Let Me Love You Even If I Can't Have You
#4
When friends struggled with the thesis, Ningrum was enjoying an atmosphere that was so very soothing to his heart and soul. Yes, he was resting in front of the house of the living voter khalik and the soul of Ningrum.
"Deploy all my life planning and destiny entirely to you, Lord, I believe you are the best planner." The last sentence of Ningrum's sincere prayer.
He has been more sincere and airy to accept the destiny of God, in addition to failing in love he also has to fail in the final study that he is one step away from reaching. Umrah was the right choice that he took in a time of turmoil and heartbreak.
"Bismillah, I hope I can go through with ease. I'll chase after my fall, I'll chase back the dreams I've missed even though it might not be as easy as I thought." Arum monologues while walking towards the airport parking lot to the apartment.
To be honest Arum has not completely forgotten the events that are like a nightmare, the shadow of his friendship with Arya is still always crossed even though he struggled to forget. Right on the day of Arya's wedding, Arum deliberately avoided by choosing to leave for the holy land for Umrah. Obviously consciously and deliberately he avoids the event even though he knows it is not good, but for the good then he chooses not to attend.
"I know I won't be able to, my heart and feelings need to be addressed and I'm sorry I can't accompany you to the Arya event." Arum told Anggi his best friend.
"I understand rum, I won't force you. Seeing you have improved a little I am very grateful. But please reconsider your departure, 2 more weeks we're advancing the rum table exam." Anggi tried to persuade Arum to continue the final study, even though he knew Arum his best friend who has a kekeh stance will not be denied.
"Maybe it's not my fortune to graduate this year Nggi, I'll be fine you don't have to worry about me. Will be forced will not be able to Nggi, my mind is dead, I need to calm down first." Arum chuckled.
"Alright, fine there do not forget to eat and rest do not you think about the mas Aryamu 🤭." pinched Anggi's anxiety into Ningrum's cheeks.
"My mother's most beautiful 😀😀. sendiko dawuh 🤭🤭." Arum tried to joke about his best friend not thinking too much about his condition.
they embrace and let each other go Arum.
Walimatul'ursy Arya&Anggun
"Thank you, when cipika cipiki Arya took the time to ask where Ningrum is. Four-four e Yo 🤭🤭
"Arum just sends his greetings and apologies can not attend your show mas, he is calming and organizing his heart and feelings." explained Anggi.
"Where is he not, is he okay? say my apologies to him 🥺." said Arya
"Yes, already focus on your wife no longer think of bad things, Arum is safe with me ⁇ ️." sure Anggi and he also came down from the tribe and went home to continue the final chapter of the script.
"I'm sorry rum, someday I will explain to you I hope you can accept sincerely and always in blessing and happiness." Arya said
Although honestly this marriage is not the marriage he dreamed of but the woman lying next to him has now legally become his wife. Although not now maybe someday love will grow and develop with time. Then he too fell asleep.
"Arum! Arum! don't rum.....!" Arya flinched from her nightmare, sweat pouring out an irregular sigh.
"What is this sign, Lord ?" 😔
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