
The sun in the morning is still shy to show its light. While some people have done their activities. While in the corner of the room someone was sitting speechless. I don't know what the woman thought. His gaze was empty, he just hugged his knees while propping up his chin.
The tears flowed for the umpteenth time. I don't know why this time the woman felt her soul was completely confined. He could only walk in the same direction. That direction seems to know exactly where it is back.
"Anuska, are you inside baby? Mom's in.?" Mother's voice breaks Anuska's daydream. Yes, that woman is Anuska. He was still loyal to the troubled mind that lately stole his smile.
Anuska wiped her tears. Luckily the door was still locked. So I won't see her messy self from crying.
Anuska walked towards the bathroom to wash her pale, puffy-eyed face. In the bathroom, Anuska takes a deep breath, trying to neutralize her feelings, and try to prepare the heart and mental if there is another new decision determined by both parents as usual. Hopefully this time will be different, Anuska thought.
After feeling fine, Anuska came out of the bathroom. While Mom's voice still rang out in her ears from behind the bedroom door.
"Yes ma'am, wait a minute" Anuska replied as she walked towards the door. He opened the door and saw that Mom was carrying breakfast on the tray. Peanut paste and hamburger, as well as Anuska's favorite white milk.
"Good morning dear" said Mother with her best smile.
"Mom, too," answered Anuska.
"Aren't you going to let me in" I asked, still outside the room.
"Since when did you need Anuska's permission to enter this room? haven't you been able to get in and out of this room whenever you want.?" The sentence seemed to insinuate Mother who was still holding a tray containing breakfast. Mama smiled wryly. Still, keep a warm attitude.
"All right, Mom's in." Mother entered Anuska's room and placed a tray containing breakfast on the nightstand, then the middle-aged woman sat on the edge of the bed.
"Come here" Mother said, and followed by the steps of Anuska who walked towards her. Anuska sat on the edge of the bed with Mom.
"Hope first, after that we'll talk."
Deg, man,
The simple sentence successfully made Anuska's heart rustle for the umpteenth time. Now what other decisions did Mom and Dad make? can't Anuska make her own decision just once in her life? thought Anuska.
"Alright" replied Anuska.
The 19-year-old girl ate her breakfast so greedily that she was left. Although his heart is still in anger, but his body also needs attention. Food is medicine for her mind to stay clear and normal.
Satisfied eating breakfast, Anuska switched to drinking milk, and left half of the milk. She still held her milk glass without returning it on the nightstand. Mom smiled.
"Do you like breakfast, baby,?" ask Mother.
"Yes." Yeah."
"Well, can we start, then,?" ask Mother. The question was successful in making Anuska's heart beat fast. He was afraid that the decision this time would really shake his entire soul.
"Yes." Yeah."
She took a deep breath before finally saying.
"We have found a soul mate worthy of you, and you will soon be married."
PRANGS...
Anuska's glass of milk fell to the floor and broke to spill the remaining milk. His whole body was trembling, his heart was pounding, his brain was spinning as if trying to digest every temple. Is he really getting married? is there really no chance for him to see the world out there? can Father and Mother really unite herself with a man she has never known before?
Mother's words are like lightning during the day, and succeed in stirring her soul. Anuska thought that this time she would feel sorry for her and give Anuska one chance to make her own decisions for the rest of her life. However, everything was gone that chance.
Anuska's eyes began to glaze over. The clear liquid has been accommodated in his soft eye pelup and is ready to spill at any time. He shook his head in disbelief.
"You're getting married soon, baby" said Mother once again.
Anuska's voice began to rise. For the first time he snarled his mother. Making the middle-aged woman dumbfounded.
"Anuska does not want to get married" Anuska said as she looked at her mother's nanar.
"Honey, we've made a decision" said Mother as gently as possible so that Anuska was not shaken. Unfortunately, his soul is already sick. The wound that had been wrapped in Anuska with tears, now gaping back and bleeding.
"No. no.!" Anuska still sticks with that one word.
"Mom, at least once. One time Anuska made a choice in the life of Anuska, Mom," said Anuska. The request sounded profound and bitter. Mom's heart started to pinch. This time a mother's heart was moved.
"For so long Anuska never prevented Mom and Dad from deciding anything to live. Anuska never let Mom and Dad down. But at least be Anuska's friend, ma'am. Be the place where Anuska leans to pour out all grievances. Hix.. Hicks..." It really made my heart cry. Her heart as a mother is fighting. Has he been planting a boundary between himself and his own daughter?
"Be Anushka's friend, ma'am. Anuska's dying now."
Dor, though,
The sentence successfully made Mother's soul shaken violently. Her tears started to fall. He covered his mouth with both hands, staring in disbelief at his daughter's words just now.
Anuska held her chest which felt tight to breathe.
"There's a wound in here, ma'am. The wound was very large and bloody all this time. Can't you just bandage Anuska's wounds this time? can Anuska reach out to ask for mercy from a Mother? can you hold Anuska's hand to lead Anuska to stay on the right track? can you do that just this once.?"
"Please don't put any distance between a child and a mother." Next later.
That series of questions made Mom shut up. His heart is beating. Soul shaken. There was a great sigh inside there that started to tear apart. So all this time his daughter suffered from every decision she made? was it true that all this time he had planted such a steep distance between himself and his own daughter? thought Mother.
For a moment the eyes of the two locked. Mother looked into my daughter's eyes. Finally he could see how injured Anuska had been all this time. He could see how big the wound was. The wounds that now filled his daughter's body and soul.
"Dear, forgive Mom, son. Forgive Mom. Hu... Hu..." My crying started to break. She was crying regretfully. What kind of mother am I, can't feel her own daughter's wounds. I failed as a mother. I'm failing. Inner Mother.
Mother hugged Anuska tightly, and Anuska returned the embrace.
"I'm sorry, son. I never knew there were so many wounds we'd given you, son. Forgive Mom. Hu... Hu..."
Anuska just remained silent. He was still late in his mind. Trying to digest every sentence of his mother.
Mother took off her embrace, then kissed Anuska's forehead. She wiped away Anuska's tears, and moved some of the hair that covered her face.
"Mom will be your friend, son. I'll bandage your wounds, baby." My words are like a breath of fresh air to Anuska. Finally, I want to be her friend.
"Is that really,?" ask Anuska enthusiastically.
"Of course, honey. Tell me what you have to do? do you want to postpone your marriage? all right, I'm gonna put it off and tell Dad," said Mom, trying to be Mom and her best friend.
"Anuska wants to get out of this house."
Deg, man,
What kind of request is that? why this one request? no, no, this can't happen. The wounds of the past 23 years are still fresh inside, which no one knows.
"May I grant Anuska's request on this one.?"
Mom still doesn't budge at all. His reputation is on the line this time. Where she must be a mother and a friend to her daughter. However, on the other hand he has to fight the trauma that is deeply embedded in there for 23 years. And he had to fight that fear in order to keep the promise of a mother and a friend.
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