
This heart is sore, like watching you lying in a coma because of me, like when you're critical because of me and like being away from you.
My love, the vast expanse of the sky may not be able to explain to you how much I want to be with you, if God clearly gives me a choice and frees this lover to choose then it will always be your name, Malik.
“Ser?” Mr. Hanif approached me and asked me why I decided to marry Pram.
“I don't have any explanation, yes as you know, customarily he is my soul mate.” I replied without looking into Mr. Hanif's eyes.
“Have you given up, after so much that Malik did for you?”
“I don't give up, I just follow destiny.” Then I left, left the Headquarters, left Mr. Hanif who might have thought I was weak and abandoned my love.
I remember that moment every night in my dreams, when you turned from me and only your back I saw I knew there was deep disappointment, maybe not just disappointment, maybe more pain than that, like just yesterday I left you Malik, when it's been two years without your love.
Yes, it has been two years that Pram and I have ventured to find reinforcements to be my allies, two years that I and my lover have been separated, and two years that I have become a woman who wanders in the middle of the forest, on the top of mountains and swamps.
“Ser, have you all?” Pram took my hand, we were indeed shopping for the necessary essentials, just the ingredients for the staple food, I nodded and he picked up some of my heavy plastic groceries, he said, there were only two light bags left, one of my hands was free and as usual, she pulled my hand and ordered me to hold her, we were like a newly married couple in general.
“Thank’s Pram.” I smile.
“With My Pleasure Quin.” she returned my smile, then we went to bring all our monthly groceries to Pram's car, that's where I dropped some plastic I brought, and then we went to take it, I was surprised to see you standing looking at me and Pram, watching me holding his hand, maybe you felt pain too.
“Malik.” I greeted him.
“Ser, Pram.” Malik nodded to Pram.
“Hei Malik.” Pram looks riled up.
How he finally found me, my body trembled to see him, what a 2-year hard time of my life without this man.
“Can I talk to Seira, just for a moment, I promise.” Malik pleaded, I hate his loser stare, begging Pram just to talk to me and what's with his current appearance.
“As of You Quin.” Pram looked at me and I just nodded, I was unable to resist it directly, because I did not want to hurt him any deeper, I seemed to have to affirm everything.
Malik and I headed to one of the quiet coffee shops near here, Pram had gone home first.
“Hot black coffee as usual huh Ser?” Malik saw my order that was already on the table.
“Ya, How's Malik doing?” I looked at him fixedly, while he just looked blankly at my coffee.
“If I said fine, would you believe it?” Malik is looking at me this time.
“You look more casual and sporty with a dressy t-shirt and jeans. Oh yeah, sneakers, since when? Is your boyfriend now ABG?” I smile.
“I'm looking for you, I've been looking for you for two years, sorry I don't have time to dress up to see you. A quin? like that he called you?” Malik started to get emotional.
“Ok and you found me didn't you?”
“You're married to that man?”
“Already, didn't my mother come to tell you?”
“Ya, just notice not invitation.”
“You don't like coming to weddings, our wedding is simple, only relatives we invite.”
“Are you happy Ser?” He was so focused on what he really wanted to know, all the way out just to find out if I was happy? What kind of a man is he really!
“Do you think?”
“You smile freely and hold her arm, you're happy to be Pram's mistress?”
“Lelaki is handsome, has wealth far above you and another, stronger than you, what else makes me unable to be happy?” I smiled sinisterly, one of my hands holding the end of the table, I trembled saying it.
Malik woke up from his seat, “For me enough, you're happy enough, then my job is done. I won't ask you about the thing you said, that you better suffer but with me, I won't sue you, I just miss and see you happy, enough for me.”
Malik then left without looking, I still hold the corner of the table so that my body is restrained, so that I do not fall down, if only I could I would run to you, pull you and invite you to die together, he said, I think it's easier than going through the day without you, Malik.
After everything I've done, leave you!and you're just saying miss .. You should have hit me like you hit me on that bridge, where is Malik so calculated and arrogant? why is it all gone in just two years Malik? Why do you look so much like a beggar, even you begged Pram just to talk to me, as good as I was to make your life so ruined! Your papa is right, I am a destroyer and unlucky bringer of your life, so leaving you is the best move I can make for you.
I ran into the bathroom of this cafe, I couldn't stand it, I couldn't see you. As soon as I got to the bathroom, I cried, it hurt so much, I hit my heart, I even suffocated, is this as painful as Malik?
After crying, I came out of the bathroom, I saw the Commander and Raden at the bathroom door, they were watching me.
