I'm my Honey Tantaku

Turns out There's a Want

"Did mom have a candidate for me?"

Even though what mom said was a dream, but it was quite surprising to me.

"Yes there is. If there isn't, where would you dare to say this?"

Now I'm really surprised, because my mother's words turned out to be serious.

"Oh, I'm still young. What is the wedding rush? Do not give hope to people. At least I talked to my cake. Don't kill yourself."

Mother seemed confused to see my response that seemed to dislike the plan.

"This is what I told you. After all, you're 20 years old. It's worth getting married at that age."

I exhaled violently. I was amazed by my mother's mindset. As if every high school graduation, the child has to leave the house. I became careless.

"Oh, I don't need a fee. I even gave some of my salary. Is that less? Didn't Ayu, Diana and Fariz send money?"

Mom's face started to wither. Eyes dewy. I'll make sure in a moment, that the grain seems like it'll wet his cheek if I don't calm him down right away.

"They send money to mom only occasionally. The cost of living is huge, nduk. If you get married, your expenses can decrease. The two rooms below, I'll drop them off."

Ah, I just found out that my sisters are that selfish. They thought the money from the boarding room was enough for our living and school expenses.

"Yes already. If so, I choose. I'm out of this house, out of town, or do I stay here to pay for room rent and food? I think and detail first everything. I'm not angry. I'm grown up and working. I understand the hassle of managing finances."

I said it like that because I don't want to add to my mind.

"The problem isn't just that, Ice. Ibuk has had many dependents on Tanri since your father died. For the salvation of your father, marriage Ayu, Diana, Fariz, build stairs and your school fees. While the cost money - this cost is just enough to eat all of us."

Mother began to reveal the secret that she had been alone.

"Lho. Did you say debt is just asking for help? If it is considered debt, yes let's settle it together. If for the paternity, I estimate how much money? While the cost of school and marriage, let them be paid. I will also calculate the cost of my school and my sisters. We'll return the money to Tanri."

I tried to give a solution to mother, so as not to be burdened with an unwritten debt with her sister-in-law.

"That's a lot of nduk. I just said ask Tanri for help. While Tanri used to ask that you have graduated will be made his wife. Mother at that time considered it easy, because you were still a child. If counted as a debt, he does not want if the money is paid in installments. Must be paid cash. Because it's been a long time. Then later, for your sister's fee how? Their path is long. Your brothers thought of their own home after coming out of this house. I'm confused."

I thought my aunt's husband was sincere in helping us. It turns out that his gift was just a mode. Of course I was surprised because I was barter in the agreement of unwritten accounts payable for my brothers and sisters.

I expressed my astonishment about my brother-in-law to my mother.

"Hehehe. Tanri is young. How could you like a fat and old mom? Your figure doesn't feel like he's here, does he want you? "

Mom tried to pry my eyesight and feelings when Tanri came home.

"Yes anyway. He's very attentive to me. I don't think he loved me as his son. Turns out how does he want it? Did you like his bangs?"

I expressed my anger at my mother about the strange attitude of om Tanri to me. I never stopped shaking my head to find this strange case that happened to me.

"Yes weird. But Tanri is just a brother-in-law, nduk. Not the real uncle. So you can still marry me."

Loh, how could I casually discuss Tanri's feelings and her desire to marry me? I was amazed at the way my mother thought.

"Yet. Remember ndak, who's Aunt Mardiah? She's mom's real sister. If I marry Tanri, have you thought about the impact? Without a scandal, he's been cut off to us. Especially if she finds out that her husband married me? He must be raging buk. All women will also be angry if her husband remarries. Our relationship with my aunt will be no better. There will be bloodshed in our family. After all, if the office finds out that Tanri is remarried, it will be dangerous for his career, buk. He could be fired. Don't mind Tanri's lust. Use our sanity to think about the bad good of the perverted man's wishes. Let's discuss with the brothers. Don't let me be grounded for the benefit of all of you. Don't be selfish like this. I'm a human, not a doll that's easy to play at will by its owner. Please do not understand my feelings and aunt Mardiah."

I said at length, trying to open my mother's reasoning to think logically about the risks of the absurd idea.

"No, don't get caught." My mother replied relaxed and short.

"Well, buk. As smart as a jumping squirrel, it will definitely fall too. Simultaneously close the carcass, long - long will be smelled too. I thought about it anyway?"

I began to raise my voice because of the emotions that began when my mother was sticking to the plan between her and her sister-in-law without my knowledge.

"Tanri is pinter, nduk. He must have planned everything well. Just relax."

My heart immediately slipped upon hearing the answer of the person who had given birth to me.

"Astaghfirullah, ibuk. Mbok yo sober. It's a dangerous thing. Many will be hurt just because of lust. Imagine the feelings of your aunt's children. If until the wishes of om Tanri materialized and become the child of the marriage, what is not confusing? How to call the kids later? Trus piye if this story is exposed in the community? If what was married to Tanri was mother, it was a little mengingan. It's still natural."

The middle-aged woman beside me still put on a cool face.

"The bus is old and the padlrot. Tanri ndak. He wants the kinyis - the clear kinyis. Lek Diah is angry, yo faced. Important ibuk wis ndak duwe debt and guaranteed life."

'Oh God. What was my mother's heart and mind made of?'

I breathed a heavy sigh and monologued in my heart at the Dzat that has made me exist in this world.