Love for Vita

Contrition

'Vita, how much pain did it hurt when I left you? happy, I can see you again, I'm glad to hear you're still solid, as if it never happened, those wounds, everything and the wounds that are slipping in your heart, because of my ego'

Defa continued to mutter throughout his journey to Zovita's place, his eyes pilar continue to remember the face of the woman he loved, Zovita will definitely hurt once, Zovita, when he saw someone he loved suddenly appear after leaving him without saying goodbye.

In Defa's left hand, he held a piece of paper that showed Zovita's address. That afternoon he was right in front of the yard of the house on the paper, Defa recalled a few months ago, he had been here, and this is right the house, the house he used to go to.

Defa put his car on the side of the road, his steps slowly entered the yard of the house, he did not want to immediately hit the bell, Defa secretly infiltrated the yard of the house, through the side of the house Defa continues to walk towards the back, the movements are like someone who wants to steal.

When he saw someone playing with his cat, in the backyard, Defa was stunned, his body stiffened motionless.

Suddenly Zovita looked at him, very shocked by what he saw, Zovita did not blink even though his cat ran, he did not chase after him, Zovita remained standing, his feet were too heavy to step.

Defa slowly approached him, even closer. Zovita looked at the man before her with a shocked and clueless look, she saw the man approaching her with tears rolling down her cheeks.

Defa approached and called. "Vita!!"

Zovita was still silent, blinking her blurry eyelids, but her tears fell.

"Ken-Why are you here?" Stammering, Zovita asked.

Reflexes, Defa pulls her into his arms, Defa is relieved to know the person who tormented her in guilt, is now in his arms. Apparently Defa was not willing to let go of his embrace, as powerful as Zovita let go and immediately pushed his body away.

Zovita kept staring at Defa. "Why are you crying?"

Defa turned a faint smile with his puffy eyes. "It's okay."

"Vita, sorry-" said Defa who could not continue his words.

"For what?" Zovita gently tried to respond to Defa.

"Sorry to have left you, to let you go through your hard times alone," replied Defa who was very ill to reveal her in front of Zovita.

Zovita wiped away her tears, pressed her lips together, wanted to laugh but it hurt so much, wanted to cry, but it was useless.

Zovita threw her face into the grass beside her.

"What did you come for? wanna tell me about your wedding?" offend Zovita who won't look at Defa's face.

"I have been punished, Vita, I continue to be tormented in longs, in my guilt to you, I have not even had time to say a word to you, but..." said Defa who returned with tears.

Defa's knees felt so limp, that he rested in front of Zovita, Zovita immediately stepped back, his chest was very painful, even felt tight.

Zovita breathed a tired sigh. He was tired of all the drama and tears.

Zovita looked at Defa sharply and coldly, Defa looked up for a moment and wiped her tears.

Defa tried to grab Zovita's hand, but was soon taken by Zovita. Now what Defa wants is in front of his eyes, but Defa actually feels sad, if only he accompanied Zovita's difficult time, surely his presence is a miracle for Zovita, he said, but the woman in front of him still stood firm, and was fine after his departure.

"Vita, I know now that you don't trust anyone, not even God, I can never forget you, I always love you" Defa said.

Guilt is the most severe torture on earth. It was hell for them, it was just the heaviest hell that the woman in front of him had experienced.

Zovita was sitting in an iron chair lined with plants in her backyard, Defa sitting next to her.

"I don't want to remember the painful event, it's enough to let me know who the people who love me are, and throw me away" Zovita said softly, Defa glanced at him.

"Thank you, because you have taught me the true meaning of love" he added.

Defa is like being stabbed by thousands of needles hearing Zovita's words. He is the most stupid person to follow his ego, even though he still loves Zovita no matter the condition, now it is too late, he will never get that love again from Zovita. Moreover, she is now a husband of people.

"You're really great, Vita, you stay strong like this, I'm stupid not to follow my heart, I beg you to forgive me this stupid," timpal Defa, whose eyes never escape, expects the woman next to him to forgive her.

"I'm tired of living in guilt, I can't sleep in peace, I can't think clearly, I always think of you" he added.

"I never blame you, only my expectations are too high, whoever the person if in your position will do the same," said Zovita who continued to look forward, just to look at Defa's face he doesn't want to anymore.

Behind the window, bi Wati witnessed it all, bi Wati heard clearly the conversation Zovita and Defa then reported it to Rika.

Defa. "No! I'm the stupidest person, Vita."

"But if you find someone who loves you, never leave him in any condition" Zovita said, then he stood with a limp body Zovita entered the house and left Defa alone with a face wet with tears flowing.

Defa's frozen hand was unable to reach Zovita's. "With..."

It felt like he ran and hugged Zovita again, but Defa knew for sure Zovita would try hard to let go.

Defa kept pleading maa. "Sorry, Vita."

Before it passed, he stared at the window of the house, still hoping that the woman he loved saw him, but his hopes had to be buried with deepening regret.

'I see, in your eyes there is no more love for me, Vita. It must hurt a lot to have a wound in your heart, may you find someone who truly loves you, I regret leaving such a strong woman like you. I'll never forget you, Vita.'

Defa continued muttering, regretting his stupidity, he indeed deserved to receive punishment for his actions.

The car quickly sped up, leaving behind a grain of regret and bad memories in the village.

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