the office and headed for the car park.
During the journey I still continue to think about my true feelings and who the owner of my heart really is.
About 1 hour I was driving my car somewhere that could make my heart and mind a little more relaxed.
I got out of the car and stepped on my feet.I kept walking down every place I passed. the cool breeze of the sea and the roaring sound of the waves that had started to sound in my ears as if they were welcoming nature to my presence here. I came at the right time because the visitors were not too crowded and noisy. It makes me more comfortable to be in this place. I stood facing towards the vast blue sea. Not infrequently the occasional roll of waves came to my feet to just wet my feet.
It feels like I haven't been here in a long time since I knew Windi my heart and mind never got upset or agitated because of his presence on my side. But somehow the feeling came again when I was far away from Windi. I don't know because I'm too comfortable being around her or I'm too in love with her. I myself was confused why being near Windi made me calm and very comfortable. But when I was far away from her made me miss her very presence when it was only a few hours ago we met and now I miss her very much. I don't know what method I used to make me crazy about him and very comfortable with him.
Oh Windi if someday we are not one right in the bind of the destiny of God I hope that I can mengikhlaskan yourself and forget you. But my greatest wish right now is to be yours as my only possession and I am yours alone . Only death can separate the two of us.
And for you God don't confront me with a difficult choice for me to make. But if I have chosen my decision later I hope I will never regret my decision at that time God. Because I don't want any regrets in my life every decision I make for my life God.
Be firm and express my heart to who is the most special and loved person in my life God. Don't keep making me worry about my own decisions. And I don't want to hurt anyone because my choice is God.
I continued to pour out to my restlessness to God through the blue of the sea water and the roar of the waves that moved closer towards me.
I closed my eyes to enjoy the sea air and the ringing waves that seemed to understand my feelings at this time