It's Not Fate We Should Separate.

An accidental meeting

Morning arrived, the time was 06.00 wib. and soon I took a shower, the habit if I take a shower would like long because I like B*b first and foremost while fantasizing. I don't know if I'm the only one who knows hihihi..

after the shower I rushed to get dressed and walk a little. because my house and school are a bit far away so I had to take a transport. After arriving at the side of the road I was silent until waiting for the angkot to pass. and I accidentally met the ex or if the current times say cimon aka love monkey 🙈🐵 . accidentally we look at each other and slowly disappear because it is riding a motorcycle.

Flasbacks

" *ren, it seems we are not destined to be a match. let alone our age is different . Maybe they think I just deserve to make you my sister. we can't be together let alone your parents and family barring us from being together."

" so, this salama what do you think I am.? turns out what I heard yesterday" is really.? that you want to get married.? why, why don't you wait for me to grow up, !! be patient a little bit and we fight together."

" it can't be ren, I love you and love you for who you are, sincere from my heart. " 😥

" and what is your reason.? what's my fault.? what is my lack.? until you can stay with me.?, " 😭

"the color I have, su has done a very fatal thing with my ex, and it's my khilaf ren, which I obviously regret having done. can't go back to full. "

" okay, now I understand.

for you, I can't help you to stay with me, and can't be selfish because there is a heart you have to take care of. Take responsibility for it, please him. but I also do not regret having known you, can feel what is called first love.my prayer slalu with you. " 😭 my words are very soft. and I approached , holding both hands. "forgive me and my family's words to you. I realize and indeed tanpas to be with you. indeed in addition to our different ages.you must also have wanted a family. not waiting for me who knows when we're together." as I elus his cheeks. "sorry as long as we're close I can't make you happy and make you comfortable near me. I love you rendra*. "..

Flasback off, man,.

that's the last time we met. indeed whose heart does not hurt when we are again dear - his dear in the marriage residence. (sadly yes author hihihi. ) 😁

and at once angkot came.I also went up and upon arrival at school I greeted my friends in class.my class faced with the former again hihihi., because I was class B my former class E. oh yes my ex's name is painted. from the first I entered smp he was close to me. but I left him without breaking words at all. because at that time it felt ilfil I don't know what. what is clear is that if I see him feeling uncomfortable.I am close to him because he is sinter.so I like cheating on schoolwork (e.g., myself hihihi).

tettttttt tetttt

" hi ren, just got out of class.?. "

" oh yeah, you too.?. "

" yes, may I ask.?, "

" just ask, while you walk.! "

but he pulled me into the back of a very quiet classroom, I was a little scared, but I tried to calm down and subconsciously we looked at each other while he held my hand.

" ren, can't we be like we used to.? I miss being with you "he said begging

" but sorry I can't. "

" why.?? what's my fault with you, last we're good" until the end we stay away. "

" you know for yourself I'd hate it most if you're close to a woman even if she's my friend. "

" what.? but who is ren, the woman you mean I'm really confused" he said softly

" he won my brother first, but I'm sorry if he's my friend, but you don't know how hurt it feels to see you happy and smiling and being with me, you never smile or laugh "I said, holding back my tears.

" at least you tell me, what made you change so I could fix it and not make you sad. "the left hand held my hand and the right hand stroked my left cheek. " forgive me for not knowing your feelings, but honestly I still love you. "he left while slowly taking off his hands. There is a tightness in this chest. but I can only regret what I did. said selfish. Yes I was selfish. but for what I regret. now I have found a replacement even without love. and he was my upperclassman who had now entered High School and without thinking about painting I continued my path and rushed home.