I'M NOT A WIDOW 2
The Heart of Dikki
POV Dikki Kelvin's
"Alexsa" the name I'll always remember.
Ever since I met her at the mall my longing for her has gotten bigger.
I've been trying to find information on the whereabouts of his best friend Nabila but got nothing, of course I will not just give up.
I'll try to get information about Alexsa.
To be honest in the depths of my heart I still love Alexsa so much, I miss her so much.
5 Years ago, I was not ready to be a father.
And that's why I asked the fetus in Alexsa's womb to be thrown out. I admit at that time I was a coward who did not want to be responsible for my own actions. I'm really sorry that Alexsa died then and plus I killed my own baby. Did I get a reply for ever wasting the chance to have a child.
Today my wife Aulia and I went to one of the malls to shop for something.
Aulia and I have been married for almost 4 years but to this day we have not been given a child. I'm sure Aulia's in trouble because 5 years ago Alexsa's boyfriend I loved could get pregnant. Even though the fetus is already in heaven.
I accidentally saw Alexsa and two very adorable boys walking hand in hand. I was looking at Alexsa.
" Whose son is that?" I asked in my heart not to stop staring at Alexsa who was getting farther away. Don't want to waste my chance to follow in their footsteps.
" Is that my son? My flesh-blood?" my heart inwardly guessed.
From afar I saw Alexsa so sincerely looking after both boys and girls.
" Whose child is that?" ask again.
" Why am I suddenly so happy to see them" my inner heart.
To get close to them I finally chose to come into the restaurant and sit not far from Alexsa's seat.
" lady... I want to eat this" said the little girl sitting next to Alexsa.
"Mama.." I said slowly.
" That means this little boy is my son 5 years ago" I said between being happy and also hating myself.
How can I let Alexsa through on her own.
Unknowingly my tears just drip.
" okay... Mama wrote, bang Reyhan, which one would you like to eat?" ask Alexsa again.
" It's mother" replied the boy I can hear quite clearly.
" Mother,"who else am I getting confused which of my children.
" You sure you ate some bread, baby,?" ask Alexsa.
" Yes mother" the boy replied.
" Yeah of uda.... What are his brothers going to eat? " ask Alexsa again.
At the table were two well-dressed women who looked like a baby sitter.
When I heard their laughter, I was somehow so happy.
" It seems you're happy without me" I said as I ate the steak I ordered.
" Are these children my children? or both" my mind wonders if Alexsa's fetus survived.
" Uda on fullness yet?" ask Alexsa.
" Mama wants ice cream" said the girl adorable.
" Well, okay, but we go for a walk first want to play a game?" alexsa said again.
" Want mother" this time the boy answered.
" Ma... Where is papa? papa left us?" ask Alexsa the girl.
" Papa is still working dear, you will be the same as us" replied Alexsa.
" What papa?" I said it was like a knife was tearing my heart. I can't believe Alexsa is married.
" Sir, I want to pay" he said again.
Not long after a waiter came up to Alexsa I saw him pull out a black credit card.
" Black card" I whispered in disbelief.
"Thank you" Alexsa said, smiling politely.
" Mama want to change shoes for a while you wait here yeah" said Alexsa as she stood up and prepared to leave.
As he was about to leave accidentally he looked at me quickly I turned my face away.
" May he not see me" I hope in my heart.
For Alexsa to have walked out of the restaurant, I immediately paid for the food I ordered and was about to go out to see Alexsa asking directly about our son.
I ran small from behind following Alexsa's footsteps.
Because the visitor was quite crowded I lost track of Alexsa and suddenly my hand was in someone's hand.
" Dear you why did you leave me?" said Aulia with a sullen face.
" Sorry, I was hungry" I replied, taking the bag out of my wife's hand.
" Are you bored?" asked Aulia again hugging my arm.
" Aren't you, baby, buying uda? Well uda we go home" I said as I rubbed Aulia's face.
He was a good wife and loved me wholeheartedly but his extended family thought that I was a weak man because until now we had not been gifted a child.
I had Aulia walking towards a nearby town. I'm still looking for Alexsa's whereabouts there hoping to see you again.
Arriving in the car it seemed like the universe was on my side today.
I saw Alexsa walk back into the mall.
" Dear.." call Aulia to touch my arm gently.
" You see what? Seriously" asked Aulia following my eyes straight ahead.
" Don't baby, I didn't see anything" I answered while putting on my seatbelt.
" Oh yes" replied Aulia believing.
I directly started the car engine and slowly retreated following the exit path.
On the road I did not stop thinking about what I had heard and seen. My little heart is pretty sure it's my son and Alexsa.
" I have to get proof" my mind is so sure.
" Dear... I notice from us back from your mall his attitude is strange, what is it, dear? you got a problem?" asked Aulia who turned out to be aware of my change in attitude.
" Don't be happy, all is well" I replied trying not to be nervous.
I could see there was a sense of dissatisfaction on Aulia's face hearing my answer just now.
It's impossible for me to say the raw thing myself yet to know the truth.
I really hope that among the little boys is my son and Alexsa.
POV Dikki Kelvin
