
I was sitting on a computer desk chair. Many were silent and all became uninspired. My youth was destroyed early aka premature.
Not yet what, my heart has been crushed by the excavator. Still 17 years old, at that time I spent a lot of time daydreaming. My mind is consumed by women's affairs.
No sweet seventeen, no stories with schoolmates, no passionate teenage memories.
There are only a series of life stories full of failure. I'm just a young man who always loses to anything.
I once felt defeated by my wicked stepmother. I've always lost to my authoritarian father and this time it was the greatest defeat of my life.
I lost in romance. I must realize, if I'm not the heart of a woman named Dira.
He seems to have chosen someone else. He never thought I was a man from the beginning.
I'm just a cute, innocent little boy. I can't be a real man in his eyes.
My daydreams were blown away by the phone ring, I saw the screen if Jesica's number kept calling non-stop.
But I chose to ignore, I was having no taste in continuing to argue about college in America.
My eyes began to fall on the computer keyboard that I had broken yesterday. At the very least, I have to fix what I have destroyed.
At least all my hopes have not been destroyed, I see there is a small hope in the row of keyboard keys.
****
In the afternoon I was at a computer repair shop. There's Ko Alex who's always been my subscription.
He is very smart in computer assembly, not infrequently I always learn a lot from him. He was also very good to me, never hesitated to share his expensive knowledge.
"It's real, watch out for it being ruined again" Ko Alex said with a smile.
I'm happy, because finally my favorite keyboard has healed completely. All this time I let him get damaged from focusing too much on women's affairs.
"Thanks ya Ko," I replied with great respect.
"Where do you want to go to college? Denger from Jesica going to America?" ask him with a curious face.
"I don't know, I'm confused. Afraid of not samping her brains," I replied with a faint smile.
"Ah Erick time is rich. No can't, you have to go to college. You are smart, different and brave" Ko Alex said with a face full of confidence.
"The hell ko?" ask me seriously.
"Alaah has gone there, bored ko see yu continue to play here mulu," led Ko Alex with his laughter that is always relaxed.
*****
On the way home from Ko Alex's place, I began to reflect on everything. About my purpose so far dabbled in the world of computers, programming, developers etc.
While walking down the sidewalk near the mall. I was shocked by the figure of the woman standing in my way from the front.
"Ka Dira," I said slowly.
She smiled very widely, her eyes bulging and her cheeks red. He walked up to me with beautiful steps.
"Hey Reza, well we can meet ya here," he said as he touched my shoulder in a friendly manner.
I was nervous and embarrassed, not knowing what to do. Between happy and sad, the two collide with each other late on.
"Yes I just got in there, out of computer keyboard service," I replied very awkwardly.
"Oh so, mmmmm how if tonight you want me to eat dinner, calm me who treat," invited Dira with a face full of hope.
I have not responded, of course I really want to accept the invitation. It's just that I'm still at a loss to reveal everything freely.
I've always been clumsy and awkward in all situations with Dira. It's very hard to mix it up casually.
"Ok," replied me with a nod that looked very expensive. He didn't know my heart was flying into the air.
****
this is a very historic moment. Finally the opportunity came. He apparently took me to eat at a lower-middle-class Japanese restaurant.
She is sometimes careless and stupid, but on the other hand she can be very motherly. He very wisely looked for the type of menu that matched my young age.
"This is a lot of meat, you have to eat this yes, let the school be smart," said Dira while pointing to a picture of food that read Gyu Katsu.
I kept quiet, just enjoying the woman acting attentively.
"This adds the same tempura salad in manyin," orders her with a very chatty typical mother complex.
"Eat a lot, do not get sick, the rice is spent," said Dira and he was still busy himself with the menu book.
"If you were Dira, what would you eat?" ask me with courage.
"I? sushi, again on the diet" she replied with a shy face.
Finally, he ordered food. He sat comfortably in that chair. This time he looked at me seriously.
"Where is the school going?" ask Dira to arrive.
"Currently."
"Still like to play computer yes, I often really see you alone in the room just sitting in front of the computer, does not hurt his eyes," asked Dira continuously.
"No, just a hobby."
"Oh hobby, get some money from there?"
"Yes." Yeah."
"Not."
"Well? Keep what? Edit the photo."
"Not really."
"Keep what dong?"
"Coding."
"Ah what the hell?"
"Make your website, apps, business services, and more."
Both of Dira's eyes bulged, she put on a face of disbelief.
"Wih, very sophisticated. Fun dong his rich work Doraemon."
"Ko Doraemon."
"And in his magic bag came out objects from the future. Rich you continue to work in front of the computer, it could be later 10 or 20 years to come will be something very sophisticated."
At that time I still did not understand all Dira's words. I just think of it as a joke of a sissy.
I could only smile, as if I understood his intentions. At that time, I did not think about what was going on with Doraemon.
"So you have to sell the future, rich Doraemon Hahahahaha." he said with a bitter laugh.
"Oh i-y-a Doraemon," I replied quietly and in wonder.
While giving a demonstration, his hands went into the pocket of the front jacket. He then said while imitating the typical voice of Doraemon.
"Bamboo Propeller," he said while pretending to put a bamboo propeller on his head.
Laughing this time, he was very funny. I'm pretty entertained with his super crisp guyonan ok.
He put his hand back in his front pocket. Then put his hand up.
"Food-delivering magic box," he said was increasingly similar to Doraemon's voice.
I laughed more, I couldn't help it. He's acting funny.
"Oject anywhere..."
"Ko Ojek ka, not his door anywhere," asked me while holding back the laughter and stomach that had been tickling.
"Well faster than the door, a lot of motorcycle taxis if the door is heavy carry HAHAHA.. "
We laughed together, looking closely at each other.
I fell more in love with her. He is so unique and special.
God, this way I can't just take it off. Is it true that I should reject America for a woman like her?
*****
At about 10pm we just finished eating. At that time I eagerly spent all the orders that Dira gave me for free.
This is the best Japanese food I have ever tasted. I really enjoyed it, I really liked it.
We were both sitting in front of the minimarket, where we spent beer and cigarettes.
The atmosphere is quiet and quiet. Suddenly my feelings became uncertain. Is this a good time to express feelings that have long been hidden.
Is there a chance in his recess for me?
Can he understand that there is genuine love from a high school boy?
"Mmm I can say no" I asked with great fear.
"Oh yes, by the way. I'm ready to go" Dira replied very quickly. Without him knowing in a moment I will express this feeling of love.
"Mmmmmm...."
"What the hell is Reza. Ko got scared," said Dira in a joking tone.
Suddenly there was an HP sound, he then answered the incoming call.
"I'm here, yes it's the same Reza. This again just sits in the minimarket," said Dira.
My concentration is split, I'm out of focus. Then I noticed that Dira started waving from the street.
I saw the direction the hand was waving and there Hary was walking towards our place.
"Reza, your walikelas are coming" said Dira with great excitement.
"Sir gu-ru," I replied nervously.
"Now we're dating."
"Daughter?"
"Yes, I'm so happy, I finally got to meet a guy as good as Hary."
I was stunned, all my guts and courage suddenly disappeared in an instant. At that moment my heart suddenly hurt.
It turns out I was in camp before declaring love.
How tragic!