Love That (No) Blind

Part 46-1: Lost from View

[Sara]

“Wake, wake. You can go home now.”

Sara raised her bowed face attached to both her legs. A bright enough light narrowed his eyes. The silhouette of a man was standing on his back against that light.

Going home? Is he really coming home? Am I still dreaming?

I don't know how many hours Sara fell asleep in that sitting position. He had trouble standing now. Pain in his knee when he was about to stand indicates he had been in that room for hours.

As soon as the door was shut by the man in stout stature in his light blue shirt, Sara was escorted into a room. All he did was sit and be quiet.

Someone came to give him a glass of water. He could reject it. But the man's attendant put it on Sara's palm and said, “Keep it. The order is done. You can go home soon.”

Home ... It was not a dream ...

The tears that just came down. Sara gulped down the water in the glass of drink she received. Then it held on even though the water in it was no longer as if it was holding a precious treasure.

Not too long indeed. After that, Sara was allowed to go home. The same man who had given him water drove him out.

It turns out it's still dark. He saw a clock hanging on the wall near the post. It's still half five. Fajr.

“Tuh, her husband has already picked up.”

Is correct. That's what Sara saw. Agam and Arya were waiting for him in the lobby of the police station. Heart's trimming.

He saw Arya whispering something near Agam. What happened after that was Agam smiled very widely and spread his hands as if he was welcoming Sara.

Seeing that, Sara immediately ran towards Agam's embrace. His tears poured down Agam's clothes.

“We're home. We go home.”

Yeah, we're going home. To our house.

......................

Sara just finished her shower. As soon as he came out, he saw that Agam was already sitting on his bed. His hand waved in the air calling for Sara to come closer. Although not straight on him, but he knows who the call is for.

As soon as Sara lay down, Agam's hands began to move in search of Sara's head. Then, caress it gently.

“Do not be afraid anymore. All done.”

What Agam did next was kiss Sara on the forehead.

Right at that moment, like she had just woken up from a nightmare, Sara immediately cried as she could. She roared in her tears.

As if knowing what to do, Agam now put his hand between Sara's neck to be able to grab her in his arms. Sara was left to cry while Agam's hand continued to caress her hair and rub her back to calm her down.

The longer the heavier the eyes of Sara. In the end, Sara fell asleep in Agam's arms, with her face still wet from her own tears.

At that moment, Sara was finally able to sleep quietly after what had happened the night before.

--

“We went for a walk today, want?”

A walk?

One question that never crossed Sara's head all this time. And now Agam suddenly asked.

Three days after Agam asked Sara to rest – both mentally and physically –, suddenly, Agam asked that question. Tumblr ...

“Where do you want to go?,” asked Agam again who is still waiting for Sara's answer.

“Mas where to go?”

“Lho why are you even back?” Agam is laughing. “We are always at home. I think once in a while we go for a walk is okay, right? We go where you want to go the most, how?”

Sara was stunned to hear the speech. Recalling all that has been done in the last three days. It's all about pleasing Sara.

Spending time alone at home, chatting ngalor ngidul not clear, laughing together, whether it's on the back porch or in the front garden of the house, or, Sara can feel Agam's good intentions for her especially after what they went through a few days ago.

And now take a walk? Sara's lips immediately revealed a smile as soon as she realized it.

You may want to spend a lot of time together.

“Mas Agam indeed does not have a place that Mas want to visit?” Sara asked back.

“I want to go to the place you want to visit.”

And, this will have no end ...

“Ya as long as you are not ashamed of the same way I am like this.”

Sara laughs. But he thought about it.

“Hmm ... We're going to the beach. How's it?

......................

The cool beach breeze this afternoon immediately welcomed the arrival of Sara and Agam. Assisted by the driver, Agam was lowered slowly and then Sara pushed her wheelchair around the paving coastal land area.

All Sara did was walk around the area. So tired he chose to sit on one of the benches and enjoy the breeze on the beach that afternoon. Placed next to him.

“I once dreamed of going to the same beach Mas, loh,” said Sara opened their conversation.

“Therefore you request to the beach?”

“Iya, Mas.” Sara laughed chuckling. “At least I have one dream come true.”

“You have a dream that hasn't materialized?”

“The feeling will not be realized.” Sara was silent for a moment, then returned to answer, “I once dreamed Dad became my marriage guardian.”

Now, both are silent.

But Agam moved his hand to look for Sara's hand and held it gently.

They both enjoyed the cool air on the beach.

......................

“We had dinner outside, yes. I've booked a place,” so said Agam when their car had already driven away from their first destination.

Is it just my feeling, but Mas Agam looks different today?

“When did Mas prepare it all?,” asked Sara a little teasing, hiding her sense of curiosity.

But the one asked was just a meaningful smile. Sara also prefers to be quiet and get rid of all her feelings starting to feel strange and awkward.

