Manful Guys Overseas

Homesick

Father: Come on, Naufal deck here in. Amel, invite him in. We'll eat the mallm first.

Amel: Yuk Fal in.

Amel threw his smile at me.

A little about Amel, at that time he was wearing a red shirt patterned with hot pants that showed his thighs smooth white without any scuffles.

Okay put that aside.

Although he was 2 years older than me, he had a height that was slightly below me. Maybe it's with my chin. His body is slim but not thin. Her hair was draped and long, styled in a square style at the right edge, and she wore thick black-framed glasses. For a moment, I was fascinated by his smile.

Father: Come on, come on, come on in here.

I: Eh.. ngg. I want to continue around first because it just came here this morning.

Father: Oh yes, then, you are not forcing. Remember your offer about school?

He blinked his eyes while smiling at me.

Whatdoes thatmean? Do I not know the meaning of the blink or is this person really strange?

I: I'm saying goodbye first. Come on sir, Mel, assalamualaikum.

Bapak+Amel: Waalaikum greetings.

Arriving at home, adzan maghrib was already reverberating. I saw my aunt doing the dishes in the kitchen.

Aunt: Did you go home cep?

I: Yeah, just got home. Auntie hasn't come home yet?

Auntie: Aunty has finished her life just acep has not come home, so aunt is still here continue to wash dishes deh.

I: Uh.emmm.. Sorry bi, because my aunt so late home.

For some reason, it is difficult to say the word 'sorry' to others. Saying an apology is easier in theory than in practice.

Aunty: No cep, yaudah aunty go home first huh. Tomorrow morning auntie will be here again.

I: Oh yaudah bi...

A long time later, my aunt came home and left me alone in this new home.

Don't know what to do, I just stayed in my room. I was checking my phone because I checked again this morning.

Apparently, there are a lot of missed calls and sms from nyokap. I didn't use it for long, I called him right away.

I: Hello asalamualaikum

I: It was fitting nyampe hp house just kept on the table while silent mode so ga kedengeran if there is a phone or sms. Relax mam kaka ga why-napa.

Nyokap: Kan mamah is worried about you brother, mamah is afraid of why. You're alone in there, you have nobody. Mom is afraid...

I heard from the other end of the phone that I was holding back my tears.

I: Maam, denger. Kaka ain't no shit here. Kaka already big, I can take care of myself. So, don't worry too much about me, mam?

I just heard sobs from across there.

Ls: Mam? Mom, isn't that okay?

Nyokap: Yes brother, mamah ga why-not. Mom is now aware that kaka is big. Yaudah, now take care of yourself. Later after the day abis papah return home same mama papah directly there all mengurusin your new school.

I: Yaudah if that brother wants to sleep first mam, cape.

Good night: Okay, sleep well, baby.

I: Yes mam. Assalamualaikum says.

Nyokap: Waalaikum greetings.

The next morning I woke up to an alarm I had set. I and I reflexively yelled to aunt.

I: Biiii, please......

Aw,

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I forget. I'm on my own now. No more auntie to make my favorite toast. I have to be independent!

Self-sufficient...

Self-sufficient...

Self-sufficient...

That one word is my life guide now. My principle, I should be able to be independent and at least live without the interference of others. I hope this principle will change me in the future. Amiid...

I got up and went to the bathroom to get some water. Usually if prayer should be iningetin, now I must be aware of myself. After all, it is also my duty to worship the Almighty.

After the dawn prayer, I walked towards the living room and opened the door. Wuush... The morning air went straight into the living room and made my hair stand up. I breathe this cool morning air deeply, I have long not felt the morning air as cool as this because in my home city the air is very hot.

Usually at home, I must have been built by nyokap or aunt. Then on the table next to the mattress there is a serving of chocolate toast that is burned dry my favorite, complete with sweet hot tea. After finishing the toast, I went to the front porch to have a morning chat with the bokap. Belom long chatted, I must have been told to take a shower so that he was not late to go to school. After taking a shower and breakfast, I immediately went to school escorted by Mas Dayat by car. In the car, Mas Dayat and I chatted a lot of things, from ball games to congestion problems in my city.

Now I feel what's called homesick, homesick. But I have to be consistent with my choices. This is what I have chosen, I have to accept the consequences.