Love is Different Beliefs

Can't sleep

The night is getting late, like her I have to rest as soon as possible because tomorrow the first day of work in Rian's office, I have to be excited because if not myself then who else will encourage this self.

But this eye is very difficult to close, although it has been many times and tried as much as possible, still this eye does not want to close it, indeed occasionally this eye can be closed, it can be closed, but the noise of vehicles out there is still very clear, so these eyes are increasingly difficult to sleep.

Is it because tonight is the first night to sleep in my new hostel, maybe yesterday used to sleep with Minah so now feel lost, or because I sleep alone, or because I sleep alone, ooh yeah almost forgot, just before I called Mom in the village like her a lot of messages came in on my flat object, because I can't sleep, I can't sleep, yes I have seen my device & there is a short message from anyone.

After I took it and I opened it turns out that many messages that went into the flat object of mine.

Jhon:

"Hey baby, how come there's something you're comfortable with not living in a new place all by yourself?"

I'll just answer.

" God willing, but it takes process.

The second message.

"Darling you've eaten yet, ooh yes sorry because it was noon before I went home forgetting not to invite you to eat first, sorry yes so engrossed so you forgot to eat.

I replied to that message again.

" It's okay, because I've eaten, it turns out in front of the many boarding houses that sell, and there are my favorite foods.

The third message.

"Ooh yeah dear one more, if you need help, don't hesitate to contact me, because I will always be there at all times, when you need it, I will always be there and come to you.

" Yes, thank you for the offer of his services, I replied like that and was followed by the emoji laughing and saying sorry, because it was just my candlestick.

Finally finished replying to the message from Jhon.

I open another message, it turns out that this is from bi Minah, she is the kindest and most caring person as long as I know people, only she is the one who is more attentive than everything, in the past while working at the restaurant owned by his mama Jhon there was Lani who was very good and caring, and after I left the restaurant because I came home, I rarely sent messages to him, he said, indeed occasionally he still chat to just ask the news, but with the passage of time, maybe he was busy so the less often he sent messages, the more rarely he sent messages, but I will never forget his ever good service when I am sad, sick or any other problem, because only I am the most understanding, Insha Allah if later I have earned money with my own results, I really want to see him because I miss Lani so much.

Message from bi Minah.

"Beautiful Feng, how did you find your new home?

I reply one by one message from bi Minah.

" Alhamdulillah Be Bi."

Second message.

"Neng aunty kangen really same neng, but just this morning neng left, but it feels like a long time ago. "

I'll reply again.

"Yes bi, I also miss aunty very much, Thank you because my aunt has been very good with me. "

Message to three.

My third reply.

"Auntie, eat dong, do not be like that, sad may be but do not let not give intake to the body of aunty, later can-can the body of aunty weak and sick, later I also so be a sad follow."

The fourth message.

"Neng take care of yourself well, do not forget to eat, always take care of health and if there is anything do not hesitate to contact aunt only, because aunt will try to help neng, although aunty like this and from the village, but the experience of aunty in Jakarta is not less the same as people here ko, aunty already almost knows the area jakarta.plus emoji laugh.

I'll reply to the fourth message.

"Yes kind aunt, Thank you for the kindness and advice of aunty all this time, aunty do not have to worry about me, God willing I will be fine, I will be fine, because there is a God who always protects, and I believe that, again Thank you aunt, I accompany with emoji kiss and also hug.

The fifth message

"Neng if there is time and neng does not mind, someday we may meet again, just to let go of the longing, if neng does not want to come to this house is also okay, it is okay, we can meet elsewhere, choose a place anywhere that is important we can meet , just set the time and place. "

I'll reply to this last message.

"Yes aunty, God willing if we are healthy, given a long life and there is a provision Insha Allah someday we meet again, a patient aunt yes, yes, we both pray for it to be easy and launched everything. Aamiins. Sent all the messages to the bi Minah number, but bi Minah must have slept or the tone of her phone has been silent, so there is currently no reply.

After replying one by one to the message from bi Minah, this heart is getting sadder, even though it was trying hard and strong, but the support of this bi Minah actually makes this heart more fragile, but the fragility of this heart is not due to the influence of bi Minah, just the opposite because bi Minah is too good so that my feelings are more softened and sad.

I don't know what to do, so that bi Minah is not too sad to drag on because I have left her, if I have to go back there again it's very unlikely, let bi Minah sad continue to be very sick and sad, then at this time have to do what else is this self, so it is wrong.

Aarghhhh.bingung was very confused for him, Sorry this self, God for hurting someone who is very good and loves me with all his heart.

I already had to close my eyes, because considering the night was getting late, the noise out there had begun to decrease, maybe people were already close to sleep because the night was getting late, although it's just a moment, anyway should not be bad luck because tomorrow morning the first day working in his office Rian, not good if it comes late due to bad luck .

Let the eyes grow, all that is in my mind, O God, that I may sleep, for I must rise for a better future.

Aaarghhh... instead of wanting to be closed, this mind is even more traveling everywhere, thinking of other things, which were not there even more popping up in my brain, this, no oh not if it's like this, then I have to how else, now more and more confused for him.

But yes, I have to keep my eyes open, every problem is always this eye is difficult to close, strange really strange, but I know if I see other people, but what I know if I see others, despite having problems when it was time to sleep he still slept soundly, without even waking up in the slightest, but was astonished by myself, who was always difficult to sleep when there was a problem, but the problem is just trivial.

Bismillah I re-do'a again, Hopefully this time I can sleep, I should not give up anyway have to sleep, because if not sleep at all what will be tomorrow, tomorrow, I must be sleepy and not concentrate when tomorrow must look fresh because the first day of work.

Sinta continued to try to close her eyes do not forget to always pray, in order to sleep tonight, has been various ways she did but still failed, failed, I don't know what pervaded his mind that made him restless and did not want to sleep.

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