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After breaking up with Arka, I became more alone in the library. The place that holds my memories with Arka. My longing is a little taken care of whenever I am among this sea of books.
It is still recorded clearly in my memory how my second encounter with Arka was here, at which time I still looked at her with admiration. I miss looking into those eyes and that smile.
Vanella, what the fuck. Stop thinking about him.
I tried to fight my own feelings, but it still felt so hard. I don't want to forget all those memories.
Every night I sleep, I play the music box given by Arka. His calm voice reminded me of the romance of Arka. I looked at the music box and I hugged the Ark-given teddy bear I threw and I kept it away from me because of my anger. But now I just want to always hold her tightly, as if not want to forget her.
“Darling, how would you like to forget him if you are still missing all this? Keep this stuff away from you. I don't want you to be sad continue.”
“But, Mom..”
Mom took the teddy bear from my arms. Now my mother hugged me.
“Mother, back when dad died, was Mom this sad too?”
“More than that, baby. Losing our loved ones to death is much more painful than losing them to betrayal. When we love someone so much, any mistake they make will be justified by our brains and we can easily forgive them. Then the loss will not feel so heavy because the most important for us, we can still look at it even if only from a distance. Unlike when death separates. We don't have time to look into the beautiful eyes of our loved ones again for even a second. Only through photos and all the memories recorded in the brain can we look at them and feel them near us.”
I listened to mother's words while still hugging her tightly. Slowly I fell asleep in mom's comfortable arms.
**
I chose to fill my free time on Sunday by playing to Ranti's house. Sharing a story and joking with her might be a bit of a relief for my sadness.
“Air in your house how high? You're the same mom you don't have a tangelem, right?”
“Hah? You say what the hell, Ran?”
“Lo right every day definitely nangisin guy who is pretentious. How many tears have you dungemin lo home how many meters?”
I rubbed Ranti's face with a pillow.
“Lo's house want me to flood too?”
Ranti replied to me by throwing a pillow as well.
“If you get weeping here, I suck the tears you use wc straws to run out. I can't cry anymore. My overall. The rich guy is ditangisin.”
“Sadis very lo same friends themselves. So try to fall in love so you know how sick it hurts to be rich I.”
“Ogah. Let me just go get it. I'm normal.”
“So according to you I'm not normal?”
“Neg. From birth there is no normal. The strangest creature I've ever met.”
I threw the pillow back at Ranti's face. We threw pillows to each other so many pillows scattered on the floor of Ranti's room. I tried to avoid the throw. I accidentally dropped a book. It looks like a diary. Out of curiosity, without asking Ranti for permission, I read it right away. Ranti who saw the book in my hand immediately jumped to snatch it and away from me. But I read the front page of the book. I was surprised by what I read. Ranti wrote a name with a symbol adorned love. That name is Fero.
“Fero? Ran, lo..”
“Van, you read?”
“My answer, Ran. Do you like Fero? Why did you shut this off from me? Since when was there a secret between us?”
Slowly Ranti moved her legs closer to me and sat down beside me.
“I'm sorry I didn't tell you the same story. Which you think is true. I can't be honest with you. Fero right..”
“Like me? You know I never liked him. You don't have to feel bad. Now I'm not feeling good. If I knew my best friend liked him, I would have gone further.”
“Don't do it, Van. I can't be jealous of my own friends. I know that love is not necessary to have. Even if I accept him, I will not be angry. Lo my best friend. I would share anything with you. Especially just sharing love.”
“Do not ngaco deh lo. Lo crazy! I never liked him and I never thought about him. Next time don't hide anything from me. Whatever it is, you can tell me. Inget, we must share and sacrifice for friends, but not for all things.”
We cuddled. Honesty always makes things better.
**
“Ran, I went to the bathroom first yes.”
“Not finished first?”
“My stomach is not good. Lo up to.”
“There are lo. Yes I finished ya.”
“Then I go to class.”
“Oke.”
I sped up my footsteps after paying for my food. I kept looking back, worried that Fero would follow me. Suddenly he was facing me. I was shocked and stopped my steps.
“Lo what the hell? Not tired of following me?”
“Never be tired.”
“You lo what?”
“This one time is against me. All this time I've been busy following you in-diem and steal your photos without saying anything. Now I want to talk.”
“What by the way? Prattler. I don't have much time.”
“Kok lo cuek very much the same me? Lo can deket same Malvin and Arka. Why am I jutek?”
“Lo not realising? It makes me uncomfortable. I feel like I have strange shadows all the time. You think I don't know if every day you follow me?”
“Gue doesn't care how you respond. I just want to talk. I love you the same. I don't want to go far from Lo.”
“Without me answering you already know my answer? From now on stop following me. Go away me.”
“Why? I can't.”
“Hot head really lo. Denger yes, one of my friends likes you and I do not want to hurt him with lo around me. I've lost one of my best friends and I don't want to lose another.”
“Oh so temen lo anyone likes the same guy who pursues lo this?” cetus Arka who suddenly came.
“Lo ask him to stay away for your best friend? Then why don't you do the same to Leony? He's your best friend too, right? Don't you want to get away from me for Leony? Sacrifice is fair dong. They are both friends lo,” continued Arka.
“Gue doesn't know what you mean. I've never deketin lo or even appeared in front of the face lo.”
“But you still often go to the library to ngobatin taste kangen lo the same me, right? Lo diem-diem still often think of me and hope that I will return to lo again?”
“PD is so! Yes I admit I still need time to move on, but I never once hoped that lo would return in my life. I am not going to!”
“Oh yes? Don't you miss this look?”
Arka brought her face closer to mine. Our eyes meet each other. I try to control my feelings. I pushed her body away from me.
“Don't ever dare decetin your face into me. I'm sick!”
“Then you also have to be aware that I never love you. Stop thinking about me with those fantasies. I will never go back to you again. I found a girl who really could make me fall in love, which is Leony. Never hurt her feelings.”
“Gue feels really bego ever fall in love with a rich creature lo. Now I feel lucky to be able to see the real face of lo.”
“So much as you say what. What's clear is you never do anything that will hurt my girl.”
Arka just left me. My heart felt pain again. I didn't expect that Arka could become a monster like this.
“Van, you don't papa?”
I ran without answering Fero's question. In one corner of the school corridor, I started crying. Again I can only cry.