A romantic dinner. Maybe that's what Agam is preparing for Sara. Luxury restaurant, charming dress – they had a moment stop at the boutique that had been waiting for the arrival of Agam –, candles on the table, a beautiful bouquet of flowers, and, and the beautiful music that accompanies their dinner.

“We got married too soon. Even if we never go on a date together before marriage or after we get married. I want at least once we go on a date together.”

Agam's words seemed to be affirming something in his worried heart. The strange feeling that had been trailing him was now bit by bit like he was opening his veil.

“Mas ... is okay, right?”

“I? Me why?”

Agam's hand groped over the table looking for something. Sarah put her hand closer to her husband. And Agam grasped it gently.

“I'm fine, Sara. You may still be scared because of yesterday,” said Agam.

Yeah, maybe.

“Just enjoy our dinner, yes.”

One sentence from Agam has not yet shed his uncomfortable feelings. But Agam's right, it's their dinner. Sara didn't want to ruin it just because of her unclear feelings.

“I-iya, Mas ..”

......................

“AGAM!”

An incredible welcome came from Arya and Yuda who were standing in front of their respective patio chairs. Arya just stared at her heart, while Yuda looked so angry that was clearly also heard on her call earlier.

Their gazes were only on Agam who had just got off the car assisted Sara and the driver. That gaze created another confusion in Sara's mind.

What's the matter?

“You wait for me in the workspace. We just talk there,” said Agam gave orders as if he knew what the two men were thinking. And both of them just groaned to hold their anger but still did what Agam asked.

“Sara ..”

“I-iya, Mas.”

Too intense to notice the interaction of the three men before her, Sara was surprised when Agam called out to her.

“I'd love to eat the brownies you've made for me before. Can I ask for help to make? Sorry to bother when we just came,” said Agam.

Clearly, Sara could not resist it. His heart forbade him to say no.

“N-nothing, Mas. I made.”

Sara just drove Agam to the front of the stairs specifically for Agam wheelchair, then Agam moved it automatically.

And what Sara did was to do what her husband asked, even though in her heart she was still hampered by the uncomfortable feeling.

......................

When the brownies are ready to be served on a plate, that's when Agam comes to the dining room. Though Sara would have taken him to the workspace Agam if indeed he was still there. He even prepared more for Arya and Yuda.

But as it turns out, Agam says Arya and Yuda have gone home.

“Arya must return to main house at this time. Mama has just recovered, so she has to be with Mama,” explained Agam.

“Since I came home, I haven't seen Mama. If Mas goes to the main house, can I come?”

Agam just smiled and nodded.

Two bribes, Agam enjoys the brownies Sara made for him. Though he had just eaten outside, but the brownies were still eaten voraciously.

“Since I ate it, I immediately liked your brownies. It feels different from the brownies that I usually eat,” said Agam after a while he just enjoyed his brownies.

“I will make every day if Mas want,” timpal Sara responded to Agam's remarks.

Agam just smiled. Then his hand moved up in search of Sara.

Sara who understood immediately welcomed Agam's hand, then pointed it at the side of his face. That's where Agam's hand rests at the moment.

“I will always pray for your happiness, Sara.”

Uncommanded again, Sara immediately stormed Agam with her arms as if worried that her husband would leave.

But that was exactly how Sara felt at this moment. Everything Agam did today felt so strange. So far. It was as if tomorrow he would disappear from his sight.

“Mas why? Do not lie. What's up, Mas?”

Sara kept asking many questions that illustrated her concerns.

“Calm down, Sara,” said Agam with her deep, soft voice. Her hands did not stop stroking Sara's hair. “I'm really okay.”

Sara let go of her embrace. He looked at Agam with his distance too close. Agam's hand now touched Sara's face rubbing a tear that had just come down.

“But why today Mas's attitude is so strange?,” Sara asked in a question that clearly means.

“I'm fine, Sara. You may have too many thoughts. Too tired today.”

Did ya? But my feelings still feel uncomfortable.

“We rest after this, yes.”

Sara still looked at him suspiciously. But the nod of his head did not escape him to do.

That night, even about to close his eyes, his uneasy feelings continued to haunt him. But in Agam's arms, Sara could close both her eyes. He's fast asleep.

It was only when she woke up the next day that Sara knew something strange was still haunting her.

“Mas Agam?”

Sara looked at the other side of the bed that was currently empty without the figure of Agam there. Not as usual.

The feeling he suppressed last night is now back up.

Sara got up from her bed just to look into the bathroom. It's unlocked, and there's no one there.

“Mas ...,” call Sara over and over every time she steps out of one room into another.

When he came down the stairs, he also did the same thing, “Mas ..”

Right then, he saw Raka standing in the middle room looking at him with a look full of regret.

No. gabe. Don't look at that.

“M-want to meet Mas Agam, yes?,” asked Sara with ordinary questions as if he did not care about Raka's gaze which was different from his usual gaze.

“Sorry, Mistress.”

No. gabe. Don't apologize.

“Master Agam has departed earlier this morning. Sir leave a few things to give to Madam, including .. this divorce warrant."

Nah!