“How much do we have currently?” I asked.
“About 700s, superior is only about 150.” Commander replied.
“How much do they have?”
“Their overall number is 200 each2 has more than 1 behind them, At most 30, so a total of about 6000 troops.”
“Still only 10 percent of it we have? Calculate well, how likely are we to win if we do in the near future.” I asked back at my main 2 Karuhun.
“With 700 allies in your arms, there is only a 20 percent chance of us winning. We have a massive expansion Ser, this is not enough, we will lose a landslide if desperate, their army is far above you.”
“I'll talk to Mr. Hanif, we're going to the island.”
“But Malik?” Commander asked.
“I don't want to be late, you don't see how it is after two years, if we step down for a few more years, you think he'll still be alive!” I snapped at the Commander accidentally.
“Ayuk.” I command them to follow me.
It was only two years and I didn't recognize you Malik, you were handsome, you were neat and clinical, turned into a beggar, your face like you didn't sleep for days without eating, where is your life spirit Malik, dear Malikku.
“Where are you!” Pram.
“In your Private hangar, I want to fly on your Cessna, I have to quickly reach the Eastern Forest.” I'm going to the East Forest, the easternmost forest in the country, across the sea and there are very few inhabitants, except for the people of Gharib.
“Ser, you are crazy, you are airborne alone without me? My pilot no one can protect you in the air, you know the air has no territory, anyone can attack you!”
“Ya.” I answered briefly.
“Ser, wait there don't ride ok, you will be slaughtered there, no authority in the air, all can come and finish you.”
“Pram, are you underestimating me? You think these 2 years is what I did! I'll fly soon, your pilot I've ordered, watch out for you if you dare to cancel, I'll make sure I get you out of my squad.” I threatened and I disconnected the phone, and then I got ready to board Pram's private plane.
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I've reached this Eastern Forest, as usual the fierce fight will restart, this whole forest is very beautiful for the tourists, but for Us, me and my 700 troops plus 150 Superior, he said, This forest is a fighting arena.
Yes, I'm Seira, Ayi Mahogranya Kharisma Jagat, I came to this forest 2 months ago, after quite a distance looking for troops that can be conquered, from various places, after all, only on this island did I find so many evil armies that were certainly hard to conquer, I heard that those who live here, hate my enemies so much, many of them covered the East because at the retreat from Pasundan by my enemies, I came here to conquer them, making them my troops. Although it was not easy to take them all, there was not a single day I passed without fighting, neither with Karuhun without an owner, nor the Karuhun owners who lived here like Jin, he said, although they are humans who no longer want to live with modern human civilization, they are not touched by power, wealth and women of course.
I came here together with Pram two months ago, Aam I'm not allowed to come, even from the first I started this expansion, he had to go to college and be a smart person like his ideals.
Every day that I go through only one, fight and conquer, in this forest there are thousands of creatures with various forms, I don't care if they are strong or very strong, he said, I'm just gathering a lot of troops to fight my enemy who has 6000 troops behind them, it's been 2 years and I only have 700 troops, a very small number, a very small number, that's why I think I need to cut the monthly shopping time to nothing, I will try to take food from this forest, I can't take too long, I'm afraid Malik will get hurt more.
“Pram, I call you just want to say I've been there, do not need to pick me up again yes, I do not need monthly shopping again ok.” I called Pram on the satellite phone he gave me.
“Quin, I think it's time Malik found out, you see, you're both like crazy people, one slaughtering the forest dwellers, one pushing all the locations just for one run, one, nyesel I told you this custom matchmaking problem, know will be kayak gini, will not I tell the story, it turns out Malik is right, only he is able to protect you, I am not even able to protect you, Malik was right, I am strong, but my love for you is not as strong as Malik. I'm tired of seeing you get hurt, again and again Quin!”
“Whispering you, I warmed up first, he said from yesterday the King of the hamlet next to my nyari, his son who is half a lizard half my dog, deliberately I, let his baby out, let his baby out, he said he had a weapon that could make 100 Creatures instantly die, if the weapon became mine, surely I easily negabisin troops next door.”
“Ser, you are crazy huh!” Along with Pram's curse I hung up the phone.
We got here at night, the atmosphere of the forest at night was gripping, at night I was the only human here, humans recorded as humans are certainly on the list of visits, indeed sometimes there are tourists, sometimes there are tourists, but they will not dare to go inside, yesterday there was a desperate group to set up camp in the forest, finally they lost their way, precisely misled into the Unseen World, and they were lost, they were in a daze because seeing things that they should not have seen, I found them after 3 days they got lost almost killing because they were fooled by Astral beings, I dragged them all out of the forest and contacted the rescue team to take them out of the forest, in total it has been about 7 times that I helped a stupid team that desperately went into the forest just to show off or pretentious, the forest is not a place to play around, he said, the forest has a population you can't imagine how horrified and cruel it is.
