Husband's Regrets: Revenge Marriage

(MM&GL) CHAPTER 15. Love Stupid.

Joana can't hide her angry look seeing Marvin being happy with another woman. How could the man so casually laugh happily after doing this all to Joana?

The man he adored and defended desperately. A man who Joana strongly believed since he was a teenager until he was willing to give his chastity to the man. Give her time and her whole life. But what Joana gets is only a betrayal, and more painful is that Marvin has been the cause of being a paralyzed woman because the man forced Joana to abort in an illegal place.

"I don't want to, I don't want you to be happy when I suffer like this" Joana muttered with teeth to hold back the anger.

Without thinking much, Joana pushed her wheelchair closer to the man. Perhaps unable to reply to him, but he wanted to give a little slap to the brash man.

"Miss Mega, where are you going?" Tita is surprised to see Joana who suddenly leaves, she rushes to follow him so as not to lose track.

Joana continues to push her wheelchair, passing through the heat of the bustling sun to meet Marvin.

"Marvin, which flower do you think is prettier?" the woman asked with Marvin's arm.

"You're prettier, honey." Marvin launched his boast that made the woman blush.

Joana increasingly hated to see him, after being close to the man he immediately pulled his hand violently and pushed him to fall.

"Bast jerk man!" joana shouted with anger.

Marvin was certainly surprised to get such a sudden attack, but when he saw Joana he smiled cynically. He immediately rose with the help of his new lover.

"Darling, are you okay?" asked the woman Marvin looked at his lover with a worried look.

"No problem, honey. Just a little bit of encouragement from a paralyzed woman won't hurt me" Marvin said cynically, looking down on Joana, too bored with her.

"You're a jerk, Marvin! Have you forgotten who made me think? You, Vin! Because of you I became a paralyzed woman. Give it back, Vin. Give me back my normal legs!" Joana gets angry and hits Marvin again.

The deep pain and disappointment made Joana so hysterical. Wh why? Why would he fall in love with a guy like Marvin? When Xander can give his all, he still loves Marvin. But why the figure of the man he loved so much became a figure that had destroyed his life.

"What the fuck are you, let go!" snapped Marvin, he dispelled the blow that Joana threw at him.

"You're bad, Vin. You have broken me, you have to take responsibility. You're evil!" Joana kept shouting and beating Marvin blindly, her opponent could not be held back either.

"Let go! You crazy woman!" Marvin was so upset, he pushed Joana hard that she fell out of her wheelchair.

"Sickness, Vin ...." Joana was crying more, her legs hurt, but her heart hurt more to get this kind of treatment.

"You who have started first, you little girl don't know yourself. You say I'm the most guilty, then what about you? You are even the despicable woman of the humiliated in this world, cih trash," scorned Marvin as he spit on the ground, he already has no feelings for Joana anymore.

Even when they were dating, Marvin never felt that feeling. It's just that Joana loves him too much, too bad to miss a rich girl like Joana. Now that Joana is not the heir to the Medison family, Marvin is reluctant.

"Preferably first to speak up before saying someone else is bad. You're worse than me, Joana. Women don't know themselves" Marvin said.

It further broke Joana's heart, he grasped the ground beneath him firmly. Wreaking her pain by hurting her physique.

"Miss Mega, what happened to, you?" shouted Tita who had just found Joana, she was shocked to see Joana who was resting on the ground.

Joana did not answer, all she did was cry. Crying his stupidity, and keep it that way. Hopefully, if all that happened was just a nightmare and will soon disappear when he wakes up tomorrow morning.

"Miss Mega, I will help you," said Tita.

Again Joana did not answer, the woman seemed to lose the spirit of life with her life. His eyes were empty with tears flowing endlessly.

Shortly after, Felix who had just finished receiving the call came to the two of them. But he was surprised to see Joana who was crying so much.

"Joana, what's wrong with you?" asked Felix with a confused face.

Joana just shook her head slowly, not wanting to share any stories. A painful story that he will always remember in his life. Also a story that will always remind Joana if as strong as any woman trying and give all her time and life. Will still lose and be worthless to any man.

