Love In Silent's

Outpourable

that night suddenly my mouth was mute unable to say a word, as if locked tightly and very difficult to complain to grandma, suppose that the current one with me is my late mother, he said, maybe I will spill all the complaints that I feel at this time, but different with grandma, in addition to her age that is vulnerable and easily sick, but, I could not bear to reveal everything in my heart to him, fearing that my grandmother would be shocked and fall ill from hearing all my stories.

" grandmother knows now.. ! why did you have to sell your father's only treasure!, maybe grandma did not know what was in your heart, but grandma could feel from every tear that fell from the eyes of grandma's favorite granddaughter !! "grandma said, hugging my body

I really couldn't help it anymore, all my emotions that had been stifled for so many years poured all that night into my grandmother's lap.

my heart ached and claustrophobic, imagining how difficult my life had been, at such a young age, he said, my mentality is forced by circumstances to face all the trials and problems that should be experienced by adults.in addition to the pressure and all the difficulties I have also experienced recently.

if I said, I was desperate to tell all those things to grandma, fearing that the health condition of the grandmother would decline, he said, perhaps it would be better for me to keep it and I pendam all this pain in the bottom of my heart only, so that I alone feel all the pain, disappointment, anger, anger, and hate that I never vent to anyone.

"whatever trials you will face in the future, the message is always remember there are people who will want to listen to your complaints son!, do not hold it all alone !"my grandmother told me

for some reason, the words of my grandmother that entered my ear like a melody that made me calm instantly, all my struggles so far are real evidence, that there will be no mature personality, no mature personality, without going through a long life and process, because the mature person is not measured by age, but from time, that is what grandma means as the most beautiful message for me.

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unlike the day before, when I woke up from my sleep this morning, instantly my body felt fitter and lighter than usual. maybe after my conversation with grandma that felt heart-to-heart drained my tears overnight, my feelings are now more plump and I feel as if the burden in my heart has diminished quite a lot, after I spilled it last night.

this morning, Juna and Jenni started attending her new school, because yesterday I had the opportunity to contact the school, so that my two sisters can go to school immediately, so my sister can go to school today, meanwhile, my circumstances that must repeat the title S2, I will be forced to continue in the faculty jogja, although I have to repeat, at least I can achieve my dream even though I have to repeat a few more years, even if I have to repeat it, for me there is no harm, and it does not matter if you have to repeat in the village, after all in my village my life feels much more comfortable and I can focus more on learning than when in the city first.

while filling the void of my day, I filled my activities with helping with homework, not to forget I also participated in helping my grandmother's home business, that is selling packaged guava and bottles that are already quite popular among us, even though the home business of grandmothers only sells herbal medicine, but the herbs that grandmothers make are not just any herbs like in the market in general, because it has various variants with different benefits, too, different, it can be said that the herbal medicine business that grandma manages is very famous and of course grandma has pursued the business of selling this herbal medicine from her parents who previously, and of course, grandmother, or it could be said this is a hereditary business from our great-grandfather.