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“So haven't given up on you either.”
“King Bojabon,” I smiled looking at him, “let this weak woman rest first just continue.” I saw that my hands and feet were scarred, this man was human-shaped, different from the son I had. He beat me with all the weapons he had. Kujang, Karembo and even Karuhun Pram's whip just can't penetrate his huge body.
All Karuhun I have given up, starting from the Commander, Raden, Bagus Heulang, Mang Nariman's Sort of Wolves, even Jasmine's famous strategy is powerful, no one is able to conquer this mad King. She hunts me like an animal, naturally, I hold her child.
“Give me my son, you just want this gun don't you?” he pointed his machete, “snap, don't be such a coward.” He immediately grabbed his machete towards my neck, I dodged, I was exhausted, it's been 3 days 3 nights we fight without pause, he does not need to eat, I humans need to eat and rest, I'm a human, since this battle of conquest no one can help us, many spectators surround us, not humans of course.
“I'll give it back if you're willing to be my ally.”
“Hei young man, fighting it is a long story, me and 300 of my people have lived safely and peacefully in this forest, do not bother fighting over land with you, greedy humans.”
“I do not ask you to fight for land, so my ally, make me owe you one day, you will need help, I will help voluntarily.” I persuaded.
He pulled his machete back at me, got hit! Damn, deep enough, it hurt so much, I caught his machete and kicked him with all my might, he was shocked and the machete came off, the machete was still stuck in my right side.
“Your line is mine now.” I pointed at his machete that was still stuck in my stomach.
“Return my son now, take the machete if you want.” He pointed at his cleaver.
“Not only this cleaver, I want allies.”
“Stupid woman! That's a different thing! Ok, if you insist, what if we make a deal?”
“As for Old Man, you know I don't make deals with your kind.“ I prepared to attack with Karembo Hejoku, I grabbed his head, he staggered, I wrapped his bulging body, I stuck Kujang right in his chest, not to injure his heart, I did not want to repeat his mistake to me, I did not want to repeat his mistake, I hurriedly uprooted my bachelor and this Demon Hamlet King in pain, roaring in pain.
“My dear is very toxic, you will be wretched if in 3 days you do not meet me and agree, you will lose yourself and your child, at least if you die, at least if you die, your son could be a successor and we both know, I very easily control him, oh yes, another one, your Golok belongs to me.” I left a crowd of demons in the middle of this forest, the Commander and Raden followed me from behind, some of my troops were guarding this King's son in the world I created near this forest, no one could see him without my permission, so King Bojabon could not find his son, his son was strange and weak, so his father was very afraid that he was wretched.
I kept walking towards where I lived, I lived on the edge of the deep forest, I purposely stayed there, because there were a lot of wild creatures and weeds, so it was easy to choose who could be made an ally.
“Sebentar.” I feel like someone is following us.
“Who Ser?” Commander asked.
“Somehow, I can't smell so much, it's a human or a creature, this cleaver seems to be getting deeper, I'm so out of focus because it hurts.”
“I'll hunt him.” The commander and Raden ran in search of the origin of the sound.
I continued on my way, I ran as fast as I was now in a state of being unable to fight anyone, I was injured quite badly and exhausted after 3 days and 3 nights of fighting, Damn it! Why did it get closer, I ran faster to avoid, I prepared Kujang, afraid that I had to fight.
I continued running without looking back, I would soon reach the boundary of the Gharib fence we created to guard our residence from unwanted attacks, he said, whether targeting us or the war between jinn, in this forest often happens this kind of thing at night.
We'll be near my house soon! I keep running, I have to survive, I can't be caught at the moment, I have to fight, for Malik ....
BUKK ....
My body hit something, like a human body. Samar, I seem to have run out of blood, I don't even know who is in the middle, unfortunately, even my safe zone has not been reached, I muttered, “Malik .. ” I just want to call his name, I just want to say, I'm afraid Malik, afraid that I won't be able to see you again.
Then slowly I heard a voice so distinctive and very familiar, “Ser, I'm here dear.”
Malik's voice, I forced my eyes open to see a polar figure, I tried to see his face, Oh my God, what he's doing here, what he's here for, here is too dangerous Malik!
I was tired and it was all dark.
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Author's Note :
I miss them both.