The men only come when they need to and leave after they get bored. While her? Still hold on to the promise that was once said.

"Joana, tell me, why are you crying? What makes you like this?" Felix asked again because Joana was silent.

"I want to go home" said Joana briefly.

"Going home? Don't you want to buy a cat?" Felix frowned puzzled, what has happened?

"No, I'm just going to go home." Joana shook her head softly in response, there was already no interest whatsoever anymore. She just wanted to cry at home and let go of all my feelings.

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On the way home, Joana did not say a word. The woman was silent as she looked at the street. Sometimes his tears flowed but soon he was so that no one would see.

But Felix saw it. Looking at this moment Joana was just a fragile woman, a woman who had a sad look in her eyes, as if calling someone to pity her.

"By the way, I've called my friend. He can do therapy for your feet" Felix said.

Felix dared to open up because at this time he was only with Joana in his car. Tita accidentally asks Tita not to follow their car, because she wants to talk to Joana.

"Do I deserve that healing?" lirih Joana without looking at Felix.

"Of course, maybe I don't know what your problem really is. But fighting to be healed is the right of every human. You cannot just rely on the destiny outlined by God. You have the right to determine your own destiny" Felix said.

"I have the right to decide my own destiny, but ultimately God will decide everything. The ending is the same in the hands of God, if it is true that I can determine my destiny, I want God to uproot my life now," said Joana seemed to have been very frustrated with her very useless life.

"Joana, what are you talking about? A lot of people out there are trying to heal, but you're acting like this. It means you lost before the war. Maybe you're angry right now, wanting revenge on someone who hurt you. But you have to know, the best revenge is to forgive the man's mistake" Felix said in a soft voice, increasingly convinced that the woman next to him was not doing well.

"I tried it, Felix. But my heart is not that good ...." Joana answered the words in a soft voice, her breathing was very heavy as if there was so much weight on her shoulders.

"Joana"

"The car's coming up soon, I'm going down. Thanks for the time."

Joana doesn't want to hear anything else Felix has to say. The woman immediately asked Tita to help her get down as soon as she got home. Joana did not even say a polite farewell to Felix, she went straight into the room and locked the door.

Joana was silent, closing her eyes because of her painful head. But when he closed his eyes, it was precisely the shadow where Marvin insulted him and looked down on him gaped.

Joana opened her eyes again, but the shadow did not disappear, it became clearer.

'Hahaha, you're just a stupid woman, Joana! Hahaha lady is paralyzed.'

'Disabled woman, who is the man you want to be with?'

'Do it before you corner me. Look at yourself and you will realize how miserable you are.'

'Hahaha the paralyzed woman.'

The voice sounded very clear as Marvin was laughing beside him and making fun of him. The longer it becomes clear that Joana is closing both ears.

"NO!" Joana screamed loudly while covering her ears.

"No! I'm not a paralyzed woman, I can heal!" joana shouted again, getting hysterical. His originally normal gaze was suddenly like a confused person.

"Arghhhhhhhh! Marvin, you're evil! Arghhhhhhh!" Suddenly Joana screamed hysterically, she reached for anything her hands could reach and threw it away.

"I'm not a paralyzed woman, I can heal."

The words kept coming from Joana's lips while throwing away the things in the room. Joana was crying hysterically like a madman, her mind was completely muddled and could think of nothing but anger within her.

Deep anger, hurt, and disappointment make Joana like she is not herself, she destroys everything and keeps screaming.

Finally, Joana cried loudly and then took a sleeping lamp throwing it towards the dressing glass to shatter into pieces.

Yggwggg!!!

Glass immediately scattered to the floor, shattered and added to the chaotic atmosphere there. No one knew what Joana was thinking back then, the woman suddenly dropped her body and dragged herself closer to the glass.

Joana took it, her tears kept flowing. Holding that very sharp glass. Joana already has nothing to be used as a spirit to live..Why should he live if he has to suffer?

'Mother, I'll catch up with mom ....'

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