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Actually why??!
Why are God and the Rain God so unfair to me?!
I am the eldest daughter of the rain kingdom, but why?!
Why is it always my sister who is being noticed?
Why is Olivia always so proud?!
He always took what I had!!
My father, who used to love me, played with me, laughed with me, after Olivia was born... He rarely spoke to me. He was always with his youngest daughter.
Uncle Zey, who used to tell me a lot of things, after Olivia was born.
Even mommy paid more attention to Olivia than I did.. His eldest daughter.
Olivia has taken everyone away from me. And now?? He even wanted to snatch Prince Zana.
The Prince I loved, the Prince I longed for.
Prince Zana was closer to me. He even prefers to be near me! And..he also once said that he likes me. But why is it like this now?!
Why am I the only one hurt here?! Why?!!
I-i know.. Olivia is an honest child. He always expressed his heart without hesitation. He is a brave boy, he brings joy to anyone who is near him. He's like a light.
I-i know.. He was born with perfect natural talent.
I-i know.. She was indeed born to be destined as the Rain Princess.
While me? I am a shy princess, a weak Princess, I dare not reveal my heart. I don't even talk to people much. I'm not reliable.
Even as a child, I had to follow various rituals and teachings to be able to summon rain. But Olivia?? Only with his cry can he bring down rain. He doesn't have to hurt like me, he doesn't have to work as hard as I do.
I really envy her. I used to think that getting rid of him from this Kingdom was easy for me. But deep down, I still love her as my sister.
All this time I've held back my feelings for her. I always try to smile in front of him. But not today. For the first time I spoke harshly to him. Those words just came out of my mouth.
"Stupid! Though he asked me nicely, why am I speaking evil to him?!" My mind slammed against my body and sat on my bed, after running away from Olivia in the flower garden.
I feel guilty, but on the other hand I feel satisfied.
I want him to understand my feelings, which have always been his shadow.
I who was still bowed on the bed was suddenly startled by the arrival of a physician and two palace servants to my room.
"Excuse me princess? We're here to check on the Princess. Is the Princess okay?" said a servant bowing his head to me.
"What's? Who told you to come here?" My words don't understand
"Daughter Olivia asked us to check on you, she was worried about your health because she thought you were not feeling well" the maid replied again still bowing her head.
Not feeling well? After all my words, he was still worried about me and thought I was sick. What is the heart of the boy made of?
"Ti. no. I'm fine, I'm just tired. Just bring me some green tea, it'll make me better"
I said to the waiter.
The servant and healer nodded and left my room immediately.
Whatisthis? How could I hate him like this? How do I tell you everything? He was very insensitive to the situation. I don't want to hurt him, but I don't want to get hurt like this either.
"What am I supposed to do?" I muttered and laid my body on the bed.
"Do I have to express my feelings to Prince Zana??..."