It has become my destiny
abysmally
"if I break my promise it means my name is not shasa!" yelling so loudly in front of everyone without the slightest fear in him.
"all of you here bear witness to my vow! is there any of you?" all the attendees/guests who were whispering whispered immediately became silent due to the words issued by the martyrdom. "how would you feel if your sister, your daughter were treated the same as me would you like to do it? are you not hurt!! what if your son did the same to me? not everyone in this world has made mistakes, do not people in this world never escape mistakes and then can they not change? will not the repentance of a sinner always be accepted by the creator? then why do you seem to judge me so much with all the sins I committed in the past? it's not just me that's done you guys wrong everything here has done it!" all the people who exist and listen to what is said by the shasa are sculpting and silent a thousand languages. after he finished saying all that, he then ran away from the party by lifting the kebaya he was wearing towards a quiet place that was very quiet. crying and screaming as loud as it is without fear of anyone who will see it and hear it cry and scream
it does not feel because too much crying the eyes of the martyr became swollen, and his nose was blocked because of too long crying.The feeling has begun to be quite good because it screams so tight, so fast, it was as if the burden that he had just embraced had been thrown away and was under the breath of a gentle breeze.
"woww see this the pel**ur is home"
"heh I am not pel**ur yh" refers to the person who has addressed it as pel**ur with anger.
"oh he!. Why do I not know yh? it's not like it's a pel**ur"
"heh shut the fuck up! you don't know anything about this"
"massaaa, as far as I am?. I already know everything! including that cheap incident!" he laughed so arrogantly at the shasa that looked so sad and silent, without spouting a word of vengeance for his half-sister.
syasa left his step-sister who still continues to talk, he realized bacot fight with his stepbrother instead of going to reduce the problem will actually add problems for him, especially when his mood condition is so chaotic.
syasa then took a bath and cleaned himself after feeling fresh enough he then lay in his bed. Imagine his next life, will he continue to suffer under all the pressure that will continue? or will it end miserably, like suicide for example.
"hahahahahahahahahahaha I want to kill myself! am I that sebego yh? surely because I mostly watch soap operas, so kebawahalu me;)" because it was late at night the shasa began to fall asleep in his beautiful dreams. dreaming of a prince who will come to pick him up from hell to his paradise later that will make him happy, who can accept all the shortcomings he has.
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school
"wo!" boby came suddenly and deliberately startled the shasa.
"what the hell, ngagetin ajah"
"lagian loh early in the morning already daydreaming, daydreaming whatansih? daydreaming me yak,)" boby sat beside the shasa, both of them sitting on the school loft.
"gilllaaaaa. kepedean really loh, emang lu is very important yak until I have to dreamunin ellu?" syasa with his sewot tone. "bob according to loh.. am I not pantes yh make happy? I also want to be happy like other children, who can be loved by their master friends and those closest to them".
"so from earlier I just thought it was doang! so much so, Gilla.."
"gue tau maybe according to fantasy like that is crazy, but I want to remember all that bob! do you know how I have lived my life all this time? a life full of suffering and pressure that forced me to accept all that at my age can be said to still be vulnerable" involuntarily began to remove clear crystals from his eyelids.
"rain will not go down if not dengue! and after dark it will surely be bright, like the night that changes day.so just calm after sadness there must be happiness, happiness, loh it's strong proof that loh can hadepin all problems loh strongly and firmly alone" boby assures the shasa with his words
"isn't it cloudy not as safe as it will rain huh? likened after the coming of sadness does not as well promise the coming of happiness"
"soh wrong! god is fair he will never give trials beyond the limits of one's ability, and that is including a strong person! hence the god of love loh trials" boby smiled trying to convince the heart so that he was always strong to accept the trials to come.
"gue knows about it, but God is mistaken bon! I'm not a strong man, I can't afford bob!" syasa cried sobbing.
boby rests the head of the martyr on his shoulders. "cry if it will make you feel good, the question will always be there beside the tablets kok. loh can confide in me whenever you want"
I will always be there for you, I love the same and I will not have the heart to see my own sad loh. I love the same loh sya! I promise I will always protect you there will always be for you, even though love is the same I inner boby.
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boby is a childhood friend of syasa, he is a transfer child from Jakarta who is then in class with martyrdom when they sit on the bench of elementary school.because boby transfer children, the, children often bully him fortunately there is a feeling that always helps him, from there the friendship between the two is established until now.they are currently sitting on the bench of High School Class Xll. syasa majored Ips3 while boby was in the majors Ipa1. if it is said about boby achievements always get satisfactory grades while the only syasa in elementary school only he got a rank.
at the arrival of boby syasa sitting on the bench kls 3 Sd. at that time boby's body is very thin so children like to bully boby and boby can not defend himself. every hour of rest boby is always stalked by his classmates and can only cry, because he was tired of seeing boby who can only cry without fighting the syasa approaching him.
syasa stood put his hands on his waist and then stood in front of boby "heh boy whiny apaloh ngak can not be inem any loh can just cry doang yah trus ngelapur to mother loh! it's a mami's son".
"nih money loh I have taken do not cry anymore I can budek because listen to loh nangis mulu, loh it's a man' kok mushy anyway!" syasa then passed leaving boby. since kls 1.2, the elementary school of Shasa always get second rank but after the arrival of boby the rank decreases to rank three while boby is ranked first. syasa did not care much about all that anyway he never really wanted all that.
since the syasa helps boby, boby always bring supplies to be given to the syasa because boby tau syasa rarely bring school pennies, school pennies, syasa also always devoured the provisions given boby without refusing a second, boby only smiled at the shasa that ate so greedily.
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"oh yes I brought you something.."
"what the fuck?" she doesn't understand what Boby is saying
"gue bawain loh bekal,gue tau loh never really breakfast if you go to school" boby explained
"loh emang my best friend who is very understanding well, still remember aja luh" she said smilingly receiving supplies offered by boby for him. "when was the last time kaliloh bawain I stock?"
"when we tammat as dt yh? hahahahahahahahahhahaha they then laughed together to remember a little bit about elementary school.
syasa opened the lunch box that was given boby turned out to be the contents of fried rice "this is my own loh that makes" said boby boasting.
"can you cook, huh? weeeeee" the syasa mocked boby by sticking his tongue out
" you know what I think I can do kalli time" boby don't want to lose
"apparently delicious cuisine as well" while offering some mouthfuls of her mouth, because eating too greedy there is rice left on her thin lips. boby then reached out his hand to take the rest of the rice on the lips of Shasa, the two then looked at each other.
why is very beautiful loh sya, until my heart beats very fast I'm afraid not to rest if near the loh long-time kayak gini. and look at those lips as if those lips call me boby's inner.
unconsciously boby began to bring his face closer to the face of the shasa, until the distance of the face of the shasa and boby is only 3 inches away from the net they meet each other and gaze so long. realizing there was something strange with boby syasa immediately hit boby's stomach so tight that it made boby complain of pain.
"ohhhhh crazy well loh sya, it hurts to know" said boby while holding his stomach which still hurts.
"eat it don't be rude" the syasa with his sewot tone
"gue just want to see the beauty of loh from near death" said boby did not want to lose
"ehkkk not what what yh. ntar loh fall in love again same I'm brabe"
why the hell yes, what all this time our relationship is only limited to friends doang yh! have you been able to feel the same way I have been feeling all this time? I love very much the same, just leh that can make me comfortable, just leh that can make my heart karuan when near loh sya, inner boby.
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